Chapter Four: Impulse control
Oh shit, I thought to my self when I felt the knife against my throat.
This is so not good. I could die if I or the ghost makes one false move. Well, on my part it would be a false move. On the ghosts part, well, it would be intentional.
I'm not going to cry, I'm not going to cry, I'm not going to cry. Okay I'm going to cry. I could feel the prickle in my nose, and before I knew it, the tears were falling. Yeah, yeah I need to stop being so dramatic. But you know what, if you had a knife to your throat I bet you'd do the same. Am I right? Yep.
"Evan, let Susannah go she's a good mediator." Father Dominic said. Okay, now I'm missing something.
With that being said he let me go. I put my hand to my throat, and was breathing abnormally, due to the fact I was certain my life was over about 5 minutes ago. Then the four ghosts disappeared.
"Good Mediator?" I asked in a half cracked voice.
"Yes, Evan went to a Mediator somewhere in the state of California who wasn't too friendly to ghosts, and well long story short, he thinks almost all mediators are evil. Not sure why though." Father Dominic said.
Well, I still don't understand it but that mediator must have did a number on him to make him think that all of them were evil.
"Technically, I'm not a Mediator." I said, my breathing still a little abnormal.
"Yes, that is right, Susannah." Father Dom agreed. Thank god someone did. "Are you feeling alright? your breathing does not sound too good."
"I just had a knife held to my throat, maybe that's why." I said some what sarcastically.
"Susannah, you were never in any real danger." Jesse Chimed in. Why, that little prick. Having a knife held to your throat, not in any real danger.
Yeah okay…
"WHAT!" I exploded. "Are you kidding me! Not in any real danger!" I yelled.
"Susannah, there is no need for shouting, Jesse can hear you perfectly well." Father Dom added. Wow did everyone wake up this morning and decide its national Asshole day or something?
"So, you're telling me a knife being held to my throat is not any real danger?" I asked, slightly more calmly then before.
"Suze, come on. don't you think your being a little dramatic?" Paul said.
Oh my gosh I cannot believe this. Ten minutes ago they were all as white as the god driven snow with a look of fear across their faces. Now there telling me I'm being dramatic. What is wrong with these people?
"Dramatic? I would be sobbing my heart out if I were being dramatic" I said sarcastically, shooting a nasty look at Paul.
"Suze Don't you think you're over reacting just a touch?" Catarina said.
"Wow, I'm getting the third degree from everyone today," I said, staring at the suddenly interesting floor. I couldn't believe this. It's like they have split personalities. Well, Father Dom and Paul not so much that is. Jesse, and Catarina, no they've always had split personas I'm beginning to think.
"Suze, if you were in any real danger I would have done something right away. That kid looked just as scared as you." Paul said with a small grin on his face.
Oh, that did it, despite the fact that I might possibly love him. Uh, no, not now I don't, because people who love people don't sucker punch people in the face like I just did to Paul. I punched him in the cheek. Not to give him a black eye or broken nose or anything. Just to let him know to back off.
"Susannah, you need to learn to have some Impulse control. How many times have we been over this? Ghost or human, you need to learn that you cannot resolve all problems by being physical." Which caused Catarina and Jesse to snicker.
Paul was still holding his cheek.
"Suze, tell me something," Catarina said. "Is your favorite song, 'Let's get Physical'" She asked. Oh, I hate her. She is such a bitch.
Paul asked father Dom for a pen and paper, which he gave him a pen, and a post it note pad. Then Paul wrote a note, and handed it to me. It said:
Suze, I think you better stay at your moms for a while. I need some space
I didn't say anything. I knew right then and there Paul didn't love me. He used me. He got what he wanted and now he didn't want anything to do with me. Jesse could care less about me and Father Dominic still thought of me as someone who needed help.
WHY CAN'T I WIN TODAY!
I didn't say a word. I just stood up, and turned around and left. I didn't slam the door. I shut it quietly, and left. No one came out after me, which meant they didn't give a fuck where I went. All I was to them was a burden, nothing but a burden that they couldn't control.
Reaching into my purse as I was heading out of the office, I grabbed my cell phone. I couldn't call mom, she was at work. I couldn't call Jake he was in Florida; Dopey was in Los Angels shooting a movie. Shocking, I know, but apparently when the drama teacher forced him to have the lead in the play at school. He rocked he knew it too, and so didn't this undercover agent looking for new movie actors.
