Hey all! I'm back!
How were all of your holidays? (Well...um...it might not have been holidays where you're from...but if you are from Australia...then how were your holidays?!) lol
I've been fixing up some grammar mistakes in the last few chapters, so sorry for the wait! And also school's started and there's already a lot of homework (I'm making a teenage magazine)...so you can blame that too! So sorry for the lateness!
I'm sorry for all those people that I have made sad, due to the last few chapters! I'm sorry! But not to worry, it's mostly uphill happiness from this point on! =)
Now the lyrics, in about the middle of the story, is Linking Park-Breaking the Habit. DISCLAIMER! I don't own it at all! (Wish I did though!) So don't steal it! =) Not that you would. I love Linkin Park! And the last song is Iris by Goo Goo Dolls. DISCLAIMER! I don't own that either! But it's a great song. I love it.
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Well everybody knows this chapter as "FINALLY GETTING RID OF SOPHIE!" chapter lol! Unless of corse you're one of those people that only read the story and not what the author says at the start and end...so you're most likely not reading this! lol But you'll find out!
NOW THIS IS IMPORTANT! Just in case you misunderstood what I meant by killing her off. I'm not really going to kill her off...it's more like she'll become a minor character. Cause she has to be at the end standing there watching Sakura and Syaoran together! lol But remember that SHE IS AN INSIGNIFICENT DOT ON THE HORIZON THAT IS SLOWLY FADING AWAY! lol! But I promise you that there will be no such thing as Syaoran and Sophie...AGAIN! YAY! But then again, I can't guarantee that it will all of a sudden be Syaoran and Sakura...BUT...what I can tell you that this story IS Sakura and Syaoran...it just needs some time!
Well I might as well get cracking before I loose all my ideas...
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Tears of Heartbreak
Chapter 12: Realise
°Syaoran's POV°
I lay my head on the cold window as the bus rocked from side to side. I didn't sleep last night, but I wasn't tired. Sophie was sitting next to me squealing about something. Sakura, I wasn't going to mention her but I guess I already have, was sitting in front of me with Tomoyo. Eriol sitting in front of them talking quietly. I slowly closed my eyes. I didn't like this feeling.
"Syaoran!" I heard Sophie yell as she tugged my arm.
"Yeah," I said turning to face her. Her blonde hair shaped her face, with her neatly cut fringe. Her blue eyes blinked back at me. What did I see in her? I don't know. She's beautiful, but...fake. I gazed at her eyes closely, I saw mischief in them. I saw someone completely different. Where was the Sophie that I saw back then? Was I...
"Earth to Syaoran! Are you in there?!" Sophie said waving a hand in front of my face.
"Yeah, sorry," I muttered shaking my head, "Just a bit dazed."
"Hm..." She said confused. "Well you look dead!"
"Really?" I asked knowing the answer.
"Ah...yeah," She said as if I was stupid.
"Why do you have to be like that?" I asked before I could hold my tongue.
I just stared at her and she stared at me. Her eyes flickered dangerously.
"I'm...ah...sorry," I said taking my eyes away from hers.
"It's ok," she said bending to kiss me on the cheek, "You're sick."
'Yeah...I'm sick.' I thought as I rested my head on the cold window as the bus rocked side to side.
°Sakura's POV°
I lay my head back against the chair trying desperately to catch up on the sleep I missed out on last night. But how could I when Syaoran was sitting behind me and Tomoyo was very obviously trying to keep the subject off Syaoran though it was easy to see, she wanted to know what happened last night.
Now I don't really know what happened. It was as if I was in a dream state, but I knew that if I started talking about it, all the memories would come flooding back. Not something I wanted.
So I just sat there, with Tomoyo's occasional worried glances and Eriol's optimistic eyes on me. Trying desperately; with no success, to mold myself into the chair.
School. I hate it. When you want to just stay in your bed, it drags you out into the open where everyone can stare. So here I am walking down the corridor to my locker, on the day after camp.
Why couldn't I be like how I was yesterday? Strong Sakura, getting over her childhood hero.
