A/N-This story was found and given to me by Serra. It is the complete diary of Rebecca during her journey with Eliwood, Hector, and Lyn.
Through My Eyes
If there a God, I hope he's reading this,
We're in Ostia now. Lord Hector took us there. He didn't know where else to go. Neither did Lady Lyn, or Cami. In fact, the only one who seemed able to think of anywhere to go at all and was able to take charge of our group was Lord Hector. And that's why we're here.
Nergal is truly an evil man. I know it is not him we can pin this sorrow on, but if not for him we would never have felt this…this pain...this intense sorrow…
I don't think I should make a record of what happened. That would never help. I just…have to write. I have to channel my sorrow somewhere. I will not cry. I will not write the sad truth either. Ninian will return! She…Lord Eliwood…I don't think he'll ever be the same…I don't know if he can cope…and Nils…Oh I can't! One moment….
Wil held me. While the blue sky rained, he held me. I felt his heart racing against my cheek. It made me all the more realize that I haven't told him that I love him. What if he doesn't know? What if Eliwood never told Ninian? What do you do, when it's too late? When you can't go back?
My bow is my curse, my sin. As long as I can shoot more and more people can die and more and more people can feel this loss…the complete helplessness…What do you do, when it's over? Do you cry? Do you keep going? Is it just over? Does…is….is everything just gone? Like it didn't even matter? Like you entire heart, you sun, your sky, your moon, you love….is just another casualty?...Are they…just…gone?
Rebecca
A/N- Angst…I love it…Well, please review! And if anyone has read the HP fic, From Sugar To Spice, can you please tell the authoress to READ THE REST OF THIS SO SHE CAN HELP ME! Ok, review now!