E wo! Misty Amethyst ere!
Well this chapter was updated faster then the last! But I guess it was still really slow! I'm sorry! I've just felt so uninspired. When I write the story I go completely blank! I know...not a good sign...but I'm trying my best. My deepest apologies.
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Ok this chapter is named after the title as you probably already figured out. It's meant to be sad...but I'm not sure if you'll find it sad...so review and tell me how I went! This chapters mainly about heartbreaks, so yes that means a lot of Syaoran and Sophie moments and a lot of signs that Sakura is moving on, I'm really sorry...but how else is my fic suppose to live up to the title 'tears of heartbreak'? I no it sucks, but near the end of the story it will be full out Sakura and Syaoran moments! I promise! And since this is like one of the final heartbreak chapters it can only go down hill now right?
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Tears of Heartbreak
Chapter 10: Tears of Heartbreak
°Sakura's POV°
The next day at school, Tomoyo and Eriol told me what to do. It seemed easy enough. Ignore Syaoran unless he talks to you and if he does then make short conversation, don't look at him and pretend he doesn't exist. That sounds easy enough!
I walked into the classroom just as the bell rang.
'Just on time!' I sighed.
As the teacher silenced the class he started reading the day notices, "Well the third floor end corridor is sealed off as they fix the windows that were smashed just yesterday. The start of year social is next week Tuesday and...Oh! Here's something that concerns someone in our class." The teacher paused for a moment and scanned the class.
His eyes fell on me.
'Oh great!'
"Class, Miss. Kinomoto here, will be performing at the Tomeada Capital Theatre tomorrow night. She'll be um...is this right? It says Hip-Hop dancing?" The teacher said looking at me in a confused way.
I sank down in my sit as I felt the whole class looking at me.
"Ah...yes...that's right," I mumbled as my cheeks started to grow hot.
"Well Sakura, I would never have imagined you Hip-Hop dancing," the teacher said smiling, "But then again you do cheerleading so nothing surprises me these days." The teacher mumbled the rest of the sentence and walked to his suit case leaving the class to talk.
"Well Sakura!" Tomoyo said beaming as she came over to my desk. "The news is out!"
"Oh spare me please!" I said covering my face with my hands.
"Hip-Hop?" A voice said behind me.
I froze as I heard his voice. I slowly pulled my hands from my face and turned around to face...Syaoran. I was stunned since it had been days since he had talked to me.
Many things were swarming in my head as I gazed into his amber eyes. 'What should I say?' In the end I decided to say 'Yeah, do you wanna come watch me?'
As I smiled and was about to say it, my eyes caught hold of Tomoyo. Her face said it all 'Remember the plan!'
My smile turned to a frown and I said in a cold voice, "Yeah, you got a problem with it?"
Syaoran looked taken back. He just shrugged and walked to Sophie as I stared after him in despair.
"It's ok," Tomoyo said trying to comfort me, seeing my face fall as I bit my lip.
°Syaoran's POV°
I walked away from them seeking out Sophie.
'God dammit!' I screamed in my head. Sakura's voice was so cold. She never sounded like that.
"Hey Hon, what's wrong," Sophie said sitting herself on a desk.
"Oh nothing," I muttered as Sophie pulled me to stand in between her legs. (A/N Don't think dirty!)
"I can cheer you up," Sophie whispered as she wrapped her arms around me.
I just grunted, still thinking about Sakura.
Suddenly I heard a chair screech and something that sounded like a knock. I looked in the direction the noise was coming from and saw Sakura.
She was standing up with her chair knocked back and she had her hands on her desk. She had her head down with her hair covering her face so I couldn't see what was wrong. She started walking to the door.
"Kinomoto are you alright?" The teacher said noticing Sakura.
Sakura didn't answer she just walked outside and shut the door behind her. I looked at the door wondering what was wrong. I turned to look at Tomoyo and she was looking right at me. Her eyes full of concern and her mouth was a grim line.
°Sakura's POV°
I was watching Sophie and Syaoran and it pained me.
"Settle down Sakura," I hardly heard Tomoyo say.
My anger and sadness was welling up in me and I couldn't hear the class anymore. My tears started to blind me.
"Sakura stop looking," I barely heard Tomoyo's voice.
I stood up knocking the chair back and I slammed my hands on the desk. I just walked out.
I went into the corridor and quietly shut the door behind me. I wiped my eyes with my hands as I took deep breaths.
'Control yourself!' I said in my head.
I hit the wall with my fist as tears streamed down my face. I slid down the wall to sit on the ground with my back leaning on the wall.
I desperately tried to clear my face because I knew the bell was about to ring for the first class.
"Hey you ok?" A voice said to the side of me.
I looked beside me and saw...LACHLAN! (A/N You all thought is was Syaoran ey? I'm sorry I wanted it to be him too...but they have a grudge against each other remember!)
"Lachlan?" I muttered.
"Yeah! Why are you crying like a baby?" He asked.
I felt a little annoyed how he said 'like a baby'.
"Um...just the pressure...of...dancing," I lied.
"Yeah I know what you mean...not saying that I cry...I'm stronger then most people," Lachlan said in a cocky fashion.
"Uh-huh," I said.
°Syaoran's POV°
I left Sophie and headed to the door. I was about to open the door until I saw Sakura through the window. She was sitting against the wall but I couldn't see her face. And a guy was talking to her. I think his name was Lachton. He was talking to Sakura freely. I just stared and that stare turned into a glare. I don't know why I was glaring. It had nothing to do with Lachton and Sakura being so close. No I wasn't jealous! Coarse not!
'I'm just...um...angry that...he isn't treating her right! Yeah that's it! God even I know when a girl is crying you comfort her by wrapping an arm around her and hug her tight,' I thought.
'Well she obviously doesn't need me!' I thought as I glared at her.
I took my hand off the handle and headed back to my desk when the bell suddenly rang so I turned back around to leave. I quickly walked out of the door making sure Sakura didn't see me.
°Sakura's POV°
"Well...I better go!" I said as I stood up and walked off.
"I'll see you at Dance next class," Lachlan called out.
I just looked back at him weirdly.
'Well he did try to comfort me,' I thought as I walked to my maths class. 'Great! Syaoran!'
°Syaoran's POV°
When the teacher was talking about our new subject Geometry, I looked around the room. I noticed that Sakura was here. She was sitting across the room from me. I noticed her face was very pale and her cheeks and nose were red. Her eyes were very damp and also red.
'She's been crying,' I thought. I started to grow worry. 'Look at me Sakura!'
°Sakura's POV°
I was trying to listen to the teacher but my eyes kept on wondering to the other side of the room.
