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Chapter 2

"Alicia?" Lana thought out loud. Lana was extremely confused. Alicia and Lana had never been remotely close. Lana disliked Alicia as much as anyone, even after she had died. It may be selfish and mean, but deep down, Lana knew that Alicia had struck at Lana in way that hurt her. Even though Clark denied it, Alicia had said that Clark had told her his secret. No matter what either of them said, this hurt Lana (even more than the fact that Alicia had tried to kill her).

Lana's first instinct was to throw the letter away. Alicia had given her a sad attempt at an apology when they last saw each other, and the fact that she had dated Clark was not too comforting to Lana either. Still, the letter intrigued her. She wanted to see what Alicia possibly could have said. She checked the date, and it was written a day before she was killed. Although she had doubts, Lana decided to open the letter…

As Clark finished moving the hay in his barn, he went inside his house to change into better clothes.

"Smallville?" asked a familiar voice.

"Yeah, Lois? What do you need?" Clark replied.

"Just wanted to see if you had come inside yet. Got those chores done pretty fast, didn't you?" Lois questioned in her usual sarcastic manner.

"Yeah, and they would go a lot faster if you helped. I have the perfect job for you spreading manure." Clark responded.

"Well I would, but I know you do not want your favorite chore taken away," Lois replied.

"Wow, you're a real friend. Thanks," Clark said with a smirk.

In the recent months, Lois and Clark, despite their constant bantering, had grown somewhat closer. This confused Clark. He still had immense feelings for Lana, but she had obviously moved on. He thought he had lost his chance with her. Lois' was a new feeling, but he was unsure if it was actual feelings, or just a newfound friendship.

"Lois, tell my parents I'll be in the loft," Clark stated as he left to sit with his thoughts.

"Have fun," Lois said with a smirk, and although she would not admit it, she was beginning to see the small town farm boy in a different.

"Ok, here goes nothing," Lana said as she opened the letter.

Dear Lana,

I know I was the last person you were expecting to get a letter from. First, I want to apologize again for how I acted. I had tried to kill you a couple of months ago. That is inexcusable. I hope someday you can forgive me for it, but I understand if you can't. I know someone tried to murder you, but you have to believe me. It was not me. My letter, though, is not an alibi. In fact, it is the hardest thing I have ever had to write in my life. At first, I was obsessed with Clark. I felt I needed him to live. He was like a drug. I got treatment, but, even after we met again, I still was a little obsessed. To tell you the truth, I still am a little obsessed, but something amazing happened. Clark, no matter how bad I got, he continued to accept me, and give me a chance. Clark is the most special person I have ever met. Still, I realized that he deserves the chance to be happy. As much as I want to, I can not make him as happy as he deserves to be. Lana, the guy goes around and saves people's lives everyday, he deserves his own TV show. Lana I never liked you, but not for the reason you think. I think you are an okay person actually (yeah, in case you were wondering, that was hard to say). Lana the reason I don't like you is because of the looks. Clark is the master of keeping secrets. You, of all people, should know that, but when you look at his eyes you, can always tell the truth. He can not hide when you look at his eyes. No matter what he tells you, no matter what he does, Lana he still loves you, and not the teenage love that is so common. He really loves you. I can see it in his eyes. When he looks at me, I see the look of someone who accepts me, wants to be with me, and generally enjoys my company. When I see him look at your eyes, I see so much more. I see pain, anguish, regret, and, most of all, I see longing. He needs you Lana. He masks it very well. He hates every minute he is not with you. He told me a little about when you two went out (I had to pry the information from him). He said that it was his secrets that kept you apart. No Lana, it is the consequences that knowing his secret will cause that scares him. Lana he would do anything for you. You may think that you two have grown apart, and maybe you have, but he still longs for you. I know you think that his secret can not harm you, but, the truth is, it could get you hurt, and Clark would not be able to live with himself if anything ever happened to you in order to save his secret. It's funny, I can always tell when he's thinking of you. He gets the most distinct look on his face. At first it looks as though he is happy, but the expression is quickly replaced by a sense of regret and failure. Lana, you may think I am the last person who would have sent you a letter like this, but I want, no I need Clark to be happy. He could learn to be with me, maybe even learn to love me, but he needs you to be happy. Seeing with Jason is tearing him apart. He knows you are becoming serious with him. If you love Jason, and see no future with Clark, then tell him. He will need to learn to live without you. But if you love him, confront him about his feelings for you.

I have to be honest with you. I lied. He never told me his secret. I discovered it on my own, and he was forced to reveal it to me. Lana his secret is a touchy matter for him. The truth is, I think he likes me more for the fact that I know his secret, more than on actual love. He needs someone to talk to. I will reveal anything to you except his secret. All I am going to say is, he has saved you a lot, a lot more than he would let you believe. That reminds me. Didn't you ever find it strange that you were sucked up into a tornado, your truck was ripped into about 2 million pieces, yet you managed only to get a mild concussion? Here's a little secret; that was no accident. It also was not an accident that you saw Clark before you got sucked in. Between you and me, it is no accident that he always finds a way to save you. Let's just say he is super. Lana he wants to be with you, and he wants to tell you his secret, but he is scared. He is scared of you! You, more than anyone else, have power over him. If you rejected him, I do not know if he would ever be the same. You hold his heart in his hands every time you look at him.

Lana, bottom line, I want you to make Clark happy. You are the only who can make him truly happy. I have tried to make it as clear as I can, but some things you have to talk to Clark about yourself. If nothing else, know that he loves you, and he has resisted you because he does not want you to get hurt. He needs you. If nothing else, please talk to him. You owe him that much.

Alicia

Lana read the letter five times. "He still…lo…lo..loves me?" she stammered.The wave of emotion hit her, and she did not know what to do. She just started to cry because things in her life just got a lot more complicated.

What do you think? I know Alicia was a pretty crazy character, but she deserves one last act of goodwill towards Clark. She just loved him, yes it was obsessive, but I thought she did care for him. Thank you for reading, and whether you hated it or loved it, please review.