Who was I kidding? Getting over my childhood hero?
'I seriously doubt it!' I thought.
°Tomoyo's POV°
I sat on one of the benches in the school grounds. Eriol was beside me.
"This is so stuffed up!" I yelled.
"Calm down Tomoyo," Eriol said soothingly as he sat next to me.
"Stupid Syaoran, stupid Sophie, stupid love!" I yelled.
Eriol wrapped his arm around me.
"Hey, it's going to be ok Tomoyo," he whispered to me.
"I know Eriol," I said quietly feeling better in his embrace, "But I get to sit around while my best friend is going through hell! First seeing her childhood crush love another, then slowly getting over it, then feeling guilty for it."
"We both know Sakura is strong," Eriol said softly.
"I know she is," I said sniffing, "I just wish we could help."
"Our time will come to step in," he said slowly letting go of me and facing me. "You just need to make sure you're alright."
He kissed my forehead softly. I smiled.
"Thank you Eriol," I said shyly, "I'm fine."
He smiled.
I took my video camera out as the sun came out from behind the sun. I slowly recorded the scene. It was beautiful as the sun shone on the lake.
"Oh, look at this Eriol," I smiled as I rewinded it.
I put the camera in front of us as I pressed play.
The screen was brown and black and very blurry.
"What?" I gasped.
"Dracin is getting suspicious?!" A voice hissed from the speakers. "Where is Sophie?"
"She's down on the beach making out with Tom," Another voice went through the speakers.
Shock went all over me as I realised what this was.
"Tomoyo...what's this?" Eriol said confused.
"Oh my god, it was still taping!" I looked horrified at Eriol.
"What?" Eriol said staring at me.
"Eriol! Do you know what this means?!" I yelled.
"What?" Eriols said again.
"Look!" I said frantically as I rewinded the tape right to the start.
When it stopped, I pressed play.
Sakura was standing in front of a model of the world.
"Now tell us where the greenhouse effect is mostly taking it's toll," I heard my voice come out of the speakers of the video camera.
"Well mainly in the middle east countries," Sakura's voice said as she pointed at the middle east area.
"What is this Tomoyo?" Eriol asked confused.
"Hm...I must of rewinded it too far," I thought, remembering that we taped this when we got the global warming and greenhouse effect assignment.
I was about to push the forward button until the lens cap went over the screen.
Then voices were heard from the speakers.
"Hey Tomoyo!" Eriol's voice sounded.
"Oh hey Eriol," my own voice was heard.
"Where's Sakura?" Eriol's voice asked.
"Oh she went to go talk to her dance teacher about her concert night," My voice answered.
"Concert night?" Eriol's voice said sounding confused.
"Oh Sakura's performing at Tomeada Capital Theatre!" My voice squealed. "You just have to come!"
"Hey I never knew you taped this?" Eriol said from beside me.
"I didn't know either!" I gasped. "I must of accidentally left it taping."
Eriol looked at me confused as we both looked back down to the blank screen.
"Well Syaoran needs some time alone to figure out what his doing, he just needs to come to his senses and realize what he's doing to Sakura, maybe we should just leave him alone," Eriol's voice said.
"What?! Desert him?!" Tomoyo said shocked. "No way!"
"Ok then we won't," Eriol said.
"Sorry Eriol but then I'd kinda feel sorry for Syaoran," Tomoyo said sympathetically.
"No, I understand, it's hard for me too since his my best friend," Eriol said.
"I remember having this conversation," Eriol said looking at me. "But this was ages ago."
"Sh!" I said as another voice came on the speakers.
I heard my own voice gasp.
"Hey ya loner!" Sophie's voice came on the speakers. "Didn't I tell you not to f°ck with me!"
"What?" Sakura's voice said strongly.
"You know!" Sophie's voice yelled.
"No...I don't know," Sakura's voice said calmly.
"Don't pull that shit on me," Sophie's voice said.
"Ok stop swearing now!" Sakura's voice said.