'The plan Sakura, the plan!' I screamed in my head.
°Syaoran's POV°
Sakura was looking everywhere but at me. It felt so weird and it left a gap in my heart.
'I just don't get it. Every class we had together, we would sit next to each other. Or at least near each other, not all the way across the room.' I thought sadly. 'I could have sworn last week that Sakura was going to be my best friend for my whole life. Things change so much...well at least this horrifying week will soon be over. It's the weekend tomorrow.'
At the end of the class I chanced one more look at her and she was looking right at me. It felt too awkward but I maintained my gaze and so did she. That is until the bell rang. We both looked away.
I stood up and was walking out the door and once I was out a hand grabbed mine. I looked into emerald eyes.
"Syaoran," Sakura whispered.
"Sakura," I answered back.
"Um...well you know...um...how I'm dancing," Sakura said very uneasily.
It was weird because we never felt this awkward talking to each other before.
"Yeah," I just gave a short answer.
"Well...I mean you don't have to, but I was just wondering, it would nice if, but it's your decision..." Sakura muttered quickly.
"Kinomoto," I said sternly, "what?"
°Sakura's POV°
I grabbed the chance that Eriol or Tomoyo weren't around to actually talk to Syaoran.
It hurt when Syaoran said 'Kinomoto' and it also shocked me so I just spat it out.
"Do you want to come watch me?" I said quickly.
He stared at me blankly as I tried to look anywhere but at him.
°Syaoran's POV°
I couldn't believe it! We have been ignoring each other for the week and hating each other. Then Sakura just comes up and say, 'Hey wanna come watch me?'
'She was the one that hurt Sophie,' a voice in the back of my head said.
'She's my friend,' Another voice said.
'Oh a great friend she is!' The first voice said sarcastically.
"Look Kinotomo, I don't really have time to watch you jump around on a stage," I said in a stern voice, "And plus I have a date with Sophie."
I looked at her face and I saw something that I had never seen before. Her eyes were now a dark green with tears threatening to fall and her lips were trembling into a smile.
"Well...yes....of...coarse...you...have...a...date with Sophie," she muttered. "Sorry."
I was about to ask if she was alright until she turned around and walked away quickly.
°Sakura's POV°
I survived the rest of the day. I don't know how though. What he said really hurt me.
'I don't believe you were friends with him!' A voice in my head snapped.
"Hey, you okay Sakura?" A voice said from behind me.
I turned around to face Eriol.
"Yeah I'm fine, just about to walk home," I said happily.
"There's a difference to being happy and wanting to be happy and I can tell the difference," He said looking straight at me.
"Pardon?" I asked not getting it.
"Oh, just wanted to pass a message to you from Tomoyo. She said she'll pick you up at six thirty tomorrow to take you to Tomeada Capital Theatre," Eriol said smiling.
"What?! Why so early?" I said shocked. "It'd doesn't start till eight!"
"Yeah, but you have to get ready and you know Tomoyo," He said winking.
"True," I said, understanding Eriol.
"Well I'll see you there! I'll be in the front row!" Eriol waved and went into his car.
I waved and then started to head home.
It was an hour until the show started and I was starting to get butterflies.
"Stop moving Sakura," Tomoyo said applying some eye shadow.
I smiled thinking of what Tomoyo did. As soon as we arrived, the makeup artists started work on me. Tomoyo protested that she wanted to do my makeup. After much quarreling, the makeup artists gave in and let Tomoyo do it. But Tomoyo didn't stop there. She brought clothes for me to wear and the costume designers were furious. But as always, Tomoyo got her way.
"Done," Tomoyo said. "Now hurry up and go get changed."
"Yes mam!" I smiled as I went to the dressing rooms.
As I was putting on my clothes I was thinking about...yep you know it...Syaoran. I wanted him to be here so bad.
'Maybe he'll be out there in the crowd when you go out on stage," A voice said at the back of my head.
"Maybe..." I mumbled.
"Sakura, did the pants eat you?! If not, then hurry up and get out of there!" I heard Tomoyo's voice.
I opened the door and stepped out.
"Oh my god! You look so KAWAII!" Tomoyo squealed.
I looked down at myself. I was wearing a light blue denim three quarters, a sleeveless top with rips and cuts through it and I was wearing old run down sneakers.
"I look like a punk!" I whined.
"That's the idea!" Tomoyo winked.
She sat me down in front of the mirror as she did my hair into a messy bun. While she was doing that...my thought drifted back to him.
°Syaoran's POV°
I was sitting on the couch watching T.V. I was going to pick Sophie up in about half an hour. I flicked through the channels and it landed on the movie 'Save the last dance'. (A/N For those of you who don't know it, it's a movie about this dancer who does ballet but also hip-hop! Best movie! I mean it's got Julia Stiles (my fav actress) in it!) I frowned. It was the bit where she was dancing and it brought back memories.
°Flashback°
I remembered Sakura did ballet when she was five.
She was doing little ballet twirls in my lounge room.
"Look at me Syaoran!" She squealed as she pranced around the room.
"I rather watch a cow sleep!" I muttered.
Sakura stopped and landed on the ground.
"You're so mean to me!" She yelled tears starting to fall down her cheeks.
"Oh Sakura I was just kidding!" I said getting up to hug her. "I'll watch you."
She wiped the tears off her face and smiled. She stood up and started twirling around the room gracefully.
"You're really good you know," I said watching her.
She started doing cartwheels with little ballet twists.
"You know what?" She said as she kept prancing around the room.
"What?" I said watching her every move.
"I'm going to perform one day on stage!" Sakura said grinning as she did a back flip. "I'll perform at Tomeada Capital Theatre! Bazillions of people will watch me!"
"I'll be at the front row watching you!" I said grinning.
"Really?" Sakura said stopping her dancing.
I grabbed some flowers that mum had in a vase.
"For you Miss. Kinomoto," I said bowing. "Greatest dancer ever!"
"Thank you," Sakura curtsied and accepted the flowers.
We then fell down on the couch in fits of hysterical laughing.
°End of Flashback°
I shook my head as I switched the television off. I stared at the phone. I picked it up and dialed Sophie's number.
"What?" I heard Sophie's voice.
"It's me Soph," I said.
"Oh hey sweetie," she said.
"Look, I have to cancel our date," I said sternly.
"Whatever for?" Sophie snapped.
"Something came up," I said, "Sorry."
I hung on her as I quickly grabbed my coat.
'If I'm lucky, I can still make it,' I thought.
°Sakura's POV°
It was five minutes until I was on. I was so nervous.
