Chapter 7

'Pain is getting to be to much…gotta get another dose…'John said to himself as once again he stuck himself with a needle. "John I can't believe that you would do something like this…"said Marlena as tears and anger were both forming in her eyes as she saw the needle in John's hand.

John looked in shock as he saw Marlena standing in front of him, staring down at him. "Do what Doc?" he asked as he tried to hide the needle. "John, I know you better than anyone, you can't lie to me….your doing drugs", she said. Lowering his head, John felt anger arise in him. "How dare you accuse me of doing such a thing. If you know me so well Doc, you know that I wouldn't sink that low", yelled John as he headed back inside. "John...you need help" called Marlena but felt that it was no use, because she knew that he wasn't going to listen to her.

As John walked back into the restaurant he saw Roman and Kate dancing on the floor. "Kate, it's time to go….now", John said with anger in his eyes. "What's the matter?" asked Kate but got no response from him. Just than Marlena came running in and headed straight for John. "John I don't want to have to make a scene…." She whispered as she looked around to see everyone watching them. "What's going on Doc?" asked Roman who stood there confused. "I said now Kate….." yelled John as he grabbed her arm. "John your hurting me let go" cried Kate. When John didn't let go, Roman shoved Johns arm away. "She said let her go John, now what the hell is going on?" asked Roman as comely as he could. "It's none of your damn business", John yelled as he walked away and headed back outside. "Marlena, what's wrong? Did you talk to him?" asked Kate as she rubbed her arm. "Now is not a good time, let's go somewhere private." She said as she, Kate and Roman headed into the back.

"Marlena please tell me what's wrong with my husband?" begged Kate. "Kate, I'm sorry but...when I went outside I saw John inject himself with a pain killer and when I confronted him about it he got angry at me and went inside." Marlena said with shame showing in her eyes. Kate and Roman both looked at each other, "Oh my god..." whispered Kate.

'I can't believe that Doc actually think I'm addicted to drugs…..she's going to tell Kate…I can't go home right now, I need some place where I can be alone…' John said to himself as he headed out into the darkness.

"I don't know what to do….he's going to need help..." whispered Kate. "Kate, Doc and I will help you get him help, we already know that he doesn't think he's addicted and the more we try to talk to him he's going to ignore it", Roman said as he placed his hand on her shoulder. "Mom…what's going on, where's dad?" Belle asked as she appeared in the back room. "Honey, your father left…don't worry." Said Marlena putting a forced smile on her face. "He looked pretty angry, is everything okay?". Nodding their heads, Marlena, Kate and Roman smiled and led Belle out of the room. "Not to worry, he was probably just tired and headed home", said Kate as she looked towards the doors. 'I hope that you've gone home John….who knows what kind of trouble you can get yourself into while your using those drugs....' thought Kate to herself.

'I'm sorry Katie girl…but I have to do this….'John said as he injected himself with the needle. After doing so, John felt sick to his stomach, before when he took the drugs he didn't feel this way, something made this time feel wrong as started to walk through the park. 'What if Doc was right…what if I do have a problem? I'm only hurting my family by doing this….what should I do??' John said aloud as he took a seat on the park bench.

"He's not home…he's not here, where could he have gone?" cried Kate as she came running down the stairs towards Marlena and Roman. "Kate, take it easy, he couldn't have gone to far….not in his condition", Marlena said as she took a seat on the couch. "Doc, we don't even know what his condition is…and if we alert the police that could make things worse." Said Roman taking a seat beside Marlena. 'Oh god...please look out for my husband…'whispered Kate as she looked outside. Just than Kate turned and headed for the door. "Where are you going Kate"? asked Roman, "I think I know where he is, but I'm going to go alone…..I'll let you guys know if I find anything." Kate said as she grabbed her coat and headed out the door.

Walking into the park, Kate had this feeling that John was near.

'Please let John be here....' whispered Kate as she approached a man on the bench. "John", she called as she walked in front of the person.

Look into my eyes
you will see, what you mean to me
Search your heart, search your soul
when you find me there, then you'll search no more

Looking up, he looked into her eyes, tears were running down his face, "Kate…I screwed up…I'm sorry…" he cried as he fell to the ground. "John, its okay…I love you and we're going to get you the help that you need", whispered Kate as she fell to her knees and pulled her crying husband into her arms.

Don't tell me it's not worth trying for
You can't tell me it's not worth dying for
You know it's true, everything I do I do it for you

"Everything is going to be okay John…I promise you", Kate said as she lifted John's head and looked into his eyes. "I can't believe that I did this…I just wanted things to go back to normal…when I could walk… and Belle…." Started John. "Shhh, don't worry about Belle, she'll understand."

Look in to your heart, you will find
There's nothing there to hide
Take me as I am, take my life
I would give it all, I would sacrifice

FLASHBACK... Opening the box, there was a diamond ring. "Katherine Roberts, I love you with all of my heart, your the mother of my child and the love of my life. I want to spend the rest of my life with you....so...will you do me the honor in becoming my wife?" asked John. Kate looked down at John with tears in her eyes....

Don't tell me it's not worth fighting for
I can't help it, there's nothing I want more
You know it's true, everything I do I do it for you

FLASHBACK.... "I love you John" mouthed Kate as she took John's hand in hers. "I now can pronounce you man and wife, ladies and gentlemen, it is my honor to give you Mr. and Mrs. John Black." yelled the priest as cheering and clapping began. "You may now kiss the bride". With hearing that John pulled Kate into a long passionate kiss.

There's no love, like your love
And no other, could give me more love
There's nowhere, unless you're there
All the time, all the way

You can't tell me it's not worth trying for
I can't help it, there is nothing I want more
I would fight for you, I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you, yeah I'd die for you
You know it's true
Everything I do
I do for you.

"John I think that we should get going, and head home", said Kate as she helped John to his feet. "Here….take these…Kate I don't want to ever see them again…." whispered John as he reached into his pocket and handed her the needle and pain drugs. "I'm sorry that I did this...I hope that you'll be able to forgive me for what I did…" Kate smiled, as she placed a soft kiss on John's lips, "I love you with everything I have, and we'll get through this together….". "I love you too Katie girl", said John as he kissed Kate passionately, than laced his hands through hers and headed home.