Chapter One- Lovers or Friends?

Ever since Sean left to Wasaga Beach. Ellie wasnt sure what to think. She didn't know if they were together or if they were broken up. She loved him so much and now she had no where to go, no one to turn to. Everybody just felt sorry for her. No one truly cared. With her dad gone and her mom in rehab, she didnt know where else to turn. So she made a phone call.

She picked up the phone and dialed the number

Girl: Hello

Ellie: Hello Emma?

Emma: Hi, Whos this?

Ellie: It's Ellie, I really need to talk to someone, anyone, i didn't know who to call. ( she starts to cry)

Emma: Ellie, Whats wrong? What do you need to talk about?

Ellie: Its Sean, I.. I... I dont know what to do. Emma, I love him, Hes everything to me. I miss him and i want him to come back. I didn't know who to call. But you know Sean so i thought I'd call you. Emma, I have no one to turn to, no where to go. Why would he do this to me? Why?

Emma: Ellie hun, he loves you he does. (she didnt really want to have this conversation with Ellie. She secretly still loved Sean) But I'm not sure if hes going to come back. Move on El, its okay.

Ellie: What would you know?

She hangs up.

Ellie lays down and just starts crying even more. She thinks about what Emma was saying. Was Emma right? Should She try to move on? She had always liked a few people... But no matter what she always would love Sean. She cried herself to sleep.

Later that night Ellie woke up. She decided to try and call Seans Cell.

Its starts to ring... Shes thinking about what to say... Then the voicemail comes on.

Seans Voicemail: Hey This is Sean. Leave me a message and I'll Get back to you. Oh yeah, if your from Degrassi, I dont know when Im coming back.

Ellie: Umm.. hey Sean its.. its.. Ellie, (she starts crying), ummm... i really miss you. I wish you were here right now. I guess.. I guess.. I dont know. Call me when you get this please Sean, I love You

Ellie starts to think and wonders why he didnt answer... she just wanted to die. She felt no reason to live. She went into the bed room and got her cutting stuff. She hadn't cut ever since her and Sean got together. She didnt care. He wasnt here to stop her.

Ellie put the razor to her wrist. She made one cut and brusted out in tears. She couldnt do it. She wanted to but she couldnt. It was to much. She couldnt go though it all again. She decided to go to sleep and think about everything in the morning.

When she woke up the next morning she realized someone had called her cell. She was listening to her voicemail. She hoped so much it would of been Sean. But it wasnt it was just Ashley. Ashley wanted her to come over today after school. Ellie just figured she'd talk to her at school.

Ellie figured that today she'd try to take Emmas advice. She had always had a tiny crush on Jay but he was still with Alex. Just cause he was taken doesnt mean she couldnt flirt with him.

Jay was walking towards Ellie, Alex was no where in sight.

Ellie: Jay!

Jay: Oh hey Ellie.

Ellie: So.. have you talked to Sean lately?

Jay: No have you?

Ellie: I called no answer

Jay: you really miss him dont you?

Ellie: Actually Im not so sure about that anymore

Jay: Oh

Ellie sees Alex walking towards them

Ellie: Ummm... you wanna hang out tonight? At my place?

Jay: Sure I'll see you around 6

Alex walks up and gives Jay a kiss

Alex: Hey Baby. Hey El.

Ellie: Hey Alex.

Well I better get going. Ash is waiting for me

Ellie starts heading to her locker and she realizes Emmas standing there.

Ellie: What do you want?

Emma: Ellie, i wanted to say sorry about last night

Ellie: Sorry about what? You were right he doesnt care. Get away from me please.

Emma walks away looking a little bit on the pissed side. Ellie heads to class. She goes to talk to Ash.

Ellie: Hey Ash!

Ash: Hey where were you last night?

Ellie suddenly relizes she was soposed to go to Ash's today, but Jay was coming over

Ellie: I was sleeping, I wasnt feeling to good. Anyways i called Sean again last nite, No answer, Its obvious that hes moved on or something. So thats what Im going to do i guess.

Ash: Really? Who did you have in mind?

Ellie: Well Jays coming over for awhile tonight. Just to hang out. But I really dont know

Ash: Dont become Manny now. (ellie gave her a dirty look) El, you know im just kidding. Alex and him fight all the time anyways.

Ellie: We are just friends. Right now anyways.

Ash: Well Im glad your finally getting happy. I hate it when your sad. Gezz El.

Mrs. Kwan walked in the room and told the class to sit down.

After class Ash and Ellie headed to lunch. Jay came and sat by them.

Jay: Hey El!

Ellie: Hey Jay.

Jay: So are we still on for later?

Ellie: Of course. Why wouldnt we be?