Chapter II – Radiance of the sun
Many thanks to Rynx for giving me the idea for this chapter's title.
Summary: Instead of Homura taking over Nataku's place of the Toushin Taishi, Goku is appointed the new Toushin Taishi as Konzen, Tenpou and Kanzeon first suspected at the beginning. He goes through the burdens that the Toushin Taishis are made to carry and witnesses the events that go through in heaven –Homura's life–and on earth – the life of Sanzo, Gojyo and Hakkai. 939, Homura/Goku , said Kon/Goku
Warning: Shounen-ai, mild language. Swearing is not encouraged in heaven. Slight OOCness.
Disclaimer: The day I own Saiyuki is the day I get a perfect score on my Chemistry tests.Which is never.
I know I promised that there will be 939 in this chapter but due to the assaults that have been made to my brain (Math, Chem, Bio… Argh!) the end result is a much poorly written chapter than the first. Anyway, enjoy.
Chapter II - Radiance of the sun
The simulated sun has yet again made its rise above the clouds without fail.
But mine hasn't yet.
" Ah, you mustn't be so impatient. He should be 'rising' soon."
"Kannon. It's you. What do you mean by that?"
" Didn't you hear what I said? I said that –he– is rising soon. Right about now, actually." She waved her arm vaguely towards the lily-covered pond.
" How were you notified of this??"
She shrugged. "You could call it maternal instinct."
I stare at her quizzically. " You're his aunt."
" It's the same."
" No, it isn't–"
" Whatever. At least my kami instincts are stronger than your animal ones. I have been with that grumpy ass long enough."
" Don't call him a grumpy ass!!"
" Oh, but Goku, I am merely stating the facts."
I scowl irritably. She must have overheard that conversation with Homura.
" But before contemplating on whether to start killing me or not, you really should look inside."
I look. I see him being a born, his cries a joy to my ears. And oh yeah. He's absolutely adorable.
And I am not biased.
But he is Konzen after all. He must end up beautiful without question. Or else I will kill the person who made him ugly.
I peer into the pond even more closely. But as hard as I try, I cannot make out his mother's face. I see her bring Konzen down to a huge river and
She throws him in.
I reach down desperately, but all I feel is the water of the lily pond. Now, his cries start to pain me. I want to pull him out, shut him up and hold him but all I can do is to sit here, hearing him cry. Stop it. Somebody help him! Don't drown!! Please don't!!!
" He won't. Look."
' Sanzo-sama, is something the matter?'
' No… It's just that… I thought I heard a voice!'
The one that was referred to as 'Sanzo' reached in, saving Konzen from those dangerous rapids. I silently thank him. My sun had finally risen unscathed.
"Hmph. That grumpy ass really is lucky."
" Because he is Konzen. Good things happen to pretty people."
" Oh really? Then why was he convicted of treason? Or do you consider that a good thing? A person can be made from the most skilled sculptor from Up Here and will look heavenly, but as long as there are a few shitty people in this world, he can be stained by the shit those shitty people shit him with."
" You seem rather fond of that word."
" It is the truth after all. Down There and Up Here, all of us have been stained. After all, we were made by quite a few shitted people." She sniggers. "Except you, of course. You were made not by human hands, but by the gathering of the Earth's aura. Though they say you a dirty and unclean heretic, you are probably the most pure, unstained by them. Stay pure, Goku. Continue enjoying the 'movie' anyway. I'll be sure to send some popcorn and drinks over." She added sarcastically.
"See ya."
Stay pure.
I continue to watch Konzen --or Kouryu, as he's called-- being taken care of, still as beautiful as ever, still my shining sun.
"Is that so?" Homura.
"Huh?"
" Is he really that beautiful that you have to voice it out to no one in particular?"
And I was wondering where all those hushed whispers were coming from.
My bad.
" But Konzen really is beautiful. Especially his eyes. So large and hardly any malice in them–I'm sorry, Homura."
You idiot. You stupid idiot. Going on about Konzen in front of Homura when Rinrei was just taken away. I clench on to his cape, begging him for forgiveness, though technically I have done nothing wrong. But rattling continuously about my own love when his was taken away– Too tactless, too cruel.