"You didn't tell me you taped this!" Eriol said shocked.
"I didn't know!" I said shocked as I pressed paused.
"What...how...huh?" Eriol said quickly.
"Well I must of left it running by accident but shut the lens with the lens cap. Cause you can't see anything. And I do have the camera with me around my neck everywhere I go," I said thinking.
"Hm..." Eriol said thinking.
I was so stunned. I wasn't usually careless that I would leave my camera running. And I captured the moment in the cafeteria, well more like recorded the sounds. Hm...I captured the scene in the cafeteria and at camp. I captured the scene in the cafeteria and at camp... OH MY GOD!
"We have to find Syaoran!" Eriol and I both yelled at the same time.
°Syaoran's POV°
I was sitting in class trying desperately to look happy. So what if my life is stuffed up? And it doesn't matter that I'm turning into a complete jerk? Right? ...This sounds so pathetic...
I don't know what's worth fighting for
"Oh my god! I heard that there was a boy who ran out of his cabin at night."
Or why I have to scream
"What a weirdo!"
I don't know why I instigate
"I heard him yelling. It sounded abusive!"
And say what I don't mean
"He must be crazy!"
I don't know how I got this way
"He probably wants the attention."
I know it's not alright
"He should give up on the act."
So I'm breaking...the...habit...tonight.
"I heard that Sophie made out with Dracin on Camp."
I opened my eyes quickly.
"WHAT DID YOU SAY?!" I yelled as I whizzed around on my seat.
The girls looked at me stunned.
"Ah...that Sophie made out wi..." one of the girls started.
"I know what you said!" I yelled getting angrier. "But...what...why...how..."
My head was a loss for words. What do I say?
"She's MY girlfriend!" I blurted out.
They looked at me with their eyes wide open as if I just told them that I was the Queen's husband.
"Ah..." another of the girls said breaking the silence.
"Who told you?!" I said enraged.
"Dracin himself..." the first girl said.
"But..." I didn't finish my sentence because the teacher came in.
While the teacher was talking, I couldn't stop thinking. Why would Dracin make something up! Didn't he say he had a girlfriend? Maybe he got dumped and was looking for a rebound. But why Sophie?! Oh he was going to get it...and there it goes again! My attitude getting all rotten. Maybe I'll just go up to him peacefully and nicely ask what was going on? Yeah that's what I'll do...
°Sakura's POV°
I was getting real tired. I hardly had any sleep. Why couldn't we just turn this horrible story into a fantasy Cinderella type story? It bugged me. I turned the corner of the corridor almost stomping my feet until I saw Syaoran...'s back. (A/N Sorry! Lol!) I stopped walking. And no not because it was him! I'm over him remember...right? Well I stopped because there was a small group gathered around him and this other guy. I walked closer and noticed it was Dracin. My mind froze.
'Uh...oh...'
°Syaoran's POV°
I eventually found Dracin. I walked up to him steadily practicing what I was going to say.
'Hey Dracin. I was just wondering why you told some people that you made out with my girlfriend Sophie? I'm sure you have a good explanation,' I thought as I recited it in my head.
When I reached him, he looked at me.
"Hey ...Li is it?" Dracin asked.
'Hey Dracin. It's Syaoran. How are you?' I thought in my head...
but...
"WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING WHEN YOU TOLD EVERYONE THAT YOU MADE OUT WITH SOPHIE, MY GIRLFRIEND! YOU DICKHEAD! TELL ME WHY! RIGHT THIS FRIGGIN' MOMENT YOU BASTARD!" ...came out of my mouth. Told you; no self control at all.
He looked at me with this surprise and stunned face. But the face turned into an annoyed expression, to angry to furious.
"What the f°ck are you on about you idiot?!" Dracin yelled at me, getting off the wall he was leaning on.
By now there was a big crowd.
°Sakura's POV°
I ran straight over to the now large group as I heard Dracin yell.
"Hey a fight!" I heard someone yell.