"Now remember to sometimes look to the side of the stage, because I'll be taping you!" Tomoyo squealed.
"I'm scared, I don't want to do it anymore," I said turning around heading for the stairs.
"As if you'll turn away!" Tomoyo said grabbing my arm. "This is your dream Sakura!"
"Right!" I said strongly stretching my legs and arms.
"Great! I'll see you after it," Tomoyo said grinning as she squeezed my hand for encouragement. "Break a leg out there!"
I laughed as I did some warm ups.
"Miss. Kinomoto, you're needed on stage," A man said.
"Okay!" I said deeply breathing as I waited in the wings for the curtains to shut.
When the curtains were shut and the dancers were off stage. I hoped on the stage and stood in my starting position.
"Now for a young teenage girl who will be performing a hip-hop dance, Miss.Kinomoto!" I heard the speakers call out. I heard a round of applause and a high pitched whistle.
'Eriol!' I grinned.
The audience went silent as the curtains opened. The music started and I started to dance. I plastered a huge smile on my face as I danced. All through my dance I glanced all around the theatre looking for his face. But I couldn't find it. My grin slowly turned into a smile and then my smile slowly turned into a frown.
"Pst...Sakura!" I heard Tomoyo's voice call out from the wings. I glanced over there and she had her video tape in her hands and was grinning. "Smile for me!"
I grinned as I saw Tomoyo. I faced the front again.
'Stuff Syaoran,' a voice said in my head, 'This is my dream!'
I grinned as I did my last few moves. I imagined I was in Syaoran's lounge room dancing again, with him watching me. And somehow, it did feel like he was watching me. I ended my dance with a double flip, twist and then a worm into a split. I heard a round of applause as the curtains closed. I stood up and dusted my jeans. I stood straight as the curtains opened again, I bowed ballet style even though my dance was a hip-hop. A few flowers were thrown on the stage and after the curtains were shut, I went to go pick them up.
"Oh my god Sakura, you were the best!" Tomoyo squealed as I reached the backstage.
"Thanks," I said sitting down on a chair.
"Performance well done!" I heard Eriol's voice.
"Thank you," I said resting my arms on the makeup table restlessly.
"What's wrong?" Tomoyo said looking at me through the mirror.
"Oh nothing," I mumbled.
"Well I'll go get your stuff," Tomoyo said heading to the dressing rooms.
"Eriol, I need to ask you a question," I said letting go of my hair.
"I know you do. If the question is did I see him? I'm sorry but the answers no," Eriol said sadly as he went after Tomoyo.
I was shocked at first that he knew what I was thinking but then I felt the sadness sweep over me. I banged my fists on the table, tears starting to roll down my cheeks.
"You liar," I mumbled.
I raised my hands up to my face as I covered my eyes.
'I'll be at the front row watching'
Tears streamed down my face.
°Syaoran's POV°
I smiled softly.
'Your dream came true,' I thought as I headed to the exit.
I was standing at the real back in the corner of the theatre watching Sakura dance. She had gotten a lot better then the last time I saw her dance. Even if it was hip-hop, her moves still seemed graceful. As I reached the door, the doorman looked at me weirdly.
"Sir, there's still one more item on the list," he said.
"That's okay," I replied softly, "I only wanted to see her dance."
The doorman looked at me in a confused way but still opened the door for me. As I walked out, I saw a man standing at the door saying 'Backstage'.
"Excuse me," I said to him, "Could you please give these to Miss. Kinomoto?"
"Of coarse," the man said taking the dozen of red roses and passing it to a lady inside the door.
"Thank you," I said as I walked out of the theatre.
°Sakura's POV°
I went to the bathroom to wash my face. When I was certain that my face showed no sign of me crying, I walked outside.
"We've been looking for you Sakura!" Tomoyo said looking worried. "Let's go."
"Okay," I said smiling.
"Oh and Sakura," Eriol said from behind Tomoyo, "Someone gave you this."
Eriol pulled a bunch of red roses from behind his back.
"Oh my god," I said in surprise.
I took it from Eriol as I read the card.
Miss. Kinomoto
Greatest dancer ever.
I'm sorry I couldn't make it to the front.
I gasped.
I ran outside the door almost knocking into the security man. I looked around but didn't see him anywhere.
"What is it Sakura?" Tomoyo said running up to me.
"Who sent me these?" I gasped.
"Someone in the audience, they didn't write their name though," Eriol answered, "Why?"
When Eriol said someone in the audience, my heart sank.
"Oh I just...um...wanted to thank them," I muttered.
'Are you that stupid! Syaoran said he wouldn't come! Now why would he go and buy you flowers?' A voice in my head snapped.
'But the note! It's what he said when I was five!' Another voice said.
'Well anyone of your fans could have wrote 'greatest dancer ever' and also anyone of your fans would want to have sat in the front row!' The first voice hissed.
'You're right,' The second voice said.
'Aren't I always,' the first voice said, 'You really need to get over the loser!'
"Well whoever sent these flowers, is awfully nice," I said as I put on my coat and walked to the entrance.
'I really need to get over him,' I thought.
°Normal POV°
"Oh my god the social is tomorrow night," Vanessa whispered to Rachael.
That was what was going around the whole school.
Sakura walked out of the classroom as the bell went.
"Hey Sakura!" Tomoyo said as she walked next to her.
"Oh hey Tomoyo," Sakura answered.
"So you heard what's been going around the school?" Tomoyo asked.
"Um....no..." Sakura said clueless.
"The first social for this year!" Tomoyo said.
"OH!" Sakura said smacking her fore head. "I forgot!"
Tomoyo laughed.
°Syaoran's POV°
I glanced beside me as I saw Sakura and Tomoyo coming around the corner.
"Now remember to pick me up at six, Syaoran honey," I heard Sophie say.
"Ok," I said as I went to give her hug.
°Sakura's POV°
Tomoyo was babbling on about how she was going to come to my house and get me ready. I looked around the corridor and spotted two people hugging.
'Syaoran!'
I froze on the spot.
"Come on Sakura," I heard Tomoyo say.
I shook my head and continued to walk looking anywhere but at them.
°Syaoran's POV°
I always seemed to do that. Everytime I saw Sakura, I would always talk to Sophie or hug her or tell her I love her. I didn't get why I did it.
'Oh get over it Syaoran!' A voice said in my head.
I let go of Sophie as I gathered my books. I looked if Sakura saw us and I saw her at the end of the corridor. I frowned.
°Sakura's POV°
It was an hour until the social. Tomoyo was at my place doing my hair, make up and everything!
"So now, who's your date?" Tomoyo asked.
"Um...date?" I said looking confused.
