Wild Cat

Chapter Two: Know who I am?

Author: Setzu

Rated: R

Damn it, she was here again. The pitch dark kept her from seeing anything. She took a deep breath, trying to calm her nerves down. What would happen this time? She hoped it would be nothing like the first one. She wasn't sure she could handle that again.

"Look whose back... Hello Relena..." the voice surrounded her, coming from all sides of her and she cringed. The voice was not a pleasant one, it was vicious and cruel and held the notes of death in it. The other thing that unnerved Relena greatly about the voice that haunted her dreams was that it sounded so familiar, yet she couldn't quite place it.

"What do you want this time?" Relena demanded her eyes narrowing.

"Why you of course...You must realize what you are Relena, what you will become...Let me show you..." Relena's eyes widened and she backed away quickly, her eyes darting around the darkness.

"No! I don't want to see! Let me wake up!" she pleaded, but it was of no use. Within the blink of an eye she was no longer in darkness, but in her garden. She took a shaky breath and began to walk along the path. Then, within another blink she was falling to the ground, one hand around her throat as she tried to breathe properly and the other around her nose. Smell after smell assaulted her nose. She could smell each individual flower, and strongly. She could even smell the robin, which sat in its nest in the tree above her. Since when did her sense of smell become so strong. She began to get dizzy at all the odd scents. She clenched her eyes shut tightly and curled up into a ball on the ground.

"What...What is going on?" she gasped out.

"This is part of what you will become... You are not Normal Relena..." What on earth was the voice talking about? Why wasn't she normal, how was she able to smell everything so distinctly, like an animal perhaps would.

She opened her eyes and took in three large breaths and tried to calm herself. She was more used to the intake of smells now, almost as if it was coming naturally to her. She wiggled her nose, sniffing the air and caught scent of something that made her stomach jump in anticipation. She swiveled her head to the right and spotted a small mouse sitting in the middle of the dirt path. Her head cocked to the side slowly, studying the small creature with fascination. She had the urge to lunge at it and eat it.

With wide eyes she scrambled to her feet and turned away, her hands on her head. What on earth? She had wanted to eat that mouse! Eat it! How...Utterly disgusting, yet...something inside her wanted her to catch it, toy with it, and then kill it. It would make a good meal...No! No it wouldn't! Stop thinking like that! She chastised herself, incredibly confused at these new instincts that seemed to be coming to her.

"Hahaha...Hungry are you?"

"What are you doing to me? What did you do!"

"I did nothing dear Relena...This is simply what you are..."

"Your lying!" her voice grew frantic and she took off at a sprint down the path, her eyes tearing up in frustration. Why? How? So many questions were racing in her mind she feared she would pass out. Once she reached the edge of the garden all turned back to the pitch darkness. She stood, shaking terribly, her arms wrapped around her chest.

"Why not embrace what you will become...You can not stop it."

"I will to stop it! This is just some crazy nightmare! It's all a dream! Nothing is real!"

"Not yet...It will turn to reality in due time..." before Relena could protest again something grabbed Relena from behind and shoved her harshly to the ground. She didn't want to see what had done it, but she turned to face it anyway. She screamed louder than she had in the first dream and nearly had a heart attack. Standing before her, dripping in blood was her mother. Miss Darlian had neither eyes and claw marks were all over her body, there were even teeth marks around her neck. Flesh was torn and starting to rot making Relena nearly heave her stomach out.

"Mother! No! Oh god no!"

"You did this to me Relena...How could you...why? I loved you..." the woman's voice was but a whisper, but it made it's impact on Relena. Again, she had killed someone close to her? She would never do that, ever!

"Oh, but you will dear Relena...For it is what we are..." Relena's head shot up at the voice. We? What did it mean WE?

"What are you talking about? What do you mean we?"

"So you still cannot figure out who I am?" it began to purr in amusement once again, "Why, I am you Relena. I am your mind."

"No! You can't be! That can't be!" her voice was an octave higher in fear and she screamed again as her mother fell onto her, blood pouring over her. Miss Darlian wouldn't let Relena go as she cried.

"No on Can save you...Not even yourself..."as the words run in Relena's ears, she did the last thing she could think of. She called for the man that had always come to rescue her.

"HEEROOO!"

"Relena! Relena wake up!" Heero shook her harshly. He had all but knocked the door down when Relana kept screaming his name. He had run over to her bedside and grabbed her arms. She was shaking terribly and tears streamed down her cheeks in her sleep. What the hell had she been dreaming about, he wondered? "Damnit Relena, open your eyes!" he gave her another firm shake and her eyes sprung open. Heero's breath caught in his throat as he stared into her horrified blue eyes. Never had he seen her so scared in her life.

"He...Heero?" she blinked in confusion, her breathing calming down as she stared into his Cobalt eyes. He nodded and she threw herself into his arms and let herself cry. Heero, not sure what he should do just hugged her. Girls liked to be hugged when scared right, he pondered. They sat like that in silence for a few minutes before all the other boys came rushing in. Duo's violet eyes were wide, Wufei had a raised eyebrow, Trowa was simply silent, and Quatre was obviously still very, very worried.

"What's wrong?" Quatre's gentle voice washed over both and Heero turned to stare at him for a moment before laying Relena back down, she had fallen back to sleep.