I stopped as I reached the crowd. Jumping up and down as I tried to see past everyone. I couldn't see a thing. So I decided to worm my way in.
"Excuse me," I muttered as I pushed against everyone.
"Sorry."
"Excuse me."
"Sakura?!" I heard a familiar voice as I looked up.
Then I faced Tomoyo and right beside her was Eriol.
"Oh my god! Thank god I found you!" I cried.
"Who's in there..." Tomoyo nodded to the still not visible people.
"It's Syaoran and Dracin," I said starting to panick. "I think they're about to start a fight."
"Oh damn!" Eriol cursed. "We need to tell Syaoran something."
"You know what I'm talking about!" Syaoran's voice yelled.
Eriol, Tomoyo and I exchanged worried glances and then continued to dig deeper into the center of the crowd. Finally we reached the front and pushed ourselves forward. There was Syaoran standing tall and Dracin rolling up his sleeves.
"No, I don't know what your talking about," Dracin snarled, "Sophie is MY girlfriend."
"Oh give up the act!" Syaoran yelled. "You're pissing me off!"
"Oh, bring it on!" Dracin said clenching his fists into a tight ball.
"I wouldn't want to hurt you!" Syaoran said although he was rolling up his sleeves.
"Hurt me?! Ha, funny!" Dracin said. "You need to be taught a lesson not to dream about what you can't have!"
And with that it was like a horror scene. Dracin ran at Syaoran but he easily dodged him. Dracin went to punch Syaoran but Syaoran blocked him. I knew that Syaoran was a black belt in martial arts, but this was just sad. It was one sided. But then Dracin's friends joined in. They each went for Syaoran but Syaoran easily dodged them except one of the guys scraped his arm. Syaoran glanced at it as Dracin came from behind him ready to hit him from behind.
"Syaoran!" I yelled.
°Syaoran's POV°
I heard a voice that I was so use to, call out my name. My heart skipped a beat as I looked to the direction the voice came from. There she was standing there at the front of the crowd. Her eyes full of concern and her body trembling. I don't know why, but when Sakura was there, I knew that everything was going to be alright. Maybe if I wasn't distracted by Sakura and staring at her thinking of her, I may have been able to dodge the punch Dracin sent at me. But I was. I felt the punch hit my temple and I fell to the ground as everything went black. I blinked my eyes a few more times and then I started to see again. But everything was a blur. Then I felt a kick go to my stomach as I keeled over.
"Not so tough are you now?!" I heard Dracin's voice above me.
I felt a kick go to the side of me as my head landed hardly on the cold ground.
'Concentrate,' I told myself remembering everything I was taught, 'There is no such thing as pain, it's all just an illusion to trick the mind.'
I slowly tried to get up but I felt someone punch me back down.
"Someone go call a teacher," I heard someone say.
I opened my eyes and saw a foot reach for my head. I tried to avoid it, but it sent pain searing through my head. The foot made contact with my head and pushed it to the ground.
"Syaoran!" I heard the voice cry again. Although I couldn't see her, I could tell she was crying just by her voice.
'Oh god, please don't cry Sakura,' I thought. 'I can manage a broken skull, but not you crying.'
"You dick head," I heard Dracin yell as he withdrew his leg to kick me.
Just as the foot was going to collide with my head, I heard my name being called out again. But this time closer and louder.
Then I felt someone's arms around me.
"Please stop, please don't hurt him," I heard her mutter through her sobs, clutching me tightly.
"Kinomoto! Get off him!" I heard Dracin yell.
"No!" I heard her yell through her tears.
"Fine you asked for it!" Dracin yelled withdrawing his leg again.
'Run away Sakura!' I thought but it didn't get out of my mouth.
I felt her arms wrap tighter around me as she leant over me. I heard her soft breaths and felt them on my ear. Her tears were spilling on my face, but it was comforting in a way. I shut my eyes tight as I waited for the blow. But it didn't come.
"Hey it's a girl Dracin," someone muttered.
"It's Kinomoto," another one said, "She's popular and beautiful."
