A/N: This is my first attempt at a fanfic so, please, be nice. I don't know if I captured it right, since I haven't seen the entire series, but this is my view on the situation as I think Inuyasha sees it. It's a one-shot, but if you like it and want me to continue with a more interactive story, just review and tell me, I'll do my best.
Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha or any of its characters, nor do I make any kind of profit from writing this story.
To reach happiness
I don't know which of my feelings are true. I wish I knew what's wrong with me. Are my true feelings aimed at the one whom I so care for now or is my heart still set on the one I once loved so dearly. I feel very confused right now. If only, there was a way that I could be with them both, but I now that it cannot be; that I need to make a decision.
I wish I knew if the reason that I protect her is because she is my master, ("sit!" Get it?) or because I need to. Maybe, just maybe, if I could figure that out my happiness would be complete.
Maybe destiny is giving me back the opportunity that it once took away. I don't want to play with either of them, my feelings are pure. I see Kikyo and all my feelings come back with a vengeance, I remember how it was and what could've been. But when I look at Kagome, I feel content.
I don't know if I should let myself be carried away by the love that I feel for Kikyo or by the strong affection that I feel for Kagome. I have so many problems, so many things that I should do and only being with Kagome makes me feel like all those problems can be resolved, all but one.
Maybe I'm blind and I should fulfill my unspoken promise to Kikyo, she is the love of my life after all and we could be very happy together, no? 'I should go to hell to be happy?' Or should I stay beside Kagome and try to be happy here?
Is not easy to forget the one I once loved so much. Miroku believes that it is an easy decision to make, but it's not, I don't want to hurt anyone, but I cannot deceive myself, someone will end up hurting at the end either way.
I don't want to feel like I do, my heart yearns for the two, and my mind plays with me. I feel like my primary objective is to recover what I almost had with Kikyo, but then something happens and all I want is to hold Kagome and keep her safe.
Sometimes I think that shouting at her will send her away for good and she would make the decision for me. But the only thing that I do is keep her closer to me, at least I can be happy, if only for a while, before reality comes crashing back.
"InuYasha come over here quick, I feel a shikon shard!
"Feh! Stop with the screaming wench, I'll be right there!"
'Will you be my happiness, Kagome?'
A/N: Well, that was it. Please read & review, then tell me what you think.
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