Chapter 9
Morning had finally come, and Kate was almost thankful, but she knew that there were going to be harder times than last night, before John kicked his habit. 'John…I know I said I'd be there for you…but who's going to take care of our daughter….I can't do both…and I can't ask anyone else to put their lives on hold…' thought Kate as she was making John some breakfast. "Kate…." Yelled John from upstairs. Kate quickly dropped what she was doing and ran up stairs. "John what is it?" she asked. "Kate..I need you to give me a little bit of the drugs…I know I said that I would stop I know I need help…but I need this pain to go away….please Kate…..if you love me at all….you'll do this for me…" cried John as he began to scream in pain.
The air that you breathe it must be poisoned
And you're dressed up in your best disguise
And I don't want to hear what you have to say
It's there in your eyes when you look away
These beautiful words are turning into lies
Tears began to roll down Kate's eyes as she listened to John. "You can't honestly think that I'm going to give you drugs…..John I'm trying to help you". John looked at Kate with anger in his eyes, "Katharine…if you love me, if you're the woman that I married because our love was so true……you'll give me those drugs, just this once….." started John but was cut off from Kate. "No"! she yelled. "John I love you with everything I have, you gave me our daughter, and for that I love you even more….but I will not give you any drugs..because this one time will turn into another and another. You're an addict John……and you need help, you need to hold on, but I obviously can't let you see that or give you the help that you need", cried Kate as she looked cold at John.
How can you say that to me
The light that still shines is just an illusion
It's just a memory from a burned out star
Its promise has come from so far away
It's fighting through sadness and years of decay
And it's a wonder it ever made it this far
"Katie, you say that you love me……I don't think you do……I think that your wanting me to suffer like this……so that you can go back to Roman." A look of shock came across Kate's face, "Where the hell did that come from how can you say that to me John after everything that we've been through……John Roman and Marlena are together, they love each other just like we love each other. I don't' love Roman anymore, I love you and god dammit that's why I married you." Kate couldn't take it anymore, she was tired of arguing with him, "I'm going out, take care of yourself". And with that she was gone. 'Fine, if your not going to give me the drugs Kate…..I'll get them myself', thought John as he managed to get dressed and into his wheel chair and out the door.
How can you say that to me
After all of those secrets you let me believe
There's no rose petal air, there's just thorns when I breathe
Oh now how can you say that
'Who would be here at this time of the morning..' he said to himself as he walked to the door. "Brady, I need your help", said Kate as stared at him. "Kate come here, what's wrong"? asked Brady as he saw the dried tears on her face. "It's your father, he's addict to drugs…we were going to keep it quiet but he needs help and he's pushing me away and I thought I could help him.. and I can't, I love him so much but I can't help him…". Brady pulled Kate into a hug and led her into the living room. "Kate it's okay, everything is going to be okay. Now start off slow, what do you mean he's addict?". "The only reason as to why he was walking was because he's been taking drugs, and now he's addicted. He told me that he would stop, but he can't do it…he's been trying to guilt trip me but I can't do it Brady".
It's not this silence that screams in my mind
Each day I feel like I'm falling behind
Living in shadows, still getting burned
When will I ever learn
Brady couldn't believe what he was hearing, 'My dad addict to drugs'. "I don't know what to do", whispered Brady. "I know", a voice called as they walked into the living room. "Nicole…" said Kate. "I'm sorry, I couldn't help but overhear, don't worry I wont tell anyone, but I know how to help John. If you've already tried the love and support thing, than it's almost hopeless". "Than what do we do?" asked Kate. "Put him in rehab", said Brady as he looked over at Nicole who was nodding her head. "That's the only way, but make special arrangements for him, no family contact in person, just letters, I know it doesn't' sound right, but in the long run, it will work trust me." Nicole finished as she poured everyone a cup of tea.
How can you say that to me
After all those secrets you let me believe
There's no rose petal air, there's just thorns when I breathe
How can you say that to me
"So, we have to go and get John now, before he does something he regrets", said Nicole. "Okay Kate, Nicole and I are coming with you." Brady said as they all headed out the door. "So who all knows about John's addiction"? asked Nicole as they headed to the house. "The three of us, Marlena and Roman. We thought that we'd be able to do it our selves, but John's to resistant and doesn't' want our help, no matter what we do, he just wants the drugs….I don't want to give up on him and I'm not but I don't know what to do anymore", cried Kate as she opened the door. "Dad, Dad you here" called Brady. "He was upstairs", Kate said. Brady ran up the stairs in search of his dad, "He's not up here" called Brady as he ran back down the stairs, "His wheel chair is gone". A look of shock came across Kate's face, 'Oh god John…what have you done now……'