He didn't want that pain, he just wanted to be free of it. Free of it forever.

Chapter Five:

Kyou opened his eyes slightly and he blinked against the strong light that flashed against his eyes. His vision danced and he took deep breaths to try and stop the nausea and lump going in his throat. He choked back a sob when he realized what had happened. He wasn't dead.

He looked down with crimson eyes towards his wrists. Red streaks were leading from the wound towards his heart. He could feel the sweat beading on his forehead. He could hear his heart beat, blood rushing through his ears. He felt the pain sear from his incision marks towards his every nerve ending.

He stopped the darkness invading his eyes again and saw something he didn't see before. A lump was next to him, chest rising and falling slightly showing the person was in a deep sleep. Tohru. His mind registered but seemed like a foreign word on his tongue. He hoped never to think or utter that name; that word, again.

The girl shifted slightly, eyes fluttering open as she found herself staring into crimson eyes hidden slightly under tangles of bright orange hair. She blinked and felt tear cloud her eyesight when she saw who was before her. And he was awake.

"Kyou!" She shouted, not being able to not notice how the zodiac member visibly withdrew from her and flinched at her voice screaming his name. It must have reminded him of when she said his name so many other times. And the one time she forgot to say his name.

'Either I am alive or I must be in hell.' Kyou thought but felt a tug at his heart and a tight squeeze in his chest. No matter what she did to him he couldn't say something like that to her, in his mind or verbally. He heard some shuffling and pulled himself into an upright position, moving away from Tohru and the door.

Slowly, as the door opened, he found himself staring at the figure of his master, Kazuma. He betrayed me. Kyou remembered his black and white bracelet falling down, hitting the grass in the rain. He felt pain rush through his body as his bones cracked and he shifted forms. It hurt so much. He betrayed me. HE BETRAYED ME! His mind said with spitefulness.

"Kyou," Kazuma said somberly. His grayish hair fell haphazardly over his brownish tinted eyes. He stared at the cat and it mad Kyou feel sick to his stomach. He couldn't stand that look. Pity. Shame. Doubt. Even fear.

"Leave me alone." Kyou growled, his canine teeth flashing brightly as he clenched his teeth, pulling himself to his feet. He swayed slightly and glared as Tohru tried to help him. He didn't their or anyone's help. He stepped backwards but felt a strong hand on his back.

He turned around and found himself staring into purple eyes. Bluish haired bangs, almost lavender, fell over the eyes. He growled lowly when he saw who had touched him. Yuki.

TBC

Autor's note:

Very short but I'll try to make the next chapter longer. I need to also work on updating and trying to complete my other fics also so please be patient with me.

Thank you to all my reviewers for the great support that I've been given and it makes me so happy! . Anyhow, I'll have to think of an ending soon because people might grow tired of this. But how to do it… if anyone has any suggestions on places I should try and make them go for therapy (Kyou will certainly need some TLC), it would be very helpful. Only question is to make it any time soon or not…hm…

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