A/N-This story was found and given to me by Serra. It is the complete diary of Rebecca during her journey with Eliwood, Hector, and Lyn.

Through My Eyes

Dear Journal,

It has been so long since last I wrote, so much has happened! Who knew that the world could hold such cold hearts? So many parents wishing to kill their own children! The prince, and poor Nino! Even if Sonia was not her birth mother, she still should have loved her! She took her in and raised her! May her black heart never find peace in hell.

Our first opponent was called Vaida. She was a very powerful wyvern lord, but we never actually faced her. She withdrew when most of her troops had been destroyed. Everything was stained in blood. I was glad we didn't stop to sleep that night, for fear of my own nightmares. Why could she not have pulled back sooner? And why did she have to attack us at all? I can't get the blood stains out of my bandana. I think I'm going to have to burn it, along with my skirt.

Lady Lyndis is a skilled tracker. Between her and Rath's skills we managed to find yet another Black Fang base. We there learned of a plot for the prince's death! I forgot to mention, we only tracked them because the Fire Emblem was stolen, and without it the queen would tell us nothing of the Shrine of Seals.

At the base, we were met by Kenneth. A bishop working with the Black Fang. It scares me to think that even a holy man can be ensnared by Nergal. This man, he had no heart. I almost feel that he was a morph. Florina, Lady Louise, and I, assisted by Lord Pent, defeated him.

The snow was bright red, like the sunset. I retched several times, and wasn't allowed to walk. Instead I rode with Lowen back to the palace so we could save the prince, Zephiel.

It was nice to talk to Lowen again, though I felt miserable. Lowen was very quiet, and I wish he'd talked. It was a quiet ride, and all I had to think about was all the people who'd died by my arrows. People who had families, and homes. People who had no part in our troubles, who were probably just trying to earn money or protecting their families! I couldn't cry. I couldn't pity them. And Lowen's sad voice whenever he spoke only made it harder to hold back the tears. I think he is hurt about something. I don't want to pry, but I should probably ask. I want to help him, he is so kind to me, he shouldn't grieve anymore.

When he helped me off his horse, he hugged me. I hugged him back. It made me feel so much better. He really is so sweet to me, he reminds me of my brother, though I know he is not. I really must try to make him feel better too!

Erk has been far more cheerful since Lord Pent and Lady Louise joined our party. It is so nice to see him smile. It makes Serra so very happy as well. I'm glad she is happy. After Priscilla joined, Serra has gone on very few missions. I think she feels left out. But she still puts on a cheery face and laughs as if nothing were wrong. It bothers me that no one even tries to read her emotions, when they seem so plain to me.

The poor prince. To have a father who actually wishes to see him dead! I feel so very sorry for him! And he only wanted to have a whole family…I can relate to his hurt, though only slightly. I feel for him greatly.

The assassins who were sent to kill him were only being used by Nergal. The girl, Nino, is only a year younger than me. She is very sweet and only was going to this mission to try to please her mother. I feel so sorry for her, but I hope she and I will be good friends, seeing as how she is only a year younger than me. The other assassin is named Jaffar. He scared me. He was one of the Four Fangs. Legault says his nickname was the Angel of Death. Creepy. Lord Hector doesn't trust him, but…I think he is…different, then he once was. He seems so care so much for Nino. I believe he'd do anything to keep her safe. It's hard to tell, but he can't be much older than 19. I suspect he may love Nino. They are so cute together! Still, the way he fights, the look in his eye at the sight of blood…it scared me.

Once again, Hawkeye amazed me as he charged in after Ursula, a powerful Valkyrie, and one of the Four Fangs. He took her bolting blows as if they were nothing while taking on at least 10 strong footmen. Never before have I been in awe at the sight of a massacre. I am glad Hawkeye is on our side, though I'd rather die at his hands than at the hands of someone as scary as Jaffar, or as reckless as Lord Hector.

Sain was promoted to Paladin and Lucius is a bishop. Sain was bragging much. Lucius amazes me. He deserved to be a bishop. His fighting style makes it so no blood is spilled. The enemy dies bathed in a pool of light. If you must die, I'm sure that is the best way. If only I weren't so good with a bow I'd become a cleric, like Serra, so I could be a bishop. But Cami says I am irreplaceable, so…maybe I am glad to be useful. But it is only because I can shoot straight, and kill my enemies.

I wonder what death is like. How long does it hurt? It there an after life?

There is a commotion outside. I think I hear Lord Hector and Lord Eliwood's voices. I must go see what it is. I'll write more later.

Bloodstained,

Rebecca

guilty archdevil LOL! I'm sorry! I didn't mean to sound harsh! No, you really helped me decide on whether to take the twist I was planning or not. I think I will. Thank you very very much!

Iyessence I am so sorry….that one was short….but it did fit it's purpose! I'm glad you like my Angst writing! This chapter isn't nearly so dark, but I hope you enjoyed it too (Putting 3 chapters into one entry was difficult….;)

Oak I hope this chapter is the longer one you've been looking for! I'm glad you like it! No…there really isn't any yaoi…But I have been thinking of adding some…you know that there won't be much, Rebecca isn't going to go into detail on it after all! But I'll see if I can add some in for you! I do have a one-sided Rebecca/Lowen thing going…discretely…but it may come into the light…once I ….well, you'll see!

A/N- Well, there was my longer chapter for those of you who have been waiting! I know…it's barely two pages…TT Oh well…I'm working on it! I'm really loving all your great feedback! It's helping me a lot! Please review now, I can always use more ideas and support!