"Oh my god Sakura! You're going with no one?!" Tomoyo gasped.
"Yeah...must of slipped my mind," I muttered embarrassed.
"You're hopeless Sakura," Tomoyo giggled.
As Tomoyo continued to do my hair, my thoughts drifted back to today.
°Flashback°
I watched Syaoran and Sophie sitting in front of me as they both handed notes to each other. When Sophie opened the letter she giggled. She wrote something down and then passed it back to Syaoran. When Syaoran opened the letter he smiled.
I just sat there in my chair looking at them write to each other. It was making me sad for some odd reason. I felt like I wanted to sit in between Syaoran and Sophie.
I shook my head as I tried to look on the board at what the teacher was doing...but eventually my eyes went back to the note passing.
°End of Flashback°
I sighed.
"Almost done Sakura," Tomoyo muttered with a brush in her mouth. "Ok now chuck on your clothes."
As I put them on, I drifted back to what happened today again.
°Flashback°
I was staring at Syaoran in Art.
'Come on Syaoran, look at me!'
But I noticed he was looking at someone else. I followed his gaze and it landed on Sophie who was laughing with her friends. I looked back at Syaoran and he was smiling at Sophie.
I stared at him as I felt tears slowly forming in my eyes. I ripped out a piece of paper from my work book. I wrote on it as tears welled in my eyes. When I finished, I folded it up and stuffed into my jacket pocket.
°End of Flashback°
"Oh my god Sakura!" Tomoyo yelled. "You look so KAWAII!"
I smiled and I looked into the mirror.
I was wearing tight flared jeans and a sparkling pink halter top.
"Well I'll be ready in ten minutes!" Tomoyo said running out of my bedroom into the bathroom. "You look so pretty!"
I frowned.
'But not as pretty as Sophie'
I sighed as I went to my school jacket and opened the pocket. I took out the folded piece of paper and slowly read it.
"READY!" Tomoyo said walking in. "What's that?"
"Oh nothing," I said quickly stuffing the piece of paper into my jeans pocket.
"Oh ok," Tomoyo said grabbing her hand bag. "Well let's go."
°Syaoran's POV°
"Sophie you ready yet?!" I called out.
I was picking Sophie up for the social. But she was taking her sweet time!
"Almost Syaoran honey!" She yelled from upstairs.
"Ya thick ya know," I heard a voice from the lounge room.
I turned my head and saw Sophie's sister in the doorway.
"What do you mean?" I said cautiously.
"Oh you'll see," She smirked.
"Ok ready!" Sophie said running down the stairs.
"Ok let's go," I said uneasily after what Sophie's sister said.
°Sakura's POV°
Tomoyo and I entered the school stadium, where the social was being held.
"Looking beautiful as always," A voice said from in front of us.
"Thank you Eriol," Tomoyo said blushing.
"The same goes for you Sakura," Eriol smiled as he took Tomoyo's hand.
I smiled.
We went to go get a table as the music started. I sat down in a seat as Tomoyo and Eriol went to the dance floor. I softly sighed as I gazed at them dancing. It was a slow and rhythmic music. I was softly smiling until I heard a loud giggling noise behind me.
"Your so funny!" I heard someone say. "Come dance!"
I looked behind me and I stared in shock.
'Syaoran!'
I watched as Sophie and Syaoran went onto the dance floor.
'They actually look like a couple...' I thought as my gaze layed on Syaoran.
"Would you like to dance?" I heard someone say from behind me.
I turned around to face Lachlan.
"Oh hey Lachlan," I said smiling. "I don't really feel like dancing..."
"Oh come on!" He said grinning.
I glanced at Syaoran and he was looking straight at me.
"Why Lachlan I would love to!" I said loudly as I took his hand and we walked onto the dance floor.
I started dancing until I noticed how close we were to Syaoran and Sophie.
°Syaoran's POV°
I saw Sakura with Lachlan...I don't know but I felt angry.
"Mmm...you're such a good dancer Syaoran," Sophie whispered to me.
"Um...you too," I muttered still looking at Sakura.
"Kiss me..." I heard her mutter.
"Yeah...WHAT?!" I said shocked when I realised what she said.
Sophie smiled. I glanced at Sakura and she was looking at us.
"Ah...Ok," I said unsure.
Sophie lent forward and so did I.
I felt her lips touch mine...but for some odd reason my eyes opened. I just stared at the lights...
When her lips left mine, I felt...I felt like wiping my lips with my sleeve. Am I a bad person for thinking that?
I turned to look at Sakura. She had stopped dancing. She was looking at me...tears in her eyes.
What was wrong? What did Lachlan do?!
Suddenly it was as if Sakura shook out of her trance. She shook her head and ran. I watched as she ran out the entrance.
"Sak..." I was about to chase after her.
"Syaoran come get a drink with me," Sophie said smiling.
"But," I said...
'She's your girlfriend!'
"Um...ok," I said.
I looked out the entrance...
°Sakura's POV°
I turned as I heard Syaoran yell 'WHAT!'
Just in time to see him...kiss...Sophie...
My blood ran cold. I don't know but...WHY?! What was happening to me! I was...was...shaking. Sophie kiss Syaoran...Syaoran kiss Sophie. Lips...touch....what's this water in my eyes...god not tears...what's happening?!
"Sakura?" I heard Lachlan say.
Sakura...why is my name Sakura? Why can't I be Sophie? I want to be Sophie! I WANT TO BE SOPHIE! What about me Syaoran...what about me?!
I knocked out of my trance as I looked at Syaoran he was looking at me.
....run....
I ran out of the stadium...away from everything...away from the music...the noise...the people...the kiss...the couple...Syaoran.
I ran to the back of the stadium and slumped on the ground.
God...what was happening to me...I'm shaking...I'm trembling...my eyes are stinging.
'Don't cry Sakura...Don't cry....'
I felt my cheeks....they were dry...I won't drown...
'Your pocket'
I frantically reached into my pockets and grabbed the piece of paper...
I read it.
As I watch you look at her,
Smile, cuddle and kiss her,
My heart just slowly breaks,
But I know that's everything I have to take,
I feel tears form behind my eyes,
Everything I have ever tried,
But I will not cry...
I felt tears about to pour out...as I read the last line...
'Don't cry...'
I broke down crying...
Ok there! Finish! OMG THAT TOOK ALMOST THREE MONTHS!
I am so sorry...flame me! I deserve it! I'm so sorry!
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from a very sad, depressed, and guilty
Misty Amethyst
Well this chapter was updated faster then the last! But I guess it was still really slow! I'm sorry! I've just felt so uninspired. When I write the story I go completely blank! I know...not a good sign...but I'm trying my best. My deepest apologies.
