I swear to god I am never gunna watch a horror movie right before going to bed again. I watched Wes Craven's They right before I went to bed, and was terrified that they were gonna come get me in the dark. That's an embarrassing thing to admit to, but oh well. I knew it was illogical and all that, but I couldn't help it. I think everyone can relate to that to some degree though.

Ok, so I thought this chapter would be the one where they start planning the ball, but I don't think so anymore. I think I'll just go with what I started and leave it at that.

This chapter will probably be from an outsider's point of view, and then I'll go into a different chapter with an insider's vantage point. I guess my insomnia last night was good cuz it helped me come out with this chapter (which'll probably be finished before the Can't Hold us Down chapter, but oh well. I have a lot of chapters planned out already, it's just a matter of getting them written down and all that.) But at the same time, I didn't get enough sleep. Oh well though.

Disclaimer: You know the drill, having seen it in many other fanfics... nothing belongs to me, except for a few characters and the plot; the rest belongs to JKR, one of the people who reviewed, or a singer/band that I decided to 'borrow' the music from. (Though the music factor will be decided on how brain dead I manage to get while writing this chapter.)

Thorns by Faerielights

Chapter 13: Guess Who

When everyone thinks about me, I know they don't like me. Well, that's a major understatement. Everyone detests me. They fear me. I remember being nothing. A nobody. Being so detestable that my own father refused to acknowledge my existence.

He left my mother because he didn't want me for a son. I remember having dreams and being laughed at for them. Being told that I'd never make it. But I'm at the top of the food chain now. I'll make everyone suffer for their laughter. Evil mocking laughter, always directed at me. Always following me around, mocking my goals.

I almost believed them. The people that wanted me to fail almost succeeded. Almost. But then I realized that I have to take my destiny into my own hands. That my future could not lie in the hands of something that'd just mess it up for me.

I tried love, heaven, hope and takin' chances

And all I got were broken dreams And failed romances

I fell in love once. She was a muggle. I thought she was the one, but she deceived me. She took my heart and smashed it. I turned my back on love because it turned it's back on me first. Never again I had promised myself, and I stuck to that.

It was hard, the first few years. Hard to not love anyone, but I managed it. I'd do it all over again too, but I won't have to. I'll never fall, and I will become the greatest wizard ever. EVER!

I almost got confused. I almost broke my promise for another muggle. She wasn't worth it though. I broke her heart before she could break mine.

All of the people that I thought were my friends turned their backs on me. I constantly found ways to avoid being near people who would hurt my goals. The excuses didn't always work. I found a way to prevent people from doing that though. If you were going to get in the way of my plans, then you were gone.

Once again, I almost didn't get to where I am now. I temporarily thought that you wouldn't get anywhere by killing off people, that I'd just get thrown into Azkaban. I almost tricked myself into forever believing that life wasn't worth living if I had to kill anyone that got too close.

I held resentment towards my father for leaving my mother when we needed him the most. At the rate I was going, I was either going to be killed by an Auror, or I would be trapped in Azkaban. I almost thought that the people from school were right. Almost.

I found myself locked in a cell and I was just another number

The thin ice was cracking and I was sinking under ... in with sorrow

Worried 'bout today dread would happen by tomorrow

Who knows the answers well nobody knows for certain

The evil things I did when I chose to close the curtain

Perhaps I should relapse quit relapse quit

Force it back and relax with a sack of good shit

Now I find myself in a candlelit depression

Using sex like drugs just to handle my aggression

A/N: That's all for this chapter. Now who can tell me who this character is? The song is by Crazytown, can't remember the name of it right now though...