"Dude, not cool," another said.
I heard some movement.
"You got lucky Li!" Dracin said moving back.
I opened my eyes to face a blurry face as someone lifted me up.
"Syaoran," I heard her soft voice whisper, "are you okay?"
'I've been better. But I wanted to tell you that I love you so much. I don't know what has gotten into me lately. I don't love Sophie. I love you. You are the most beautiful person I have ever met, both on the outside and inside. I would die if you were sad. Please don't cry.'
I open my mouth to say it, but nothing comes out.
I felt her hug me tightly as my sight slowly came back. Then I felt I had to do this, I had to tell her.
"Sakura I..." I mumbled.
"What the?!"
"Oh my god?"
"You are not serious!"
I heard the whole crowd mumble.
°Sakura's POV°
I let go of Syaoran as I heard the crowd shift uncomfortably. I heard the cleaner's room door spring open as I quickly turned around. Everyone's faces turned to look at the two figures who fell out onto the ground. There was Sophie with her top half undone and her skirt almost hitched up to her hips. Next to her was Adrian with his fly undone and his top off.
Groans, gasp, hissing and almost every noise you could make, went across the crowd.
"F°cking hell!" I heard Dracin's voice behind me. I turned around to face him. He was red in the face and his eyes seemed to be glowing red as well.
I trembled as I slowly turned to face Syaoran.
He was looking directly at Sophie, his eyes were indescribable. No words could put together how he looked, let alone feel. Emptiness was an understatement. I reached for his hand and squeezed it.
"Whoops..." Sophie giggled as she looked from Adrian to Dracin to Syaoran.
°Syaoran's POV°
I stared at Sophie. Simply stared. The moment of truth. The moment the clouds go away. The moment I realise. I can't describe what I'm feeling. I feel like there is poison in me, all over me. It's soon going to take over my whole body. I fell disgusting. I feel...like a jerk. I feel like everything that everyone hates. My blindness is gone. I can see. I can see what I don't want to see, but yet I knew it was there. I didn't want it to be true though. I was avoiding, I was hiding. And it was in front of me. I turned my back on everyone. I turned my back on the people who cared. I turned my back on...Sakura. I turned my back on...me.
I felt Sakura squeeze my hand and slowly I felt the poison drain out of me. It seemed to be flowing into Sakura.
'No!' I thought. 'I deserve this.'
I snatched my hand away from hers hoping that my poison that was in her would be consumed by her power, her light, her love in her body.
I felt like blaming it on someone but me.
'Why didn't you tell me Sakura?' I thought in my head.
'But she did,' I answered myself. 'She told you more than any normal person would. She cared about you. And you tossed her away.'
I felt my body go cold.
'Sophie probably has a good reason for all of this,' a voice said in my head.
'No more excuses Syaoran, no more lies,' another voice said.
"Sophie..." I whispered.
"Look um...Syaoran, honey I can explain," Sophie said getting up slowly.
"Sophie..." Dracin mumbled.
"Dracin...sweety...um...I can explain," Sophie said trembling.
"Honey?! Sweety?!" Adrian yelled from behind her.
"No...um...Adrian...you see," Sophie mumbled.
"Oh my god! You played all three of us!" Adrian said finally realising it. "You said you broke up with Syaoran! And who the hell is this Dracin guy?!"
"You are such a whore!" Dracin muttered under his breath, "Such a slut!"
He walked over to Sophie slowly and Adrian followed. I found it in my place to follow them. I stood up slowly and walked towards Sophie. I felt Sakura follow me.
"You b°tch," Adrian yelled as he punched Sophie across the face.
"You slut," Dracin said kicking her shin.
I knew it was my turn. I clenched my fist tightly looking her straight in the eye. I lifted my hand to punch her but then I felt someone grab it.
"Syaoran, please don't," I heard a soft voice.
I felt the anger drain out of me again. I felt her hands slowly leave my arm. I stared at Sophie.
'Why would Sakura stop me after everything Sophie's done,' A nasty voice hissed in my head. 'Something's fishy around here.'
