"Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the lord my soul to keep...If I shall die before I wake, I pray the lord my soul to take."
Sidney's eye lids slowly fluttered open and slowly the darkness around her moved and she found herself laying safe and sound in bed.
It was morning and the dorm room and lit up with fresh sun light.
It was all a dream...
At first it took her a minute realize where she was.
She looked around the crowded room and then she remembered...
Mickey's place.
A soft smile spread across her face as she looked around at his side of the dorm room and his room mates.
His room mate was one of the many other students who took the short "Vacation," time and had drove up to his parents.
His room mate had a plain side, mostly cluttered and messy with odds and ends.
His room mate's desk was covered in books and papers.
She thought the bed must have been the thing covered in laundry.
Mickey's side was different.
On one side, closer towards the window was all his audio equipment and sound mixers for class.
He seemed neat enough for a young guy, his desk was stacked with books and blank tapes.
His walls were covered in movie posters and his basket ball stuff was stocked over in his conner.
Sidney smiled and stretched out, letting out a huge relaxed sigh.
She then checked Mickey's side of the bed and saw he wasn't there, only the covers pulled up and a note laying on top of them.
Sidney sat up a little and rubbed the side of her hair, she tried to blink the sleep put of her eyes as she read Mickey's scrawled hand writing.
Sid,
Didn't wanna wake you, went out to get some coffee for us, Please don't leave!
Love, Mickey.
Sidney laughed at the note and crumbled it with her hands and tossed it.
She then stopped and glanced over with a nervous eyes towards the bay window.
But this time it wasn't scary...in fact it looked beautiful.
The tops of the lush green trees looked full and thick, and the sun was shinning in the powder blue sky.
It was another day that she was sill alive.
"Randy..." she said in a small breathless voice looking at the window still sad.
She felt another pang of pain come over her and she shook.
God she felt shitty.
She then remembered the note, Mickey would be coming back soon and she didn't want him to see her crying again.
She then looked over at the alarm clock and saw it was around nine.
She then scanned the room and any fresh clothes she could wear until she reached her dorm room.
Yeah and Hallie will be there.
She gulped but tried not to think about it.
She then slowly slid off the bed and wrapped the sheet around her and walked towards Mickey's dresser.
She pulled the first draw and found a bunch of blank tapes, she then closed it and tried the other and saw his nice sweaters "All blue, black and gray," she thought with a smile and pushed in the draw and tried the last.
This time she found his sweats and bang around clothes. She pulled out one of his old sport jerseys and pulled it over her head and laughed seeing how big it was on her.
She then brushed her hair out of her eyes and made the bed.
When she finished she found herself with nothing else to do, so she sat down on soft cushions of the bed and looked around again.
She still couldn't believe she had slept with him.
She was her only second time, her first was...
She cut off that thought and tried to think of Mickey again.
A small smile curved on her lips but then she remembered her dream.
"Every thing you touch dies!"
She then looked down and felt ashamed. She was nothing...
But her thoughts were broken off when she heard the door open and saw Mickey walk with a box of donuts and two steaming cups of coffee from downstairs.
Right away she felt her heart start to race, this was the first time she had seen him since last night.
She really didn't know how to act, her palms started to sweat and she tried her best to smile as he kicked the door shut with one leg and walked over and locked eyes with her.
He grinned and placed down the box of donuts.
"Brought some nice cooked beacon and eggs."
Sidney then laughed and covered her mouth with her hand, she couldn't help it.
Her emotions were like a roller coaster, one time she felt ashamed about the things she did, the next she felt hopeless...but anytime Mickey was around her she felt hope.
He laughed and handed her a coffee.
He was dressed in a gray T-shirt with jeans, his hair still wet from a shower.
"How long have you been up?" He asked as he sat down beside her and kicked off his sneakers.
"Not long...hope you don't mind?" She pointed at the T-shirt and Mickey laughed as he took a sip of his coffee.
"Looks better on you, you have the body to pull it off."
Sid laughed again and then he reached over and covered her free hand with his.
"How you holding up?"
Sid shrugged.
"Better then anyone else could be."
Mickey looked at her with sad eyes.
"I'm sorry about Randy."
Sid then felt her heart starting to lurch forward.
"Thanks..." She said, her voice getting low.
"Hey..."
Sid looked up, her eyes looking like glass.
Mickey looked her over and then slowly leaned in and kissed her.
When the kiss broke she smiled and brought her hand up and placed it against his cheek.
"Thank you..."
Mickey's face seemed to change color like hers.
"No, thank you."
She smiled again and she leaned in for another kiss.
This time it was longer and she tried to forget it all, during those few moments she had while feeling his lips against hers, she tried to escape.
When it broke they were breathless and Sidney looked closer into his eyes.
"What about..."
He then put his finger to her lips and kissed her again, his lips slowly moving against her smooth pale skin.
"I don't care about anyone else."
Sidney then smiled and placed her coffee on the night stand.