P.S. Do you think that the story is getting repetitive in the storyline and dialogues? If so, please tell me. Thanks.
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Reflection of the Moon
Eyes • Amber Eyes
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Yukito's eyes threatened to slide shut for the umpteenth time that day, and he used all his force to pry them open again. He must at least stay up during class and in front of Touya. He forced himself to appear normal on the surface while Touya was around, but he could feel himself collapse and fall into pieces once Touya turned his back on him.
It was obvious that he was crumbling together with the illusions that Yue had built for him, and he couldn't help but wonder when the time would be up, and that he would just disappear with a pop, leaving nothing behind. He couldn't wait for that day to come, and then everything would stop. No more inferior glances from classmates, no more hushed whisperings behind his back and no more happy scenes of Nakuru together with Touya. He no longer felt like tearing them apart; he wanted to rip himself into pieces.
He wondered if Touya would feel anything if he were to die, no disappear. Would he feel guilty? Remorse? Pain? And would he cry, just for Yukito? If so, then he really wouldn't mind vanishing.
Soon, he told himself, it would be soon. He could already feel parts of himself being erased.
Finally, the bell rang, and as much as Yukito would like to rush out, he had to steady himself using the table as he stood up. It was as if his legs had totally fallen asleep, and his brain as swimming in his head. He squeezed his eyes shut, trying to make the swirls and dots of light in his vision disappear.
Suddenly, he felt someone taking hold of his arm, steadying him, while the warmth of that person flooded into his icy cold skin.
"To-ya!" Yukito exclaimed before he could stop himself. He should have called him "Touya-san", as much as he hated that. He risked a glance into Touya's eyes, which proved to be a mistake, as he found himself incapable of shifting his gaze anymore. Those so very familiar sapphire eyes bore into him with such intensities of worry, confusion and hurt that they captured Yukito like a deer caught in the headlights. "To-ya . . . "The syllables tumbled out of his lips with so much longing and gentleness.
"Yuki, tell me what's wrong. I don't care if you no longer like me, or even want to be near me anymore, but I can't stand seeing you getting weaker day by day." he softly coaxed, relishing the feeling to be able to touch Yukito again.
Yukito's resolve crumbed at Touya's words. "I . . ."
"Touya-kun, why aren't you coming yet?" Nakuru's cheerful voice rang out in the almost empty classroom. "Oh, HI, Tsukishiro-san! You wanna join us fro lunch today?"
Making use of the distraction, Yukito pulled away from Touya's grasp on his arm and ran out of the classroom.
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Damn it! How could I have let Yuki get away so easily?! No, I won't lose him again this time, or else I might never get a chance like this again. His magic was depleting so fast now that he was almost as fragile as spun glass. I don't care about his choice or Clow or anything anymore. As long as he won't disappear, I would do anything.
I took off after him, pushing Akizuki out of my way.
"Touya-kun, where are you going? Tsukishiro-san wants to be alone!" she shouted behind me, but I ignored her.
It wasn't hard to tack Yuki down. Even though he had so little powers now, I could still "see" him clearly. He was in the gym changing room, and had stopped running. Could something have happened to him?! I ran full speed towards him, and luckily, only found him leaning against the wall, clutching his chest and panting heavily.
"Yuki," I called softly, and he head jerked up with a start. Immediately, he braced himself up and prepared to ran away again. Frustrated and a little fed up, I took two huge steps and simply caught him by his wrist and pinned him again the wall, my arm on either side of his head to prevent him from escaping.
"Yuki, listen to me, "I said in my best controlled voice, but he just turned his head away from me.
"Touya-san, please let go of me." His tone was clod and dead, yet his whole body was shaking.
I cupped his face with my hand, then tilted his head until he was facing me. A smile tugged at the corner of my lips as I saw his amber eyes that showed blatantly every emotion in him. He had been lying, and pretending to dislike me, though for what reason I did not know. But I could see that he still liked me as much as before, and that was more than enough. I had never been happier that he was lying.
"Yuki, I don't care if you are going back to Clow or not, but you can't stop our friendship just because of this. You are too important for me to lose. "
His eyes widened in shock, and I caught a glimpse of silvery violet passing through his eyes as I mentioned Clow. But the surprise turned to pain, and he pushed hard against my chest, wanting freedom.
I didn't budge; instead, I straddled his hips, wrapped my arms around his waist and buried my head in the curve of his neck, using my whole body weight to pin him don and constrict his movements. With that, his whole form went limp and fell even further into my embrace. I closed my eyes, taking in every bit of his fresh rain-like scent and feeling each little tremor that ran through his body, the slightly faster rise and fall of his chest, the warm exhales of air against my ear, the steady beat of his heart against mine . . . and it was perfect. He was perfect. For the first time in weeks, I truly smiled
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Yukito lay in Touya's arms, more than a little breathless at the situation. Having Touya so close to him was starting to make him light-headed and weak in the knees, and it was almost impossible for him to move.
He thought back to what Touya had said, but how did Touya know about Clow? And what made him think that he was going back to the magician? He was dead. No matter. It wasn't as if it could make him go back to Touya. Nothing could do that anymore. He would never let Touya know that he wasn't human; he could never allow Touya to sacrifice his magic. And in order to protect the one most important to him, he was willing to disappear. He must stay away from Touya!
With a decisive push, he managed to make Touya loosen his grip, but he had only taken a step before Touya grabbed him by the wrist and pinned him against the wall again.
"Why aren't you telling me everything, Yuki?" he asked tenderly with a touch of pain in his voice.
"You don't understand! I . . . I can't hurt you, I don't want to take anything away from you! It will only bring you harm if you stay near me, don't you understand?" Yukito blurted out madly, "and the school, the society, they own' allow us! What do you think people will think of you? You still have a life in front of you, and you can't waste in on me! Do you understand? Now let me go! Let me go, To-ya! LET ME ----- mph . . ."
Before he knew what was happening, Touya had already pressed his lip son his, and his heart almost stopped beating. He tried protesting, but what came out was only a tiny whimper. Besides, Touya's gentleness was making him forget everything else that existed, as he licked lightly on Yukito's lower lip, coaxing his mouth open. Yukito's whole body was shaking now, as he felt himself growing hotter and hotter, and his hands moved of their own accord as they twined in Touya's raven black hair.
None of them knew how long had passed when they finally broke apart for air. Yukito was panting, his face flushed with a pale wash of pin, and his hand was clutching onto Touya's shirt.
Slowly dipping his head down, Touya grazed his lips over Yukito's ear, as he whispered, "I don't want you to disappear, Yuki. When Kaho left me, my heart was broken, and I never thought that I would be able to open up to anyone again, but . . . I love you, Yuki, and sometimes just by loving you, I hurt a hundred times more than when Kaho left. I don't think I can survive if you were to leave me too, so promise me, do not ever disappear. I won't force you to do anything, but I want you to make the right decision. I love you, Yuki, I really do."
Burying his face in Touya's shoulder, Yukito choked on the sobs that were racking through is body. "But . . . but . . . I want to protect you . . . more than anything in the world . . ."
"But don't you realize that the person you want to protect wishes to protect you too?"
Yukito's eyes widened with a start.
Placing his hand gently on Yukito chin, Touya tilted his head up until he started into that pair of clear amber eyes, then leaned in close and kissed away the tears.
"I have always wanted to do that," he said with a smile, "so that you wont' cry anymore. If you really want me to be happy, then take good care of yourself. I want to see you smile; I want your eyes to sparkle one again, and I'll do anything for that."
Yukito closed his eyes, then opened them after a while, a bitter smile lingered on his lips. "I'll try, To-ya. I'll try my best."
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