"I'm not sure, I guess she had a really bad nightmare. She looked terrified when she woke up."

"She didn't say what it was about?" questioned Trowa. Heero shook his head and sat up from the bed, glancing back at Relena first though to make sure she was all right.

"No, she fell asleep again before she could," Heero ushered them all out and they stood in the hallway in confused silence before Duo spoke up.

"It's not like Lena to have nightmares, especially ones that scare her the way you said she was," each man nodded and were kept in their owns thoughts before Heero headed back towards Relena's room.

"What are you doing?" inquired Quatre. He had heard about Heero's...Sleeping partner, and wasn't too happy about it, but he was more concerned about Relena at the moment. Heero turned to the young blonde pilot and stared into his deep blue eyes.

"I'll stay in her room incase she has another nightmare," before anyone could protest he was in Relena's room and she shut the door. Duo growled and was moved his sleeves up his arms, ready to barge in and teach Heero a lesson, but Trowa put a calming hand on his arm and shook his head.

"No, let him be. It is probably best for now," then he left with the others, leaving Duo to glare at the door. Then with a defeated sigh left as well, trudging to his own room.

The morning sun flowed gently into Relena's room, washing over her face and making her wake up. She didn't have another nightmare that night, and thanked the heavens for that. She shifted in her bed and raised an eyebrow as she saw a figure slumped over in a chair, head bowed and sleeping. She moved a little closer and peered at the figure. With wide eyes she stared in astonishment. It was Heero! Had he stayed there the whole night after her nightmare? Her lips curved in a smile for a brief moment, before she remembered the events before she had gone to bed. A sad look filled her eyes and she got out of her bed and walked quietly to her window. She stared down at her flowers and shivered. For the first time since she had come to the peacecraft mansion she felt wary about her adored garden. Who could blame her with the dream she had?

"You're awake," it was nothing more than a simple comment and Relena turned to look at him as he got up from his chair. He watched her carefully as she studied him. She seemed alright, she must not even remember the dream.

"I guess I'll be going now..."

"Yes...I guess you..." She trailed off, her eyes widened as she stared at him. He looked at her confused, wondering why she had stopped in the middle of her sentence. A look of amazement and fear washed over her features and she shot away from the window and towards the bathroom.

"What's wrong?" he demand to know as he followed.

"Nothing, nothing...I just remembered something that's all. Now if you'll excuse me I need to take a shower," and before he could protest she shut the door and locked it. He stared at it for several minutes before plopping back down into the chair. He would wait till she was done, then find out what was going on.

Relena stared into the mirror, her nose twitching as she sniffed the air. She could smell him, and not just smell him, but smell him. She could smell the vanilla shampoo he had used that night for his hair, his deodorant, him. He smelt like gunpowder and Vanilla. Not only that, but she could smell everything else around her, exactly like in her dream. That scared her, no that petrified her.

"It was only a nightmare, it can't be real. Dreams aren't real," she chided herself and turned the shower on. She discarded her clothes and stepped under the warm water, letting it soothe her nerves. She stayed in for a good half an hour before grabbing a towel and wrapping it around herself. Steam poured from the bathroom as she opened the door. She was too caught up in her thoughts to realize Heero was still in the room.

Heero opened his eyes lazily when he heard the bathroom door creak open and he watched as Relena came out in nothing but a towel. His throat became dry and he gulped. Her body was damp and her hair matted against her head. The cotton towel was wrapped around her tightly and his eyes traveled down to her long legs. He wondered what it would feel like to have those legs wrapped around him...No! Bad Heero, very bad Heero! He shook his head and coughed so she would notice him, and it worked, quite well actually.

She spun around, eyes wide like a deer caught in headlights. She had almost dropped the towel, ready to change, before he coughed and she blushed furiously.

"Oh...Ah...Heero! I didn't realize you were still here..."

"Uh...Yea, well...Here, I'll turn around so you can change," she nodded her head and when his back was to her she changed quickly. She wore cream slacks and a white blouse.

"You can turn now, and why are you still here?"

"I wanted to talk to you."

"Why?"

"What's wrong?" he gets straight to the point doesn't he, she mused.

"Nothing is wrong Heero," she didn't want to talk about her dream, or how part of it was now true. She could even smell his irritation, although she didn't know how to explain that.

"Bull shit Relena, I want to know," he stated coldly. Something must have happened to her to make her have nightmares right? Relena glared at his tone, anger beginning to seep into her system again. How dare he ask what was wrong! Aside from having a nightmare he should know!

"So who was she?" Heero looked at her startled, not having expected that.

"What?"

"Don't play stupid Heero, I know you fucked some one," she held back a gasp at her language. Since when did she swear? Then again, since when had she gotten angry so easily?

"That is none of your concern," he was surprised as well, but hid it better. Something was definitely up, and he wanted to find out, but he also did not want to talk about Sylvia.

"Of course it is! You go off with another woman after I tell you how I feel!"

"I said, it was none of your concern," he stated more sternly. Relena had to hold herself back from slapping him.

"Then screw you!" she gave him the middle finger, startling both even more before she ran past him and out of her room, intent on having breakfast. Heero stood, letting her go. Had he really made her that angry? He didn't even know she could get that angry. He sighed and sullenly followed her. He would have to tell her eventually, she would find out anyway.

"Damn women..."