Guess what?! I REACHED MY GOAL! :And the crowd goes wild: That's right! I've reached over 100 reviews! : Misty starts to cry: Thank you to every single review that made it possible! I love you guys! :Sniffle: New goal now! 200! See if you can help me () Anyway moving on...
Ok this chapter is named after the title as you probably already figured out. It's meant to be sad...but I'm not sure if you'll find it sad...so review and tell me how I went! This chapters mainly about heartbreaks, so yes that means a lot of Syaoran and Sophie moments and a lot of signs that Sakura is moving on, I'm really sorry...but how else is my fic suppose to live up to the title 'tears of heartbreak'? I no it sucks, but near the end of the story it will be full out Sakura and Syaoran moments! I promise! And since this is like one of the final heartbreak chapters it can only go down hill now right?
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Now...on with the story....sorry everyone....
Tears of Heartbreak
Chapter 10: Tears of Heartbreak
°Sakura's POV°
The next day at school, Tomoyo and Eriol told me what to do. It seemed easy enough. Ignore Syaoran unless he talks to you and if he does then make short conversation, don't look at him and pretend he doesn't exist. That sounds easy enough!
I walked into the classroom just as the bell rang.
'Just on time!' I sighed.
As the teacher silenced the class he started reading the day notices, "Well the third floor end corridor is sealed off as they fix the windows that were smashed just yesterday. The start of year social is next week Tuesday and...Oh! Here's something that concerns someone in our class." The teacher paused for a moment and scanned the class.
His eyes fell on me.
'Oh great!'
"Class, Miss. Kinomoto here, will be performing at the Tomeada Capital Theatre tomorrow night. She'll be um...is this right? It says Hip-Hop dancing?" The teacher said looking at me in a confused way.
I sank down in my sit as I felt the whole class looking at me.
"Ah...yes...that's right," I mumbled as my cheeks started to grow hot.
"Well Sakura, I would never have imagined you Hip-Hop dancing," the teacher said smiling, "But then again you do cheerleading so nothing surprises me these days." The teacher mumbled the rest of the sentence and walked to his suit case leaving the class to talk.
"Well Sakura!" Tomoyo said beaming as she came over to my desk. "The news is out!"
"Oh spare me please!" I said covering my face with my hands.
"Hip-Hop?" A voice said behind me.
I froze as I heard his voice. I slowly pulled my hands from my face and turned around to face...Syaoran. I was stunned since it had been days since he had talked to me.
Many things were swarming in my head as I gazed into his amber eyes. 'What should I say?' In the end I decided to say 'Yeah, do you wanna come watch me?'
As I smiled and was about to say it, my eyes caught hold of Tomoyo. Her face said it all 'Remember the plan!'
My smile turned to a frown and I said in a cold voice, "Yeah, you got a problem with it?"
Syaoran looked taken back. He just shrugged and walked to Sophie as I stared after him in despair.
"It's ok," Tomoyo said trying to comfort me, seeing my face fall as I bit my lip.
°Syaoran's POV°
I walked away from them seeking out Sophie.
'God dammit!' I screamed in my head. Sakura's voice was so cold. She never sounded like that.
"Hey Hon, what's wrong," Sophie said sitting herself on a desk.
"Oh nothing," I muttered as Sophie pulled me to stand in between her legs. (A/N Don't think dirty!)
"I can cheer you up," Sophie whispered as she wrapped her arms around me.
I just grunted, still thinking about Sakura.
Suddenly I heard a chair screech and something that sounded like a knock. I looked in the direction the noise was coming from and saw Sakura.
She was standing up with her chair knocked back and she had her hands on her desk. She had her head down with her hair covering her face so I couldn't see what was wrong. She started walking to the door.
"Kinomoto are you alright?" The teacher said noticing Sakura.
Sakura didn't answer she just walked outside and shut the door behind her. I looked at the door wondering what was wrong. I turned to look at Tomoyo and she was looking right at me. Her eyes full of concern and her mouth was a grim line.
°Sakura's POV°
I was watching Sophie and Syaoran and it pained me.
"Settle down Sakura," I hardly heard Tomoyo say.
My anger and sadness was welling up in me and I couldn't hear the class anymore. My tears started to blind me.
"Sakura stop looking," I barely heard Tomoyo's voice.
I stood up knocking the chair back and I slammed my hands on the desk. I just walked out.
I went into the corridor and quietly shut the door behind me. I wiped my eyes with my hands as I took deep breaths.
'Control yourself!' I said in my head.
I hit the wall with my fist as tears streamed down my face. I slid down the wall to sit on the ground with my back leaning on the wall.
I desperately tried to clear my face because I knew the bell was about to ring for the first class.
"Hey you ok?" A voice said to the side of me.
I looked beside me and saw...LACHLAN! (A/N You all thought is was Syaoran ey? I'm sorry I wanted it to be him too...but they have a grudge against each other remember!)
"Lachlan?" I muttered.
"Yeah! Why are you crying like a baby?" He asked.
I felt a little annoyed how he said 'like a baby'.
"Um...just the pressure...of...dancing," I lied.
"Yeah I know what you mean...not saying that I cry...I'm stronger then most people," Lachlan said in a cocky fashion.
"Uh-huh," I said.
°Syaoran's POV°
I left Sophie and headed to the door. I was about to open the door until I saw Sakura through the window. She was sitting against the wall but I couldn't see her face. And a guy was talking to her. I think his name was Lachton. He was talking to Sakura freely. I just stared and that stare turned into a glare. I don't know why I was glaring. It had nothing to do with Lachton and Sakura being so close. No I wasn't jealous! Coarse not!
'I'm just...um...angry that...he isn't treating her right! Yeah that's it! God even I know when a girl is crying you comfort her by wrapping an arm around her and hug her tight,' I thought.
'Well she obviously doesn't need me!' I thought as I glared at her.
I took my hand off the handle and headed back to my desk when the bell suddenly rang so I turned back around to leave. I quickly walked out of the door making sure Sakura didn't see me.
°Sakura's POV°
"Well...I better go!" I said as I stood up and walked off.
"I'll see you at Dance next class," Lachlan called out.
I just looked back at him weirdly.
'Well he did try to comfort me,' I thought as I walked to my maths class. 'Great! Syaoran!'
°Syaoran's POV°
When the teacher was talking about our new subject Geometry, I looked around the room. I noticed that Sakura was here. She was sitting across the room from me. I noticed her face was very pale and her cheeks and nose were red. Her eyes were very damp and also red.
'She's been crying,' I thought. I started to grow worry. 'Look at me Sakura!'
