Acceptance

Summary: Over here, Goku observes his friends and their relationship.Ken/Ten
Homura is also planning to put his plan of making a new heaven and earth here.Will Goku follow him into doing so?

Warning: Mild language and shounen-ai.

Disclaimer: The day I own Saiyuki is the day my best friend stops calling me evil and weird.

Oh my goodness! I'm so late . And the chapter isn't very good, I didn't even organize my ideas properly UU My bad… I'm so sorry, my schedule really is tight… and the stupid teacher gave us another project! Now we have FIVE projects to complete! In addition to tests… Oh well, review replying time!

RuByMoOn17: I've updated! Aren't you happy? XD

ZL: ahem As much as I love lemon, I am not authorized to write it. In case you haven't noticed by now, I am a very new writer which means I am very young too. I'm 13, 14 come Nov 3. Have you no idea how difficult it is just to write yaoi without people yelling how sick you are? Gaying is not encouraged in my family and friends. That is why I take so long just to post one chapter. I have to prevent my parents from seeing this or there will be a big blowup. Which I don't like.
But there will be lots and lots of lime… HAHAHA.
But only between Sanzo and Goku. So sorry. If I do it for Homura too, I will make Goku look like a philanderer. Which is not right. Hope you understand.

YJ: Uh uh… chapter no hurry. Chapter written and uploaded very slowly. This author here is no hurrier. Is a procrastinator. XD

I'm lying.

How could I forget?

I never really forgot actually. Ten-chan, always so gentle on the outside but a fighting machine outside, I love him a lot. Not as much as Konzen, but I love him second-best, as he was the second person who didn't actually slander me for being the dirty heretic I am. Kenii-chan too. All of them are so strong.

So, why am I so weak? Influence is a very strong thing isn't it? Why is it that they protect me all the time but I am never able to protect them?

I guess my heart will never stop screaming in horror. I never stopped thinking about it anyway. When Kenii-chan and Ten-chan were dragged away, they smiled quietly at each other, as if making a silent promise. To meet each other again, no doubt.

I guess I will never doubt ever since I interpreted what 'All I did was just to express my extreme heartfelt emotions, monkey' and 'it's perfectly all right to sleep with each other, Goku. After all, we're not doing anything, after all. Now don't bother yourself about this and why don't you pick some pretty flowers and show them to Konzen?' really meant. (1)

I really didn't know what happened then. All I knew was that they really loved each other, like I loved Konzen. It was true anyway. Just a different kind of love than what I thought it was. (2)

Last time I had a look at them. Ten-chan… although I knew there was this dark side about him, the child he was now… simply creeped me out. No smile, just a frown, as if it had already claimed permanent residence there. I want to see his smile. Not the empty one, but the warm one, that always made me all happy inside, even when Konzen had just smashed me on the head and kicked me out.

But then he would always come back again, and scream at me even more for running astray.

Kenii-chan too. I saw his mother swinging the axe, leading him closer to his death. I was horrified. I thought that Kenii-chan was a person who didn't allow anybody to get an advantage over him, be it his mother or not. And what about his promise to Ten-chan? That is why I am grateful to his brother. If I ever go down to earth, I will have a lot of people to thank.

Shit.

Master, please! Release me from this binding spell!

Kouryuu…

Do you know why Sanzo's wear scriptures on their shoulders?

It is to symbolize our carrying of the world's sins on our shoulders.

Be strong, Genjo Sanzo.

Like hell I have a choice.

Like I hell I wanted to.

That's why I'm not strong.

But I can't be weak.

That's why I'm not weak either.

I'm stuck. Stuck between these two things.

Either I'm weak or I'm strong. Why am I cursed for being neither?

Somebody help me.

Kanan!

Please! We'll go back, and everything will be alright again!

It's too late.

Goodbye, Gonou.

Too… late?

I'm too late. And I've always reminded my students not to be late.

I am such a bloody hypocrite.

I'm shackin' with Hakkai now. Strangely, I've felt happier then I've ever been, even when Banri was my partner. Apart from that stupid namaguza bouzu. But I do have to thank him for standin' up for 'Kai.

Even with all this, why do I feel that something is missing? It feels so dead and silent, as if we are waiting for somebody to noise out the place…

Up in Tenkai-

"Hey! Did you hear the news?"

"Kannon issued Genjo Sanzo, Sha Gojyo and Cho Hakkai to stop the resurrection of Gyuumao!"

"Will they be able to finish the job? As efficient as they are, they are rather… untamed."

"Who cares? They're just a group of people. We can always assign another group to take care of it if they fail or die."

"You're right."

What? Is that what they are to you? Some bunch of machines you can just throw away? And I don't care even if they are machines, they are still my friends!

I want to lash out at them, but Homura holds me back. I sound out a growl of irritation. Get off!

"Not," he reprimanded, "a good idea to go on a killing rampage now." He paused. "Do it later, when you have a plan formed in your mind."

Huh? What? I stare at him in confusion, my anger gone.

"Whatever do you mean?"

He dragged me off to his room.

"If I can't send Tentei off to hell, the least I can do is to create a new heaven, a new world, where Tentei isn't there, where taboos don't exist." He whispered, his breath hot against my face, excited. "And to do that, I need you. The child of Earth, born from the rock. Will you do it? I can give you everything if you do it."

But I don't want to create a new world. I like this earth, because Sanzo, Gojyo-nii-chan and Kai-chan are down there. (3)

And if the world is destroyed, they won't be there anymore. That's very, very bad. Not good at all.

"No."

"Why ever not? You can get rid of Tentei and all those people who ostracize you."

"But Sanzo and the others are on earth…"

Silence.

"You can bring them with you."

"Sanzo wouldn't like it."

"Why not?"

"He just wouldn't. I don't think he wants a new world. And you need the sutras, don't you? I don't think Sanzo would just give them to you. After all, they are his master's."

"That's why I need you even more. Just convince him…"

"No… Sanzo… Sanzo won't remember me anyway… And I don't want a new world either… I don't need anymore changes."

He sighs.

"I guess it can't be helped."

He leans forward, and forces his lips on mine. I moan, it feels good, but… it just isn't Konzen.

He finally pulls away. That familiar smug smirk forms on his face again.

"Treat that as a memento, if you wish. But after this, I will try all means to take the sutras for ceremony, and most of all, you. We have that clear, Goku?"

"Accepted."

Shit. Another assignment. Now that Homura's gone, I have no one to go back to. Why am I doing all this crap? It's just the same thing again and again. Snarls, screams, ripping of flesh and dripping of blood, and the added fear of losing. How… monotonous.

I finally slash away the last of the disgusting creature. I don't care. I need to go to Kon- I mean, Sanzo. I need to see him.

(1) Goku usually gets involved in the most 'unusual' moments, doesn't he? XD

(2) Goku was still young back then. Whaddya expect? An underaged horny jailbait monkey? It so does not look good, as much as I love the Kon/Goku pairing. Remember, Goku is a person of innocence. Innocence. Not of sex, like somebody I know.

(3)He's not used to calling them just plain Hakkai and Gojyo, so he's referring to them like that.

A/N: YES…YEEEES… I'm finally getting close to the 939 I wanted to write…with lots of lime sprayed over. XD