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Chapter 12

"I'm pregnant," Susan told Kerry and me. Both Kerry and I looked at each other surprised at Susan's news, when suddenly Susan threw up on the floor.

"Clean up on aisle five," I laughed. Kerry then walked away from me, and I decided to go and check up on Susan to see how she was.

I walked out of the ER and saw Susan sitting on the bench. "Hey," I said. Susan looked up at me. "Hi."

I sat down next to Susan. "How are you feeling now?"

Susan laughed. "I really hate this morning sickness part of the pregnancy, I wish it would go away

 "I bet it is not that much fun," I laughed.

"You know I think Kerry was more surprised that you were pregnant than I was. I guessed that you were pregnant because you were sick for weeks, and then when you were here, you were tired and took naps whenever possible."


"Great observation, Abby, maybe you should be a detective instead of a doctor," Susan laughed.

"So how are you dealing with all this?"

Susan sighed. "I don't know. I'm still trying to come to terms with the fact that I'm having a baby. I always wanted to be a mother, but I'm just not sure that right now is the right time."

I hugged Susan. "You are just scared about it right now, but you are going to make a great mother."

"Thanks."

A cab then pulled up. "That's my cab. I'll see you tomorrow," she said as she stood up.

I waved at Susan. "Take care of yourself," I called out to her as I walked back into the ER.

**

Later that day,

I was sitting in the lounge when I started to think about the conversation I had with Chuny and Sam.

I had never really thought about it, but I have only dated Carter and Luka since I started here at County. They didn't turn out as good as I wanted them to, but you just never know how relationships are going to turn out.

Suddenly I turned around, and I saw Sam standing in front of me. "Hi," I said.

"Are you on your break?" she asked, as she sat down next to me.

I nodded my head.

"Kem is driving me crazy

Kem…

Carter's girlfriend. I saw them hugging each other when I was looking at the Romano's dedication. I heard that she was working at County today. I am happy that Carter found someone that is right for him, but I don't really want to see them together when I am working. This is my workplace. I don't expect to see my ex-boyfriend's girlfriend hanging around him.  I am still not sure how I feel about Kem and Carter together, but I can't make myself think about that, as I have to work on my med school. That is the important thing in my life right now.

Suddenly my pager went off. "I have to go now, I'll see you later," I said, as I walked out of the lounge.

**
As I was walking out of the exam room, I saw Sam standing near the admitting desk, and I thought about what Chuny and I had said about Luka.

"What? We're studying" I said. "And you shouldn't talk, Chuny." Sam looked at Chuny.

"Kovac gets around," Chuny said.

I didn't want her to think that Luka wasn't a good guy, because he is. Luka had a bad year last year, but maybe Sam is just what he needs. I can see the way that they looked at each other that they feel something for each other.

"Hey," I said. "Listen, about earlier, I don't want you to get the wrong idea about Luka. He's a good guy."

"I'm not looking for anything right now," Sam said.

"Okay, I just thought you should know."

"Thank you, but independence works pretty good for me. Although, I wouldn't mind some regular sex."

I laughed. "No kidding,"

**
Later that night,

"Are you ready to go Abby?" Lester asked, as I was getting my jacket on. I turned around and smiled. "Yeah, I just got to get my book. Thanks for helping me study for this test. I'm not that great at tests."

Lester laughed. "I don't think that I'm that good either."

I laughed. "You're the one that aces all the tests!"

Sam then entered the lounge. "Have a good evening you two," she said, smiling. "Bye," I said, as Lester and I walked out of the lounge.

"Where would you like to study?" I asked, as we walked out of the ER.

"There is a great diner a few blocks away," Lester said.

"There used to be a diner right across from the hospital."

"What happened to it?"

"There was a big fire a few months ago  and now we have this place,"

"Let's go get something to eat, I'm starving," Lester replied.

"Sure, let's go."


**

A couple of hours later,

A waitress came up to us. "Would you like a refill on your coffee?"

"Yes, please."

"It is the only way I am going to be able to stay up and study for the test!" I laughed, trying to explain.

Lester looked at me. "You are going to do fine; I think you know everything by heart by now."

"I should, we have been going at it for 2 hours now."

"So have you lived here all your life?" I asked.

"I moved here 6 years ago. I used to live in Baltimore,"

"I moved here to go the university,"

"Yeah it is."

"I still don't know how you work as a nurse and a med student." Lester said.

"Drink a lot of coffee," I laughed. I looked at my watch. "Well I should be going now."

"Me too," Lester said, as he got up.

"Thanks for helping me study," I said, as we walked out of the diner.

He smiled. "No problem, you will do just fine tomorrow."

I laughed. "I hope so."

"Bye," he said, as he walked away.

**

I thought it would be a lot harder than this to see everyone around me so happy and in relationships. Luka and Sam have been spending a lot of time together,it will be no time before they are together, Kerry and Sandy have a baby, Susan's pregnant, Carter...he's with Kem now.
And they have a new baby on the way. I don't know that I've really let that sink in yet or if I really just don't care. I'm still not sure how I feel on that issue yet. For right now all I want him to be is happy. He's still an important person in my life. But I don't know if I want to believe in or even think about an 'us' again...ever. I just don't know.

For right now, even though it seems like everyone else around me is happy and in a relationship, I surprisingly don't feel the need or the want to be in one. Right now all I want to do is concentrate on school and work. Maybe after I graduate I'll have time to think about that and think about being in a relationship again, but for now I have enough on my plate. I'm busy enough without a love life to deal with.

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