°Sakura's POV°
I was trying to listen to the teacher but my eyes kept on wondering to the other side of the room.
'The plan Sakura, the plan!' I screamed in my head.
°Syaoran's POV°
Sakura was looking everywhere but at me. It felt so weird and it left a gap in my heart.
'I just don't get it. Every class we had together, we would sit next to each other. Or at least near each other, not all the way across the room.' I thought sadly. 'I could have sworn last week that Sakura was going to be my best friend for my whole life. Things change so much...well at least this horrifying week will soon be over. It's the weekend tomorrow.'
At the end of the class I chanced one more look at her and she was looking right at me. It felt too awkward but I maintained my gaze and so did she. That is until the bell rang. We both looked away.
I stood up and was walking out the door and once I was out a hand grabbed mine. I looked into emerald eyes.
"Syaoran," Sakura whispered.
"Sakura," I answered back.
"Um...well you know...um...how I'm dancing," Sakura said very uneasily.
It was weird because we never felt this awkward talking to each other before.
"Yeah," I just gave a short answer.
"Well...I mean you don't have to, but I was just wondering, it would nice if, but it's your decision..." Sakura muttered quickly.
"Kinomoto," I said sternly, "what?"
°Sakura's POV°
I grabbed the chance that Eriol or Tomoyo weren't around to actually talk to Syaoran.
It hurt when Syaoran said 'Kinomoto' and it also shocked me so I just spat it out.
"Do you want to come watch me?" I said quickly.
He stared at me blankly as I tried to look anywhere but at him.
°Syaoran's POV°
I couldn't believe it! We have been ignoring each other for the week and hating each other. Then Sakura just comes up and say, 'Hey wanna come watch me?'
'She was the one that hurt Sophie,' a voice in the back of my head said.
'She's my friend,' Another voice said.
'Oh a great friend she is!' The first voice said sarcastically.
"Look Kinotomo, I don't really have time to watch you jump around on a stage," I said in a stern voice, "And plus I have a date with Sophie."
I looked at her face and I saw something that I had never seen before. Her eyes were now a dark green with tears threatening to fall and her lips were trembling into a smile.
"Well...yes....of...coarse...you...have...a...date with Sophie," she muttered. "Sorry."
I was about to ask if she was alright until she turned around and walked away quickly.
°Sakura's POV°
I survived the rest of the day. I don't know how though. What he said really hurt me.
'I don't believe you were friends with him!' A voice in my head snapped.
"Hey, you okay Sakura?" A voice said from behind me.
I turned around to face Eriol.
"Yeah I'm fine, just about to walk home," I said happily.
"There's a difference to being happy and wanting to be happy and I can tell the difference," He said looking straight at me.
"Pardon?" I asked not getting it.
"Oh, just wanted to pass a message to you from Tomoyo. She said she'll pick you up at six thirty tomorrow to take you to Tomeada Capital Theatre," Eriol said smiling.
"What?! Why so early?" I said shocked. "It'd doesn't start till eight!"
"Yeah, but you have to get ready and you know Tomoyo," He said winking.
"True," I said, understanding Eriol.
"Well I'll see you there! I'll be in the front row!" Eriol waved and went into his car.
I waved and then started to head home.
It was an hour until the show started and I was starting to get butterflies.
"Stop moving Sakura," Tomoyo said applying some eye shadow.
I smiled thinking of what Tomoyo did. As soon as we arrived, the makeup artists started work on me. Tomoyo protested that she wanted to do my makeup. After much quarreling, the makeup artists gave in and let Tomoyo do it. But Tomoyo didn't stop there. She brought clothes for me to wear and the costume designers were furious. But as always, Tomoyo got her way.
"Done," Tomoyo said. "Now hurry up and go get changed."
"Yes mam!" I smiled as I went to the dressing rooms.
As I was putting on my clothes I was thinking about...yep you know it...Syaoran. I wanted him to be here so bad.
'Maybe he'll be out there in the crowd when you go out on stage," A voice said at the back of my head.
"Maybe..." I mumbled.
"Sakura, did the pants eat you?! If not, then hurry up and get out of there!" I heard Tomoyo's voice.
I opened the door and stepped out.
"Oh my god! You look so KAWAII!" Tomoyo squealed.
I looked down at myself. I was wearing a light blue denim three quarters, a sleeveless top with rips and cuts through it and I was wearing old run down sneakers.
"I look like a punk!" I whined.
"That's the idea!" Tomoyo winked.
She sat me down in front of the mirror as she did my hair into a messy bun. While she was doing that...my thought drifted back to him.
°Syaoran's POV°
I was sitting on the couch watching T.V. I was going to pick Sophie up in about half an hour. I flicked through the channels and it landed on the movie 'Save the last dance'. (A/N For those of you who don't know it, it's a movie about this dancer who does ballet but also hip-hop! Best movie! I mean it's got Julia Stiles (my fav actress) in it!) I frowned. It was the bit where she was dancing and it brought back memories.
°Flashback°
I remembered Sakura did ballet when she was five.
She was doing little ballet twirls in my lounge room.
"Look at me Syaoran!" She squealed as she pranced around the room.
"I rather watch a cow sleep!" I muttered.
Sakura stopped and landed on the ground.
"You're so mean to me!" She yelled tears starting to fall down her cheeks.
"Oh Sakura I was just kidding!" I said getting up to hug her. "I'll watch you."
She wiped the tears off her face and smiled. She stood up and started twirling around the room gracefully.
"You're really good you know," I said watching her.
She started doing cartwheels with little ballet twists.
"You know what?" She said as she kept prancing around the room.
"What?" I said watching her every move.
"I'm going to perform one day on stage!" Sakura said grinning as she did a back flip. "I'll perform at Tomeada Capital Theatre! Bazillions of people will watch me!"
"I'll be at the front row watching you!" I said grinning.
"Really?" Sakura said stopping her dancing.
I grabbed some flowers that mum had in a vase.
"For you Miss. Kinomoto," I said bowing. "Greatest dancer ever!"
"Thank you," Sakura curtsied and accepted the flowers.
We then fell down on the couch in fits of hysterical laughing.
°End of Flashback°
I shook my head as I switched the television off. I stared at the phone. I picked it up and dialed Sophie's number.
"What?" I heard Sophie's voice.
"It's me Soph," I said.
"Oh hey sweetie," she said.
"Look, I have to cancel our date," I said sternly.
"Whatever for?" Sophie snapped.
"Something came up," I said, "Sorry."
I hung on her as I quickly grabbed my coat.
'If I'm lucky, I can still make it,' I thought.
