Chapter 8

" Hey, come in" she said motioning him to sit down

"Thanks" he mumbled as he walked over towards the couch.

She walked over and sat down next to him.

Sam was trying to think of something to say to him, anything but for once she couldn't think of anything to say. From the moment he had left the hospital earlier today she had constantly thought about him and her situation. She knew that he wanted to be with her, and she wanted him to but she wasn't sure she could handle his work. After spending the whole day thinking about it she had made up her mind.

"Sam, I know that you've already told me that you can't be with me because of my job, and I respect you'r decision. That dosen't mean I have to like it. I don't know exactly how to explain what I'm feeling, mainly because I can't express in words what I'm feeling towards you. We may not have known each other very long but I feel as though I've known you forever. Like I said I will respect you'r decision but - " That was all Jason could get out before Sam interrupted him.

"I've changed my mind " she said

"You've what" he said not sure if he heard her right.

"I've changed my mind. I want to be with you Jason, I have since I first layed eyes on you. I told myself that I would never come in contact with what you do again. You changed my mind, I don't care about you'r job, I care about being with you."

"What do you mean you told yourself you'd never have anything to do with my business again" he asked

Sam let out a sigh, she knew she would have to telll him but she wasn''t sure if she was really ready to tell him about her past.

"About three years ago I was involved with a guy who was in the mob. I never loved him, I was just with him because it was fun and exciting. One day we were going to get in his car when it blew up. I was in a coma and had severe internal damage.A few days after I woke up I found out that I wouldn't be able to concieve children. I spent two weeks in the hospital and lost my chances to ever have children and he only got some cuts and bruises. After I got out of the hospital I found out that a couple days after the explosion he left town, I haven't heard from him since." by the time she was finaished she had tears coming down her face.

He haden't expected to hear something like that. He now relized why she haden't wanted to be with him, she was probably scared that she would get hurt again.

"I'm sorry Sam, I know understand why you didn't want to be with me. I promise you, that I will always do everything I can to make sure that you are safe." he said while wiping away the tears on her face.

"I trust you Jason, and I know you won't let anything happen to me." she told him, and she really meant it

They sat together in each others arms for awhile and then sam spoke up.

"Jason, will you stay with me tonight." she said knowing she would feel better if she could be in his arms all night.

"I would love to."

Sam lead him into her bedroom. She went into the bathroom and changed into her pajama's. When she came back out she saw that Jason was just in his pants and wa already in bed. She walked over and joined him.

Sam woke up the next morning to the sound of her alarm clock going off. She really widhed she didn't have to go in to work today. She looked around the room and saw that Jason wasn't there. After sitting up she saw Jason walk into the room with two cups of coffee.

"Good morning" he said handing her a cup.

"Thank, good morning to you too." she said taking a sip of the delicious hot coffee.

"What time do you have to go into work" he asked her

"I have to be there for 8, so I've got all of an hour to wake up and get there." she said in a tired voice

"Im taking it your not looking forward to it"

"No I'm not, I wish I had today off, but once I get there I'll be fine. I do love my job."

"Well while you wake up Im going to go take a shower. I can drop you off at work if you want"

"Yeah that would be great"

Forty five minutes later Sam and Jason walked off the elevator on to the 10th floor.

"I'll see you later" Jason said before he leaned over and gave her a kiss

Sam headed over towards the nurses station. She was getting a file out when she heard someone come up behind her.

"You look much better today" Liz said noticeing how much happier she looked.

"I feel a lot better, Things are good now." she said thinking of the wonderful feeling she had knowing she was in Jason's arms all night.

"Im sorry but I've got to go, Patients are awaiting" Sam said holding up the fle in her hand. "I'll talk to you later"

"Bye"