But then a voice conquered it. My inner voice.
'Because she's like that. Pure.'
I tried to sum up everything I was feeling towards Sophie as I felt everyone waiting for me. And then I realised something that summed everything up.
"Sophie, you're dumped," I said strongly and walked away.
°Sakura's POV°
I heard the teacher yell, "What's going on here?!"
And noticed them desperately trying to get everyone to their next class while yelling at Sophie, Adrian and Dracin to explain. But I was looking at Syaoran walking out of the front doors.
It was the first time in weeks that I felt like this...I was proud of Syaoran.
°Syaoran's POV°
I walked outside as the sunlight it my eyes. I squinted. I felt proud of myself...at least I had a bit of self control...that is when it came to Sakura. But I still felt like shit. And I knew there was nothing that could make me feel better.
I sat down on one of the benches under a cherry blossom tree. My brave face then fell. I felt tears prick my eyes.
'Don't you dare cry!' I thought.
I sighed as I went through everything in my head.
Right, okay. So I went out with a real slut and then...
"Syaoran?" A voice said from in front of me.
I looked up and saw...Tomoyo. (A/N Sorry!) Eriol was beside her.
"I'm so..." I started.
"Stop," Tomoyo interrupted. "If you are going to say sorry, I think the first person who should hear it is Sakura."
I looked at her understanding what she meant.
"We only came to give you this," Eriol spoke up handing me Tomoyo's video camera.
I looked at them confused.
"Just press play when you're ready," Tomoyo said coming over to the side of me. She hugged me tightly and whispered softly, "Just remember not to take it all out on yourself. You were blind. After you finish watching it, come talk to me and Eriol...or Sakura.
Eriol gave me a reassuring pat on the back and then they left. I stared at the camera and slowly pressed play.
"Hey ya loner!" Sophie's voice came on the speakers. "Didn't I tell you not to f°ck with me!"
"What?" Sakura's voice said strongly.
"You know!" Sophie's voice yelled.
"No...I don't know," Sakura's voice said calmly.
"Don't pull that shit on me," Sophie's voice said.
"Ok stop swearing now!" Sakura's voice said.
The screen was blank, but I knew what this was from and it made my body go cold.
"Bitch!" Sophie's voice said.
I heard a slapping sound and I winced.
"Sakura!" I heard Tomoyo's voice gasp.
"Stop it Sophie," Eriol's voice warned.
'Why wasn't I here for her?!' I thought putting my hand to my eyes.
"You stay out of this! It's between me and her!" Sophie's mean voice hissed.
"Look...I don't know what you mean," Sakura's innocent voice sounded.
"Oh you know perfectly well what I mean! You and Syaoran together last night! Didn't I tell you to lay off my boy friend?!" Sophie's voice screeched.
"Nothing happened..." Sakura voice said defensively.
"Oh I know what happened! So don't try hiding it!" Sophie's voice hissed.
I never noticed her voice was so...harsh. But then again...I didn't notice anything.
"Stop it Sophie!" Eriol's voice said dangerously.
"Stop right there!" Adrian's voice came on.
"Look Soph, Syaoran IS my BESTFRIEND!" Sakura's strong voice said, "I can talk to him if I want!"
"Syaoran doesn't like you at all!" Sophie's voice said enraged.
I heard some water noises and then Sakura's scream. I wish I could see what was happening...but then again, I think I knew.
"Sakura!" Tomoyo's voice screamed
"Stay back Tomoyo!" One of Sophie's friends said.
I heard a slapping noise and then my own. As I trembled.
"SAKURA!" My own voice came on.
"Syaoran," Sakura's voice sighed.
I felt guilty, she wanted me to save her...but I didn't.
"Syaoran I..." Sakura's voice started until my voice interrupted.
"How could you?" My voice came on stuttering.
"What?" Sakura's voice gasped as my heart broke.
"How could you SAKURA?!" My voice pierced. "How could you slap Sophie like that?!"
