If I Smile And Don't Believe, Hoshiko

Summary: After a mental breakdown following Hao's untimely death, Anna seems to have lost all of her memories except of her beloved Hao…one night, when she attempts to escape from the En Inn where Manta has been watching over her, she is stopped by none other than Eliza, who stops her tears and begins to act as a mother for her. But as she grows more and more dependent on this new, "mother," Anna's mind drifts farther and farther away..and all Yoh can do is watch. Will Faust be able to help he and Eliza give Anna up as the daughter they never had, their "Hoshiko?" …or will they play onto the illusion and let Anna die?

Disclaimer: The tortured, vertically-challenged, exhausted authoress does not own Shaman King so please don't hurt her. That would be rude and insulting to Faust and Eliza and Frankensteiny. You don't want to upset the poor dears.

A/N: I love this plot! I wanted to have a main character, but it frequently switches between many characters like Anna, Yoh, Eliza, and Faust…Yay for Faust and Eliza on their way to stardom!

FaustEliza: Damn straight!

Neko-Neko Faust VIII: My god, Faust you are a sexy beast!

Eliza: Second to that!

Faust: I am what I is!

All: big cheesy smile Have fun with this story! 'Tis dramatic and angsty but the Author Notes shall brighten your gloomy day! And please convince Neko-Neko Faust VIII to cease doing her author notes in script! 

Chapter Four: Home Sweet Home- Yoh POV

I had no idea where she was.

Oh my god…oh my god… I thought, panicking and screaming in my mind.

Where is Anna?

Faust and Eliza are gone, too…that means I'm all alone, aren't I?

My god, I hate this! I feel blind!

Of course I heard the door shut as they walked into the night but I never knew she would be gone forever.

But then…

I knew my onii-chan wanted to die for one night, but it went too far…he didn't want to die forever, just for the night.

Why? Why?

The ever-present question.

Like hell I care.

Anna's gone, we tried too hard, and lost it all…none of my efforts mattered, who am I kidding?

I knew that we were destined to be kept apart, but…I didn't know it would be so hard.

Once, in desperation, I tried to force the idea into my head that maybe we could win…

But we just couldn't beat time.

And then, with a demented smile, I knew I'd never beat time.

I looked wildly around the inn and went white.

There was a note on the floor…

"Sorry…"

It was in Anna's disjointed, childish handwriting….

I put my hands to my eyes and screamed myself into an ever darker place.

A place called death.

Anna, you won.

A/N: To answer a reviewer's question!: Anna is her normal age, maybe a year older or so, but Hao died and she went a trifle crazy…and now, with having no mother as a child, she's regressing to that point…it's sad, isn't it?

You know, it's really very depressing writing two uber-angsty stories at the same time, yes, I mean Aisubeki Dearest….

DAMN!!!! . Weh!

PS: I'm writing an Outsiders fic, and then I'm starting a LililalaXSilva fic, and a alt-universe Faustie fic…the Faust one ish angsty and dark and it will make you question a few things! It's called Rakki no Kizu, it means lucky scar, so ironic to the story! Look 4 it! OO (headlight eyes!)