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Lily and James: Their Story of Love

Chapter 16- Clouded Feelings



James and Lily decided to go to the Gryffindor Common Room just as Dumbledore had advised. They entered the Portrait Hole and felt a stampede of people attack them. They were being hugged left and right. Sirius had come and given James the biggest bear-hug he could muster while Remus and Peter grinned. Katy and Halle were hugging Lily with tears rolling down their cheeks.

When the little reunion was over, they all went to sit on the couch. Most of the Gryffindors had gone to bed after hearing that James and Lily were ok. The only ones left were James, Lily, Sirius, Halle, Remus, Katy, and Peter.

"Prongs, what the hell happened to you guys?" Sirius asked.

"Well, we didn't know Voldemort had turned up so we were left alone with him." James replied.

"You guys weren't in the Three Broomsticks or any shops so you couldn't have known." Remus said putting the pieces together.

"Cornelius Fudge himself was in the shops advising everyone to leave and head back to the castle. He made a Portkey and all the students left. We thought you guys were told as well." Peter said.

There was a silence and all they all stared absently into the fire.

"Sirius, I think there is something you should know." James said.

"Hmm?" Sirius asked.

"I think Bellatrix is a Death Eater."

Sirius' cousin was Bellatrix Black. She had recently left Hogwarts and had gone off to Albania somewhere. She was once Sirius' favorite cousin until he got into Gryffindor and she into Slytherin.

"Was she-was she there you know?"

"I'm not positive but it looks like she was one of the Death Eaters who got away from us. Me and Lily took down the other two but she and Voldemort dodged the spells."

Peter, Halle, and Katy winced at the sound of his name.

"Oh cut it out you guys. He is our enemy so you need to learn to hear and speak his name. I have" Lily said.

James asked everyone if he could speak to Sirius privately.

"What else happened?" Sirius asked suspiciously.

"Sirius, my parents are dead."

"What????"

"Dead." James said. He felt tears sting his own eyes but fought to hold them back. He knew Sirius was feeling the same way as he. They were like brothers and James' parents were Sirius' only family after his own disowned him. He fully appreciated Sirius so much at that moment. He knew it was just as hard on him.

"They can't be dead. They can't!" Sirius walked over to the wall and started punching it until his knuckles bled. James looked at Sirius and felt sympathy. They had no one. James' grandparents and his parents had been killed by Voldemort. James was the only remaining Potter and he knew it was only a matter of time before Voldemort figured out a way to get into the school.

The intercom that was projected around school was flashing. Sirius and James both looked up and listened. They heard Professor McGonagall's voice.

"Attention everyone. Due to recent events, Quidditch is off for the rest of the school year. I know this may be upsetting but it is for everyone's own safety. Thank you."

Sirius looked at the intercom dumb-struck. James thought he himself would feel upset about this but surprisingly he only felt relief.

"Dude, can you believe this?" Sirius asked him.

"Yeah, I can."

"What?"

"Voldemort's after me too and during my short time to live I want to spend time doing important things. Like spending time with Lily and training to be an Auror. Sirius, there are more important things than Quidditch." James said.

"Wow."

"Wow what?" James asked.

"You really have grown up."

"Yes, and I think it's time you did too."

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"So Lily, are you sure you're ok? I mean, you went through a lot today." Halle asked her friend with worry in her eyes.
"Halle, I am fine with this all. Well, of course not all of it but I feel much stronger."

"What do you mean?" asked Katy.

"I mean that this has changed my whole purpose in life. Last year if you would have told me all the things that has happened in this year I would have laughed in your face. But now, I know how I want to spend my life."

"Well, how do you want to spend it?" Halle asked her.

"Fighting Voldemort with James Potter by my side."

"I thought you wanted to be a teacher, Lil. You wanted that for so long, and Professor Flitwick was looking forward to an early retirement. He thought Dumbledore would hire you once you graduated."

"Halle, my mom was killed by Voldemort. You don't understand. Now, my boyfriend is the only remaining of his family and may be attacked by Voldemort. I don't have time to be a teacher. I want to be an Auror, by his side, until the day I die. I love him so much it hurts."

The girls just looked at Lily and felt sadness seep through their hearts. They wanted to feel love. Katy said goodnight to Lily and told her to go straight to the head's dorm and take a long bath. Then, she walked down to the Gryffindor Common Room to find Remus asleep on the couch. She was ready to talk to him.

She went over and poked his arm. He stirred and then slowly opened his eyes. He thought he was still dreaming because the same girl he was dreaming about was standing over him.

"Remus Lupin, I need to talk to you. I am not taking no for an answer so get up." Katy said.

"Ok, I guess." He rose off of the couch and they walked out of the Portrait Hole. They headed towards the Prefects Common Room and found it deserted. They sat on the blue loveseat that was in the middle of the room.

"I need you to know something Remus. I know you don't love me, but I love you with all my heart. The day you saved my life, my feelings turned from platonic to serious. It's hard to explain."

"I love you too." Remus said quietly looking into her eyes.

"You what?"

"You heard me."

"Then why did you run from me?"

"I had no choice."

"Can you elaborate on that please."

"Are you sure you're ready to hear the truth?"

"Of course."

"I am telling you that it's not good truth and that you may feel differently about me afterwards."

"Nothing could change how I feel about you."

"Ok. When I was a little boy I received a bite from a werewolf." He looked at her cautiously, waiting for a reaction.

"You think I wouldn't love you because you're a werewolf?" she asked.

"Well, most girls wouldn't."

"Am I like most girls to you Remus?"

"Well, no. I was scared. I didn't want to hurt you."

She leaned in to kiss him and loved the way his soft lips felt against hers. He ran a hand through her blonde hair and felt warmth in his heart. They kissed passionately for about a half and hour before Katy said something.

"Remus, can you do me a favor?"

"I guess."

"I want you to be my first."

"What?!?"

"I am afraid to die without experiencing love and I want to know that I have shared something special with you."

"Katy, are you sure?"

"Yes."

"Well, can I take you to somewhere other than the Prefects Lounge?"

"Absolutely." He swept her off her feet and they headed out the door to the Room of Requirement.

"I love you Remy."

"I love you too, Katy Jones."