Whatever happened to this fairy tales happy ending?
Tohru stared at the boy sitting in front of her. Hatori had been kind enough to go out with them to the Sohma house springs. There he was, pale and unmoving as he had been for the last two days.
She bowed her head and let some of the tears welled in her eyes fall and creep slowly down her cheek and splash slightly on his face. She reached up a slightly shaking hand and brushed it off of him, pushing some strands of his orange hair out of the way.
She managed out a small smile when she noticed the innocent and almost peaceful look on his face. That look wouldn't last long though and she knew it though. As soon as he woke up, that look would e gone and the pain from what she had done to him would stay in its place.
Her kind eyes trailed down and she shut them at where his wrists were. She hadn't reached him in time. He was so angry at her when she tried to stop him. He slashed his wrists, deeply enough for Hatori to come over and haul him off to a remote Hot Springs. He was so livid, Kyou that is. He had to be put down on sedatives and he had been like this ever since.
Would it ever be the same? Would the wounds she made on his heart ever be the same. She looked up and brushed away some tears that had leaked through the barriers she had made over the past days. 'Have I changed so much?' She thought to herself. 'Mom, please help me...'
'Just be yourself.' A small voice whispered.
'Mom,' Her thoughts rang but soon she could feel hot tears brim her eyes. She angrily clenched her fists. 'Why can't I be strong for him when he needs me?!' Everyone was walking around like Kyou would during a typhoon, exhaustion lingering in their aching bones and hearts. Tohru was in such a state that everything she had worked for had fallen apart. And she couldn't blame anyone but herself.
He brushed away a tear that had fallen through the barriers she put up around herself while she was deep in thought, pondering over what would, or could, happen next. "How can I be myself if when I try to I hurt him and those I love?" She questioned herself, not getting any reply back like she knew she would.
Tohru looked up from Kyou and found her hands near his wrists. She jerked them back, ashamed at herself for being like this. 'It wasn't suppose to happen like this.' She closed her eyes tightly, trying to make it all go away. She was so preoccupied that she didn't feel or hear the stirring of a person beside her.
She opened her eyes after she had gained a little control over her emotions and she blinked in surprise to see the dazed Kyou returning from his drug-induced sleep. She gulped slightly. One the medication wore off, she would have to see if he would need more.
She stopped her quivering hands as she saw his reach up an arm, wincing at the pain his wrists still harbored in them. They had gotten infected seemingly and he was still running a slightly fever. When Tohru had tried to stop him, she once again tripped, falling on a loose floorboard and sending some splinters flying to scratch his face. He seemed to welcome the pain that the cuts had brought.
The clouded red, and some times orange, eyes blinked slowly as his hazy mind tried to register where he was. He groaned slightly as a flash of light passed by his as the clouds over the sun lifted but were quickly shrouded again.
He closed his eyes and let his currently bed-ridden body succumb to the darkness with open arms. Even when he couldn't think, he knew when he saw her face, smiling or not, the world held a lot of pain. He didn't want that apin, he just wanted to be free of it. Free of it forever.
TBC