Chapter 8
"John I think that we should get going, and head home", said Kate as she helped John to his feet. "Here….take these…Kate I don't want to ever see them again…." whispered John as he reached into his pocket and handed her the needle and pain drugs. "I'm sorry that I did this...I hope that you'll be able to forgive me for what I did…" Kate smiled, as she placed a soft kiss on John's lips, "I love you with everything I have, and we'll get through this together….". "I love you too Katie girl", said John as he kissed Kate passionately, than laced his hands through hers and headed home.
John and Kate arrived home to still find Roman and Marlena there. "John…oh my god…let us help you", Marlena called as she and Roman both ran up to John and helped him to the couch. "Kate….how is he?" asked Marlena as she held Kate back from John. "He's not well at all, he admitting to doing the drugs and wants to stop…..Marlena I don't know how to help him", Kate said as tears began to form in her eyes. Marlena simply pulled her friend into a hug, "It'll be okay Kate. I promise Roman and I will be here every step of the way, as long as you need us." A smile came across Kate's face, as she looked over at Roman and John, than back at Marlena, "Thank you Marlena, you are a true friend….but I think for now John and I are going to have to get through it on our own. But I will call you if I need anything". Marlena simply nodded, "Roman..I think it's time to go….Kate you call the second you need anything". "Take care Kate", whispered Roman as she placed a kiss on her cheek. After seeing Roman and Marlena out, Kate helped John to their room and into bed.
It had been a long and hard night so far, Kate had been up most of the night trying to keep John calm. His mood would change from being needy and wanting to end the pain to being demanding and begging Kate to give him the drugs. Luckily, Phoenix didn't have to hear any of this, Kate had asked Sami and Lucas to take her for awhile, telling them that John had the flu and didn't want her to get sick. "Kate…Kate….." called John from the bedroom. "I'm here John….I'm here", she said as she sat beside him. "Kate…I'm so cold right now….I'm freezing". Without a word, Kate called into bed next to her husband and under the covers. "Come to me John…" she whispered as he moved closer. "I'll keep you warm".
Morning had finally come, and Kate was almost thankful, but she knew that there were going to be harder times than last night, before John kicked his habit. 'John…I know I said I'd be there for you…but who's going to take care of our daughter….I can't do both…and I can't ask anyone else to put their lives on hold…' thought Kate as she was making John some breakfast. "Kate…." Yelled John from upstairs. Kate quickly dropped what she was doing and ran up stairs. "John what is it?" she asked. "Kate..I need you to give me a little bit of the drugs…I know I said that I would stop I know I need help…but I need this pain to go away….please Kate…..if you love me at all….you'll do this for me…" cried John as he began to scream in pain.