"Yeah that's right Syaoran she slapped me really hard!" Sophie's pathetic voice said.
"Syaoran..." Sakura's voice whispered.
"Sakura," My voice stammered.
"Syaoran you don't understand..." Sakura's voice whispered.
"I thought you were my best friend, and best friends don't hurt people close to them..." My voice muttered.
I wish I could go back in time and stop what was going to happen. Because I knew...but I couldn't stop it. I was only holding a video camera, but it felt like I was holding my life.
"Syaoran I didn't!" Sakura's voice said growing louder as she sounded hurt.
'I am such a dickhead!' I thought.
"I thought you were my best friend Sakura!" My voice yelled.
I never yelled at Sakura before. I shouldn't have.
"Sakura slapped me!" Sophie's stupid voice said.
"You attacked me first!" Sakura's voice cried back. "I hate you!"
I heard some squirming. But I could remember what was happening as if it was yesterday. I was holding onto Sakura's wrist. Really tightly. I heard a gasp and Eriol's voice warning me to let go...then...
"SYAORAN YOU'RE HURTING ME!" Sakura's voice screamed.
My heart broke all over again as I clutched onto the video camera I quickly pressed the forward button as I knew what happened. Eriols and TOmoyo would explain to me, and try to calm me down...but I won't listen. And I DID NOT want to live through it again. I pressed play again and strained my ears for what was coming next.
I heard a giggle as Sakura's face came on the screen and I heard Tomoyo.
"What do you think Eriol is like Miss. Kinomoto?" Her voice asked giggling.
"Well his really..." Sakura's voiced started.
I then heard voices and then the camera was dropped and it was facing the ground so all I could see was black and small outlines of the grass.
"Sh..." Sakura's voices hissed.
There was some movement.
"Well! Where is she?" Dracin's voice said.
"Oh, she's coming...she's just having dessert," one of Sophie's friends, Tricia's voice sounded.
"Well, I want to see her in our cabin," I heard Dracin's voice. "I'm bored and I want some fun."
"Well you know she only likes you," Tricia's voice said.
I bashed myself up in my head. How could I have been so blind? I wish I could relive this all again! I shook my head as I went back to listening.
"You guys! Syaoran is heading to the beach!" Clerissa's voice came on.
My ears pricked up at the sound of my name.
"Oh, he'll see Sophie and Tom and then we'll be in big trouble!" Sal's voice whined.
There was a Tom? Just how many freaking guys was she with?!
It was quiet.
"You ok?" Tomoyo's voice came on breaking the silence.
"Yeah of course," Sakura's voice said unsure. "We have to tell Syaoran."
"Sakura!" Tomoyo's voice yelled. "He won't listen to you!"
"But he doesn't know what's happening!" Sakura yelled back.
In my head I was thinking. 'Listen to Tomoyo! She's right! I won't listen!' And I hated myself for that.
"Sakura please, he'll just hurt you again!" Tomoyo's voice pleaded.
'Listen to her! I will hurt you!' I yelled in my head.
"He's still my friend," Sakura's voice whispered.
"Well you're not his friend!" Tomoyo's voice said. "I'm sorry Sakura, but he has done nothing for you! I don't get it! He has hurt you; caused you pain and you want to help him! Sometimes Sakura, you are just too soft. I wanted to change him too! But he'll just end up hurting you, all of us! So please, just let him be."
'Listen to her Sakura! She's right!' I was screaming in my head.
I pressed stop. I couldn't take it anymore. The faith she had in me. And I threw it all away. She believed in me, she cared about me. And what did I do? Oh I don't want to mention what I did!
I through myself on the ground and lay there looking up at the sky.
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
I thought of Sakura. Everything she went through.
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
I lost it all. I am such an idiot.
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
It wasn't me. I was blind. That wasn't Syaoran. That wasn't someone I knew.
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
I'm so sorry.
I just want you to know who I am.
Wow finished! Go! That took pretty long! Sorry about that! I typed this whole story up in a weekend where I didn't have homework. Sorry for taking long!
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