Cold and forgotten,I was in my room.I thought about all the times I had fun,going to the park.Picnics with you.Why did you leave me?You said you would always be there for me.I won't call you a liar though,that wouldn't be right.Did you know that I met some people today?They seem to be nice...except that they are a bit annoying.But that's alright with me.When I got home I noticed the house was empty.Naturally I went into the kitchen to make a snack.
It wasn't right.Seeing you there on the floor.I knew you were dead.You had a heart attack they said.I tell you that I almost had a heart attack.Now I feel aqward.Your funeral is tommorrow and I'm not going to it.It would hurt too much.Yet I wasn't alone.I would talk to myself,the voice in my head.He said his name is Arukab.
Are you there Arukab?
Do not fret, I am here. Is there anything I can do to assist you?
Maybe, because a boy keeps asking me to give him the answers to our homework. He should do it himself.
And so he shall.
You didn't have to kill him Crow. Now I have to go to an asylum.
Pardon?
An asylum. Where all the crazy people go and never come back. Thanks a lot Arukab.
You are not crazy, so it does not matter. Anyways, I will be there. You shall not be alone.
Here we are. What an odd name,'The Gullitine'.
Gullitine? You had better not be at one.
I didn't say I was, I just said that it sounded like one. Jeeps, you shouldn't overreact all the time.
I am sorry. After all these years your mind starts to wander to the worst. Soon enough though, soon enough.
The class today had us express our feelings. When it was my turn to tell why I killed that kid, I told them that Arukab did it. Now they think 'Arukab' is a voice in my head.
They did not believe you… but I am more than just a voice.
I know that.
I am glad that you know that. I am glad.
And that's how it started. The voice in my head, Arukab. Except it wasn't a voice, it was a real person. No one would believe me though, and still no one does. Not even when I killed the boy, and then they thought Arukab was made up.
You weren't there to save me though.I miss you so much.
I miss you mama.