A/N- This story was found and given to me by Serra. It is the complete diary of Rebecca during her journey with Eliwood, Hector, and Lyn.

Through My Eyes

Dear Journal,

It hurt so bad to be left behind with the first camp when we were attacked by Uhai upon reaching the island. But Wil insisted I should stay, since I was still wobbly from being so seasick. The way he looked at me with those beautiful eyes of his I couldn't go against his wishes.

I wish so much I hadn't seen Matthew's face when we found Leila dead in the forest. It will haunt me the rest of my life. So much pain, anger, sorrow. There were no tears. Only shock, disbelief…When he asked to be allowed to bury her, I had to walk away so no one would see my cry. Just as we were attacked Matthew returned and told Lord Hector that he would fight. So he did. No one could think of a reason for him to not. I walked over to him. He must have heard me because he turned to me, a smirk masking his face;
"I loved her." He whispered. Then hurried off to join the others. I thought I'd cry again, but Lowen came and let me ride with him back to the others who'd stayed behind and I knew I couldn't be that weak. After all, Sir Kent and Sir Marcus wouldn't cry because of something that didn't involve them! And somewhere deep down I wanted to be as tough as them. Now I wish I'd just cried.

Wil noticed I was sad when we joined up again. He asked what was wrong, but I wouldn't tell him. It was for the same reason I'd avoided Lowen all day: It hurt too much to talk about.
I kept looking for Matthew. I knew he was dying inside, even if his face didn't show it. I just wanted to help…
I hate war. I hate fighting. So much blood, so many unspilled tears, like acid in your heart.
There is another thief in out numbers now, named Legault, but I haven't spoken to him. Florina's sister Fiora joined too, but I only spoke to her briefly. One of Fargus's men, Dart will now travel with us, but it doesn't matter much. Everyone is in so much pain.
Marques Pherae is dead. Eliwood is drowning in his sorrow. But I can't talk to him. I can't seem to help anyone. I wish I were more like Serra, she's so brave, and everyone relies on her.

Oswin told me;

"Everyone will be inexpendible someday, you just have to wait." I hugged him. He is so much a father to me. But I still did not cry.

We are back on the ship now, heading for mainland. Before we boarded, Wil pulled me aside.

"You feel other's pain, and bring it on yourself."

"I know…"I whispered, staring at my feet.
"I just don't want to see you hurt." He murmured. I looked up with wide eyes as he pulled me into a hug. I held him for a moment before he wiped a stray tear from my cheek and silently lead me onboard. I felt so strong with his arms around me. I will hold onto that, as I follow Eliwood with his new resolve.
With Acid Tears,

Rebecca

Iyessence- -.- Thanky! I'm so sorry that the chapters got so short…I promise not to let them get that short ever again! I hope you liked the Matthew/Leila sentiment. I put that in specifically for you!

Mic- blush Thanks! I'm glad you enjoy it!

A/N- I hope that was longer…I'm sorry I let them get so short! I really appreciate you reviews! I look forward to more!