If I Smile And Don't Believe, Hoshiko
Summary: After a mental breakdown following Hao's untimely death, Anna seems to have lost all of her memories except of her beloved Hao…one night, when she attempts to escape from the En Inn where Manta has been watching over her, she is stopped by none other than Eliza, who stops her tears and begins to act as a mother for her. But as she grows more and more dependent on this new, "mother," Anna's mind drifts farther and farther away..and all Yoh can do is watch. Will Faust be able to help he and Eliza give Anna up as the daughter they never had, their "Hoshiko?" …or will they play onto the illusion and let Anna die?
Disclaimer: The tortured, vertically-challenged, exhausted authoress does not own Shaman King so please don't hurt her. That would be rude and insulting to Faust and Eliza and Frankensteiny. You don't want to upset the poor dears.
A/N: I love this plot! I wanted to have a main character, but it frequently switches between many characters like Anna, Yoh, Eliza, and Faust…Yay for Faust and Eliza on their way to stardom!
FaustEliza: Damn straight!
Neko-Neko Faust VIII: My god, Faust you are a sexy beast!
Eliza: Second to that!
Faust: I am what I is!
All: big cheesy smile Have fun with this story! 'Tis dramatic and angsty but the Author Notes shall brighten your gloomy day! And please convince Neko-Neko Faust VIII to cease doing her author notes in script!
Chapter Four: I Love My Mommy- Anna POV
I really love my mommy…she's warm, and she smells like roses.
Kind of like the ones that are in the vase in my room from Hao's funeral, except…
Some people can't even see my mommy, but I can, and I think maybe daddy can…
But then again, I don't even know my daddy, I wonder where he is?
Whenever I mention daddy or ask where he is, mommy gets a sad smile on her pretty face, and she rubs my back, and looks out the window.
I hate it when my mommy gets sad and cries….why can't she be with daddy?
I figured out my mommy isn't Japanese like me, because I have long, slanty oriental eyes and she doesn't. Mommy has big, glowing blue ones, and blonde hair that's lighter than mine…I wonder why I don't look like my mommy?
There's another person who lives here at the inn who looks like mommy…I think his name is Faust…but—mommy calls him Johann, and she hugs him and whenever he has to go away, she gets sad.
Maybe him and mommy will get married and then mommy won't be sad anymore.
"Hoshiko…are you okay? Dear?" my mommy asked me that, looking kind of concerned, and I don't know why…
I didn't know my name before I met mommy, but this short little boy kept calling me, "Anna."
I don't like that name, I like "Hoshiko," the name my mommy calls me, and sometimes daddy calls me that too, and it makes me happy…
Because Hoshiko means little star in japanese. I wonder why that's my name…?
I answered my mommy, "I'm fine mommy…I was just thinking."
She walked over to me, smiling gently and sitting down beside me on the tatami mat…some things have really weird names, you know, like "tatami."
"What were you thinking about?" she asked me.
I like my mommy's voice, it's smooth and clear, and pretty…and I love it when she sings me to sleep with her special lullaby…but I can't help but think that mommy is kind of upset.
"I was thinking about you, and daddy…" I paused for a little minute, "Mommy, why can't other people see you? …you know, other than me and daddy and the short man, and Yoh?"
"Some things are just the way they are, Hoshiko-chan, and that's how they'll be…but you have a daddy." she answered slowly.
I pointed to the doctor man who was walking into the room…His name is Johann, but I think I said that already…I can't remember anything anymore…when I did that, mommy nodded.
He walks sort of slow, and he never looks at anything but the ground, he has dark stuff under his eyes…and blonde hair and blue eyes like mommy…he wears a white coat that doctors wear, and sometimes he talks to himself.
Most of the time, he's a very creepy, scary man…
But he's so handsome, and happy, when he's talking to mommy.
He came over to me with a bit needle, and I got very scared and started to cry, and hold onto mommy, and beg him not to.
"…." he didn't say anything, he just looked at my mommy pleadingly, and shoved the needle as soft as he could into my arm.
It still hurt really bad.
"Mommy!!!!" I cried, grabbing her silky dress, and wiping my eyes.
She looked at me, and smiled…and then she smiled her prettiest smile at daddy.
"…ah…Hoshiko…" he said, "Would you like some candy?"
After he said that, I got very happy, and I saw him reach into his big pocket in his doctor coat.
He pulled out a box of chocolates, and a huge, spinny lollipop like you see in cartoons…I hugged him a lot.
Mommy hugged him too, very gently, and like she loved him very much.
I think they love each-other, because him and mommy both have shiny gold rings that match, and when I asked if I could have one, mommy shook her head, and said, "Not until you are older, little Hoshi-chan…when you're older, you'll be beautiful, and then someone will give you a ring like this."
She called it a "wedding ring."
Maybe that's from a circus, like the rings and stuff.
All of us stopped hugging, and then daddy gave me another thing.
It was a very pretty doll, she was soft, and had silky blonde hair, and a pink dress….she looked like a princess, and I couldn't believe he actually gave me a doll…wouldn't someone have to be a millionaire to buy something like that?
It was getting late, and I got very tired. I crept into bed, with my doll, and I named her Chouchou, it means "butterfly."
As I fell asleep, mommy and daddy sat on chairs beside me, and held my hand.
They were singing the lullaby.
"Twinkle twinkle little star…
How I wonder where you are…
Up above the sky so bright
Like a diamond in the night…
Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder where you are…"
"We love you Hoshiko."
Mommy, daddy…
Where am I?
A/N: Of course I don't own "Twinkle Little Star," you'd have to be an idiot to think that! I know this chapter isn't what I promised, but I needed an easygoing chapter! Next chapter shall be, a fight between Faust and Eliza, all over Anna/Hoshiko! What should they do with her? Take her to Germany? Leave her with Yoh? And what does Yoh want, as he also joins the argument?
Ja Ne- Neko-Neko Faust VIII (this story isn't a bitch to write yet, I wonder when it will be…)