Struggle against myself
The lies are getting easier to tell,
The smiles are getting harder to show,
The pain is getting harder to hide,
The urge to end it all is getting harder to ignore,
The whispers in the night can no longer be blocked.
It shouldn't be this way,
Life should never be a struggle,
But as long as I remain the way I am it will always be one.
A struggle against the voices in the dark,
A struggle against the hatred investing my heart ,
A struggle against the reflection that lurks in the mirror,
The reflection that lives the life I can never have.
I know I may not be able to win the fight against myself,
But that doesn't mean I won't give it a shot,
Cause being alive is all I have left,
And it is something I won't give up so easily.