"Never mind."
I look up at him hopefully. "Really?"
"Really. Just stay here. You're the only person that understands me now, so you cannot leave me. Do you understand, Goku?" He grabs my wrist pleadingly.
I didn't expect this. I can't promise him. I want to go with Konzen. I need Konzen.
He sees my hesitation. He lets go of my wrist and stands up abruptly. I've angered him. Shit, shit, shit. But what can I do? If I saty with him, I might not get to see Konzen.
" H-Homura, I'm sorry--"
" No, it is not your fault. It's just me. Me being selfish. You have to go to Konzen."
"Homura…please…I'm sorry, I really can't help it, I really need Konzen…" He ruffles my hair soothingly.
"Yeah… I figured that a long time ago." He laughs a low, humourless laugh. "That's why I shouldn't have even thought of making that outrageous request. Anyway, I came to tell you something else."
I look at him inquisitively and worriedly. What is he going to say now?
He takes a deep breath. He looks at me in the eye with his mismatched ones, our noses nearly touching. Oh no. He is going to make a demand I cannot fulfill. I have to hurt him again.
I ask hesitantly. "W-What is it?"
He sighs. I prepare myself for the inevitable.
" You, my friend, are late for the banquet Tentei set out for us Heaven Dwellers, you absent-minded monkey."
The silence was so great, you could hear the trees whispering to each other, as if nothing happened. Nothing at all.
"Dammit. Dammit. Dammit."
" I think it is slightly more preferable to swear in your head. Swearing is not encouraged in Heaven."
"But I can't help it. Kannon was just there! Why didn't she tell me???"
Homura raises his eyebrow in mock amusement. "You probably wouldn't have listened."
"Oh yeah. You're right." I realized.
"Ah…the habits a pet learns from its master…"
I glare at him. "Are you slandering Konzen?"
"Of course not--"
"Good."
"Only you."
"What-- Hey!!"
We enter the largely decorated hall. But if you take it down, it will be nothing but a large empty space. Somehow, it reminds me of Ten-chan. Very pretty and gentle on the outside, but the inside…
I don't think anymore. The last thing I want are tears to trickle down my cheeks. I take a seat beside Homura, expressing my annoyance in a form of a glare at Kannon. She smirks back at me, causing me to be even more irked. No wonder Konzen always got angry at her. Kuso Baba.
"Well, now that we are all here, I would like to make an announcement…"
My mind shuts off at this point. What's the point of listening to a hideously deformed creature like Tentei anyway? His words are lifeless, empty and uninteresting.
I stare at the food laid out before me. Everything I wanted.
It's great! Anpanman flies through the air and has many cool fights! And there's Bread-man and Curry-Bun too! Looks good enough to eat…
That's enough…
Yeah. It was enough. All the food I ever wanted. Everything I wanted given to me. But everything I needed taken away. Ironic.
"You can switch your brain back on now, Goku."
"Hmph."
"The food will be gone if you don't eat it soon."
"I don't care. I'm going back to see Konzen."
I stalk off, leaving many people gaping, at I am sure, my rudeness.
'Kouryu, is something the matter?'
'No. Nothing at all. I just had a very weird dream.'
Again. Every time I dream of that boy. His face isn't very clear, but the familiar of having seen him before is intense. And he keeps looking at me, with love and adoration...
Nobody has looked at me like that. Master looks at me with love, yes, but it is of fatherly love. And definitely not adoration, with an added amount of adulation. That's how the boy looks at me. I feel as if he's waiting, waiting painfully for me. I hate it. I hate it that I am imposing on someone, let alone someone I don't even know. But…do I know him?
Konzen looked rather troubled then. I wonder what he way thinking about. I let my own mind wander and flashes of green and red come into my mind.
Ten-chan. Kenii-chan. I forgot.
I'm lying.
How could I forget?
A/N: That's done. And many thanks to the reviewers too. Apologies to Zymz-Sensei for not being able to add the 939 in this chapter. I promise I'll add it soon!! Urgh. You'd better not believe me. But I will add it eventually. It is my most fav. pairing after all.