I look at you. I know its true. You love her not me. There's a light that shines in your eyes. It's not for me. You look at me; do I remind you of old memories? Do you even see me? Does my pain matter? Do you always think of her, you said you did?
I want to stay; I want to be with you. I don't want to leave and forget about you. Please hold me tight, if only for tonight. For tomorrow you could leave. Leave without me to search for her again. You could let me shrink in to my own misery. No, I wont. I want you to be happy. I want you to smile…even if your happiness makes me cry at night. Makes me unsure. Don't you see? You're all that matters to me. I dream about you at night. I think of you always, even when you think of her. It doesn't matter. Sure it hurts. But ill except it. Because if only for a little while, ill stay with you. I love you as you are. I stand behind you always. I long to stay. God I love you.
I've always known…that you would go. Just as you promised, you promised her you'd always protect her. So its not as if this surprises me. That look in your eyes when you think about her, after you've seen her.
I bet she thinks I hate her. I bet you do to. But I don't. If anything I feel bad for her, but I cant help to feel bad for myself to. I feel so guilty when I cry. I try to stop…its so selfish, but I want to scream don't you see what this does to me? I start to sob please make it stop...but you'll be gone...with the one you love. I sit here alone thinking of you always