°Sakura's POV°
It was five minutes until I was on. I was so nervous.
"Now remember to sometimes look to the side of the stage, because I'll be taping you!" Tomoyo squealed.
"I'm scared, I don't want to do it anymore," I said turning around heading for the stairs.
"As if you'll turn away!" Tomoyo said grabbing my arm. "This is your dream Sakura!"
"Right!" I said strongly stretching my legs and arms.
"Great! I'll see you after it," Tomoyo said grinning as she squeezed my hand for encouragement. "Break a leg out there!"
I laughed as I did some warm ups.
"Miss. Kinomoto, you're needed on stage," A man said.
"Okay!" I said deeply breathing as I waited in the wings for the curtains to shut.
When the curtains were shut and the dancers were off stage. I hoped on the stage and stood in my starting position.
"Now for a young teenage girl who will be performing a hip-hop dance, Miss.Kinomoto!" I heard the speakers call out. I heard a round of applause and a high pitched whistle.
'Eriol!' I grinned.
The audience went silent as the curtains opened. The music started and I started to dance. I plastered a huge smile on my face as I danced. All through my dance I glanced all around the theatre looking for his face. But I couldn't find it. My grin slowly turned into a smile and then my smile slowly turned into a frown.
"Pst...Sakura!" I heard Tomoyo's voice call out from the wings. I glanced over there and she had her video tape in her hands and was grinning. "Smile for me!"
I grinned as I saw Tomoyo. I faced the front again.
'Stuff Syaoran,' a voice said in my head, 'This is my dream!'
I grinned as I did my last few moves. I imagined I was in Syaoran's lounge room dancing again, with him watching me. And somehow, it did feel like he was watching me. I ended my dance with a double flip, twist and then a worm into a split. I heard a round of applause as the curtains closed. I stood up and dusted my jeans. I stood straight as the curtains opened again, I bowed ballet style even though my dance was a hip-hop. A few flowers were thrown on the stage and after the curtains were shut, I went to go pick them up.
"Oh my god Sakura, you were the best!" Tomoyo squealed as I reached the backstage.
"Thanks," I said sitting down on a chair.
"Performance well done!" I heard Eriol's voice.
"Thank you," I said resting my arms on the makeup table restlessly.
"What's wrong?" Tomoyo said looking at me through the mirror.
"Oh nothing," I mumbled.
"Well I'll go get your stuff," Tomoyo said heading to the dressing rooms.
"Eriol, I need to ask you a question," I said letting go of my hair.
"I know you do. If the question is did I see him? I'm sorry but the answers no," Eriol said sadly as he went after Tomoyo.
I was shocked at first that he knew what I was thinking but then I felt the sadness sweep over me. I banged my fists on the table, tears starting to roll down my cheeks.
"You liar," I mumbled.
I raised my hands up to my face as I covered my eyes.
'I'll be at the front row watching'
Tears streamed down my face.
°Syaoran's POV°
I smiled softly.
'Your dream came true,' I thought as I headed to the exit.
I was standing at the real back in the corner of the theatre watching Sakura dance. She had gotten a lot better then the last time I saw her dance. Even if it was hip-hop, her moves still seemed graceful. As I reached the door, the doorman looked at me weirdly.
"Sir, there's still one more item on the list," he said.
"That's okay," I replied softly, "I only wanted to see her dance."
The doorman looked at me in a confused way but still opened the door for me. As I walked out, I saw a man standing at the door saying 'Backstage'.
"Excuse me," I said to him, "Could you please give these to Miss. Kinomoto?"
"Of coarse," the man said taking the dozen of red roses and passing it to a lady inside the door.
"Thank you," I said as I walked out of the theatre.
°Sakura's POV°
I went to the bathroom to wash my face. When I was certain that my face showed no sign of me crying, I walked outside.
"We've been looking for you Sakura!" Tomoyo said looking worried. "Let's go."
"Okay," I said smiling.
"Oh and Sakura," Eriol said from behind Tomoyo, "Someone gave you this."
Eriol pulled a bunch of red roses from behind his back.
"Oh my god," I said in surprise.
I took it from Eriol as I read the card.
Miss. Kinomoto
Greatest dancer ever.
I'm sorry I couldn't make it to the front.
I gasped.
I ran outside the door almost knocking into the security man. I looked around but didn't see him anywhere.
"What is it Sakura?" Tomoyo said running up to me.
"Who sent me these?" I gasped.
"Someone in the audience, they didn't write their name though," Eriol answered, "Why?"
When Eriol said someone in the audience, my heart sank.
"Oh I just...um...wanted to thank them," I muttered.
'Are you that stupid! Syaoran said he wouldn't come! Now why would he go and buy you flowers?' A voice in my head snapped.
'But the note! It's what he said when I was five!' Another voice said.
'Well anyone of your fans could have wrote 'greatest dancer ever' and also anyone of your fans would want to have sat in the front row!' The first voice hissed.
'You're right,' The second voice said.
'Aren't I always,' the first voice said, 'You really need to get over the loser!'
"Well whoever sent these flowers, is awfully nice," I said as I put on my coat and walked to the entrance.
'I really need to get over him,' I thought.
°Normal POV°
"Oh my god the social is tomorrow night," Vanessa whispered to Rachael.
That was what was going around the whole school.
Sakura walked out of the classroom as the bell went.
"Hey Sakura!" Tomoyo said as she walked next to her.
"Oh hey Tomoyo," Sakura answered.
"So you heard what's been going around the school?" Tomoyo asked.
"Um....no..." Sakura said clueless.
"The first social for this year!" Tomoyo said.
"OH!" Sakura said smacking her fore head. "I forgot!"
Tomoyo laughed.
°Syaoran's POV°
I glanced beside me as I saw Sakura and Tomoyo coming around the corner.
"Now remember to pick me up at six, Syaoran honey," I heard Sophie say.
"Ok," I said as I went to give her hug.
°Sakura's POV°
Tomoyo was babbling on about how she was going to come to my house and get me ready. I looked around the corridor and spotted two people hugging.
'Syaoran!'
I froze on the spot.
"Come on Sakura," I heard Tomoyo say.
I shook my head and continued to walk looking anywhere but at them.
°Syaoran's POV°
I always seemed to do that. Everytime I saw Sakura, I would always talk to Sophie or hug her or tell her I love her. I didn't get why I did it.
'Oh get over it Syaoran!' A voice said in my head.
I let go of Sophie as I gathered my books. I looked if Sakura saw us and I saw her at the end of the corridor. I frowned.
°Sakura's POV°
It was an hour until the social. Tomoyo was at my place doing my hair, make up and everything!
