Summary: Instead of Homura taking over Nataku's place of the Toushin Taishi, Goku is appointed the new Toushin Taishi as Konzen, Tenpou and Kanzeon first suspected at the beginning. He goes through the burdens that the Toushin Taishis are made to carry and witnesses the events that go through in heaven--Homura's life--and on earth – the life of Sanzo, Gojyo and Hakkai. 939, Homura/Goku , said Kon/Goku
Warning: Shounen-ai, mild language. Swearing is not encouraged in heaven. Slight OOCness.
Due to the things he went through and all of you know how the Toushin Taishi life is, in this story Goku becomes more formal and… morbid. Really am sorry. But I have to adjust his character according to the circumstances. But more or less he's still the same, lonely and craving for his "sun".
Disclaimer: The day I own Saiyuki is the day when allthe planets in the solar system collide with each other.
Nataku stabs himself in the shoulder.
Screams elicit from Goku.
Diadem breaks.
Chaos takes place.
Ever since that day my life is lived like a zombie. My sun was separated from me. And I might have to wait another few hundred years before it rises again.
Konzen Douji, Kenren Taisho and Tenpou Gensui are charged with treason for protecting the one who wreaked chaos in heaven, Seiten Taisei Son Goku. He shall be--
Tentei--
As wild and feral as he may be, he is after all, an excellent fighter. He may prove to be quite useful in the future.
I can agree with that.
But Tentei-san, he has wreaked Chaos in heaven. He ought to be punished. Homura might be a better choice for the replacement of the Toushin Taishi.
Oh --yes, but, he is in Tentei's family, regardless of him being an itan being. Son Goku, on the other hand, is of hardly any purpose. We are actually doing him a favour by giving him one.
I see.
And those damned idiots said it just like that. They think it went unheard. But Iheard it. A purpose to live? For what? To kill? All of a sudden, I felt all the pain that Nataku felt reverberating through my whole body. Being trapped in the invisible cage, except in this case, a title. A dirty and unclean title. I am so happy that my body is shaking because of the intense euphoria I feel that I need to kill, kill, KILL all those cursed gods for making me live this cursed dream.
Now I sit here, with Nataku, watching the world below, waiting for "them" to reincarnate. The simulated sun beats down hard but I still sit there. My chains have been removed, so they do not burn into me.
clang
The sound I have heard for years resound beside me. I turn around and see the mismatched eyes, belonging to a person who was supposed to take my place.
"Homura-san."
"Konnichiwa, Goku-kun."
"Are you not afraid that I will kill you for addressing me in such an informal manner? I can, you know, being the Toushin Taishi and all."
"Mmmm…"
"Or are you threatened with promises of death so often that it bores you or something?"
The familiar taunting smirk forms on his face slowly as he slumped down beside me and ruffled my long brown locks like I was some unruly puppy. And like some unruly puppy, I let him ruffle me.
"Not quite. It is not like I am under you and find it fundamental to call you by any formal way, no?"
"Accepted."
"Do not look so angry then, Goku. Though I have absolutely no right to say that. You wouldn't need to suffer the burdens of a toushin taishi had I taken your place."
"It is selfish for me if I think like that.
You heard the discussion between Tentei and his advisors?"
"No less."
"Guess I'm not the only one who heard it then.
You still seeing that female kami?"
"Rinrei."
"You're not allowed, you know that. Tentei will get all pissy and creepy."
"Konzen used to be angry at you too, like a maddened whirlwind. Don't tell me you are still not used to such fits of anger after so long a time?"
"Well…But when Konzen's angry, he is a very pretty maddened whirlwind. But all Tentei looks like is a whirlwind that is…extremely disgusting and deformed."
A deep, low chuckle erupted from Homura's throat. "You are biased."
"'Am not. I am merely stating the facts. Don't try to veer the subject. I am telling you, Tentei will be angry."
"He can go to hell."
I broaden my smile. "Accepted."
"Seiten Taisei."
"My name is Goku."
"Hmph. Anyway, we need to send you down to settle a rather trivial matter. A rather annoying creature is causing a lot of humans to be killed. It is slightly imposing on us.
Do come back soon after you have slain him."
You don't even give me a choice.
"Seiten Taisei-- "
Refer to me by my name!"Seiten Taisei, you are to leave now."
Refer to the name Konzen gave me!!"I will make my way now, Tentei-san."
Give me back the Konzen that gave me my name…The huge creature hovers in front of me, waiting for a moment to leap in and strike.
I won't allow him to.
The hideously deformed creature swings his arm at me. Too slow. TOO SLOW. Faster!!
It senses my impatience, sending out snarls so harsh that it freezes the entire nerve system.
My nerve system is too hot.
I give up and thrust my Nyoi-bou into him, skewering him like a helpless cod fish. Not enough. Though he is half-dead I ram my handy rod into him, crushing every hideous part of him. Konzen is not ugly. He is not ugly at all. I have to get rid of this contradiction of Konzen.
Ne, ne, Konzen--I picked these flowers for you. I like them so much! As pretty as Konzen!
Hmph. Bakasaru.
Henh?? Did I say something wrong? Oh! I know!
You are much prettier than these flowers--
As beautiful and shiny as the sun--
……Why are you all red? Did you have sudden pigmentation?
No you bakasaru!! And if you think that these flowers are "pretty", let them live!
Kechi Konzen…
But what he said made sense. Let pretty things live for other people enjoy.
But why was he taken away? He was not just pretty.
He was as shiny and beautiful as the sun.
"Seiten Taisei-sama!"
"What is it?"
"You are not wounded, are you?"
"No."
So what if you knew anyway? You wouldn't care. You wouldn't care that I'm wounded. You wouldn't care that I am hurting. If you can take Konzen, Kenii-chan and Ten-chan away from me you have never and never will care. You wouldn't care that I am literally begging them to reincarnate, even if they end up as unclean people or unacceptables like me. In fact, it will make me more comfortable. Does that make me selfish?
"Seiten Taisei-sama, I am afraid you are not to go into the main hall just yet. Tentei is settling a rather serious matter."
I sigh tiredly. "What is it about now?"
"Homura, the heretical being --the one in Tentei's family-- is being charged with committing taboo with the female goddess, Rinrei."
My head nearly jerks off its spine.
In spite of what Homura said, he cannot send Tentei to hell, since Tentei generally is the one controlling it.
I see Rinrei being carried away. I could see why Homura loved her so much. I could see from her eyes that she loved Homura regardless of him being an impurity.
Like Konzen.
I can feel what Homura is feeling now without me looking at him.
Pain. Anguish. Terror. Panic. An unending hollowness of emptiness and sorrow.
Wonder how I knew all of these?
"Homura."
"I take it that you have heard."
"The crime of taboo is great; over here, words are probably the fastest traveler as time seems to have come to a stop."
"I see."
"She --Rinrei--is being led away. Are you not going to see her off?"
"No." He says simply.
"Ah. Are you going to see Tentei off to hell?"
His eyes open, showing that same unending void of sadness that was in mine years ago. He slumps against me.
"I am not up to the task."
A pregnant pause. I wrap my arms around him.
"Accepted."
-TBC-
A/N: I meant for this to be a one-shot, but in the end it turned out a bit longer than expected and I am too tired to write everything out now. The 939 comes in the next chapter, after Sanzo and the others are reincarnated. Sorry all 393 fans, I feel rather disappointed too. Next part will be up around a week later. Tell me what you think about this chapter anyway.