"So now, who's your date?" Tomoyo asked.
"Um...date?" I said looking confused.
"Oh my god Sakura! You're going with no one?!" Tomoyo gasped.
"Yeah...must of slipped my mind," I muttered embarrassed.
"You're hopeless Sakura," Tomoyo giggled.
As Tomoyo continued to do my hair, my thoughts drifted back to today.
°Flashback°
I watched Syaoran and Sophie sitting in front of me as they both handed notes to each other. When Sophie opened the letter she giggled. She wrote something down and then passed it back to Syaoran. When Syaoran opened the letter he smiled.
I just sat there in my chair looking at them write to each other. It was making me sad for some odd reason. I felt like I wanted to sit in between Syaoran and Sophie.
I shook my head as I tried to look on the board at what the teacher was doing...but eventually my eyes went back to the note passing.
°End of Flashback°
I sighed.
"Almost done Sakura," Tomoyo muttered with a brush in her mouth. "Ok now chuck on your clothes."
As I put them on, I drifted back to what happened today again.
°Flashback°
I was staring at Syaoran in Art.
'Come on Syaoran, look at me!'
But I noticed he was looking at someone else. I followed his gaze and it landed on Sophie who was laughing with her friends. I looked back at Syaoran and he was smiling at Sophie.
I stared at him as I felt tears slowly forming in my eyes. I ripped out a piece of paper from my work book. I wrote on it as tears welled in my eyes. When I finished, I folded it up and stuffed into my jacket pocket.
°End of Flashback°
"Oh my god Sakura!" Tomoyo yelled. "You look so KAWAII!"
I smiled and I looked into the mirror.
I was wearing tight flared jeans and a sparkling pink halter top.
"Well I'll be ready in ten minutes!" Tomoyo said running out of my bedroom into the bathroom. "You look so pretty!"
I frowned.
'But not as pretty as Sophie'
I sighed as I went to my school jacket and opened the pocket. I took out the folded piece of paper and slowly read it.
"READY!" Tomoyo said walking in. "What's that?"
"Oh nothing," I said quickly stuffing the piece of paper into my jeans pocket.
"Oh ok," Tomoyo said grabbing her hand bag. "Well let's go."
°Syaoran's POV°
"Sophie you ready yet?!" I called out.
I was picking Sophie up for the social. But she was taking her sweet time!
"Almost Syaoran honey!" She yelled from upstairs.
"Ya thick ya know," I heard a voice from the lounge room.
I turned my head and saw Sophie's sister in the doorway.
"What do you mean?" I said cautiously.
"Oh you'll see," She smirked.
"Ok ready!" Sophie said running down the stairs.
"Ok let's go," I said uneasily after what Sophie's sister said.
°Sakura's POV°
Tomoyo and I entered the school stadium, where the social was being held.
"Looking beautiful as always," A voice said from in front of us.
"Thank you Eriol," Tomoyo said blushing.
"The same goes for you Sakura," Eriol smiled as he took Tomoyo's hand.
I smiled.
We went to go get a table as the music started. I sat down in a seat as Tomoyo and Eriol went to the dance floor. I softly sighed as I gazed at them dancing. It was a slow and rhythmic music. I was softly smiling until I heard a loud giggling noise behind me.
"Your so funny!" I heard someone say. "Come dance!"
I looked behind me and I stared in shock.
'Syaoran!'
I watched as Sophie and Syaoran went onto the dance floor.
'They actually look like a couple...' I thought as my gaze layed on Syaoran.
"Would you like to dance?" I heard someone say from behind me.
I turned around to face Lachlan.
"Oh hey Lachlan," I said smiling. "I don't really feel like dancing..."
"Oh come on!" He said grinning.
I glanced at Syaoran and he was looking straight at me.
"Why Lachlan I would love to!" I said loudly as I took his hand and we walked onto the dance floor.
I started dancing until I noticed how close we were to Syaoran and Sophie.
°Syaoran's POV°
I saw Sakura with Lachlan...I don't know but I felt angry.
"Mmm...you're such a good dancer Syaoran," Sophie whispered to me.
"Um...you too," I muttered still looking at Sakura.
"Kiss me..." I heard her mutter.
"Yeah...WHAT?!" I said shocked when I realised what she said.
Sophie smiled. I glanced at Sakura and she was looking at us.
"Ah...Ok," I said unsure.
Sophie lent forward and so did I.
I felt her lips touch mine...but for some odd reason my eyes opened. I just stared at the lights...
When her lips left mine, I felt...I felt like wiping my lips with my sleeve. Am I a bad person for thinking that?
I turned to look at Sakura. She had stopped dancing. She was looking at me...tears in her eyes.
What was wrong? What did Lachlan do?!
Suddenly it was as if Sakura shook out of her trance. She shook her head and ran. I watched as she ran out the entrance.
"Sak..." I was about to chase after her.
"Syaoran come get a drink with me," Sophie said smiling.
"But," I said...
'She's your girlfriend!'
"Um...ok," I said.
I looked out the entrance...
°Sakura's POV°
I turned as I heard Syaoran yell 'WHAT!'
Just in time to see him...kiss...Sophie...
My blood ran cold. I don't know but...WHY?! What was happening to me! I was...was...shaking. Sophie kiss Syaoran...Syaoran kiss Sophie. Lips...touch....what's this water in my eyes...god not tears...what's happening?!
"Sakura?" I heard Lachlan say.
Sakura...why is my name Sakura? Why can't I be Sophie? I want to be Sophie! I WANT TO BE SOPHIE! What about me Syaoran...what about me?!
I knocked out of my trance as I looked at Syaoran he was looking at me.
....run....
I ran out of the stadium...away from everything...away from the music...the noise...the people...the kiss...the couple...Syaoran.
I ran to the back of the stadium and slumped on the ground.
God...what was happening to me...I'm shaking...I'm trembling...my eyes are stinging.
'Don't cry Sakura...Don't cry....'
I felt my cheeks....they were dry...I won't drown...
'Your pocket'
I frantically reached into my pockets and grabbed the piece of paper...
I read it.
As I watch you look at her,
Smile, cuddle and kiss her,
My heart just slowly breaks,
But I know that's everything I have to take,
I feel tears form behind my eyes,
Everything I have ever tried,
But I will not cry...
I felt tears about to pour out...as I read the last line...
'Don't cry...'
I broke down crying...
Ok there! Finish! OMG THAT TOOK ALMOST THREE MONTHS!
I am so sorry...flame me! I deserve it! I'm so sorry!
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Luv Alwayz
from a very sad, depressed, and guilty
Misty Amethyst