And Doc he didn't even have a license, and well Cee Cee she totaled her car the first week she had it. The only one left was Adam, he was on Vacation for two weeks, and he didn't intend to leave Carmel during that time. And about 99.9 of the time he's out and about doing something. So I called him.
"Hey Suze," Adam said.
"Hey, uh, how did you know it was me?" I asked.
"Caller ID, duh!" he said, trying to be funny.
"Oh, hey, uh, you're not busy right now, are you?" I asked, praying he would say no.
"No, I'm not, why did you need something?" he asked.
"I was wondering if you could pick me up at the mission right now, and bring me by Paul's house, and then to the air port. I'll pay for your gas!" I said, hoping that last line would make him say yes.
"Uh, sure." He said, hesitantly. "But you've got to tell me why you're going to the airport on the way there" he said sounding confused.
"Yeah, sure, I'll explain it on the way, THANK YOU SO MUCH!" I said.
"Okay, I'll meet you at the entrance in like 5 minutes" he said and hung up.
Airport? You all must be wondering what that's all about. Well seen as I have no friends left except for Adam, and Cee Cee and they'll be going off to college in January. I'll be left with no one. Well yeah I'll have mom, Andy, and Doc but that's about it. I just want to clear my head, away from everyone who knows me except for one person. I think I might go visit Gina in New York, I'll get a hotel room with my money I have saved up. Yeah I save money don't act so surprised. I also got a lot of money left to me when my dad died. I may be almost as rich as Paul. I think.
I made my way down to the gate I glanced behind me several times thinking there was someone walking behind me. But no one was, I have never in my life felt so alone. I felt like no one cared about me anymore I felt like a nothing.
I finally reached the gate, and less than a second later Adam showed up in his lime green VW bug. I got in I pushed my hair behind my ears, put on my seat belt. Then the interrogation began.
"So, Suze spill. Why are you going to the airport?" he asked, looking both ways then driving back onto the high way. Good thing he's a good driver, unlike me who would have just pulled out into the intersection.
"I'm going to New York for a little while," I said just staring out the window the sun was shining brightly in the California sky.
I just really need a break from this place. Maybe now would be a good time to apply to a college. NYU yeah that would be good there still accepting applications I hope.
"Does your family know?" he asked, quietly turning onto the road Paul and I lived on.
"I left a message for my mom on her cell phone," I said, looking down at my hands folded in my lap.
"Don't you think you should tell her in person?" he asked looking a me. I glanced up for a moment.
"No, because she'll start sobbing or something and I can't deal with that. I just need to get away for a while. I might apply for the semester two at NYU." I said, looking at him this time.
"This is the house right?" he asked, stopping at the top of the drive way.
"Yeah," I said quietly.
He turned down the driveway, and parked the car in front of the path way to the door. I undid my seat belt and opened the door. Adam made no move to get out of the car.
"You can come in if you want, I might need help with my bags," I said and he got out, following me into the house.
He waited in the kitchen area while I ran up to my room, I got my two suit cases out of my closet. And started taking things from the bureau, and shoving them into my suit cases.
Not neatly, I wanted to be gone by the time Paul got back. I got all my clothes in one suit case. Then all my shoes in the other. I then grabbed a small duffle bag, and shoved all my make up, books, CDs, Tooth brush, tooth paste, hair brush, shampoo…and all the rest of the stuff that belonged to me in the bathroom.
I left an outfit out for me for the plane ride, there was no way I was going to sit on a plane in a mini skirt, high heels, and a tank top. I left out my favorite black silk tee, along with the pants with holes in the jeans, and some comfy sneakers. Basically the outfit I had on yesterday.
I then changed into that outfit, then I threw the clothes I changed out of into the suitcases then I called from the top of the stairs for Adam to come help me. He came up and grabbed two of the suit cases, leaving me with the duffel bag, I took one last glance at my room, it was bare now, it looked like no one was ever there.
I made my way down the stairs, took one last glance at the house, and went out to the car, where Adam still had the back door open so I could put the duffel bag in there. I also grabbed a small carry on bag, and put some CD's, and a CD player in there for the plane ride too.
I shut the back door, and made my way to the passengers side, and got in, I put on my seat belt while Adam did the same, and he started the car.
"Are you sure you want to do this?" he asked when I got my bags on the little cart at the air port.
"Yeah." I said, trying not to look like I cared. "Tell Cee Cee I'll call her when I get there, and I'll be back soon." I said, giving him a hug.
"Alright I will, good luck," he said, returning my hug.
"Thanks, oh and please don't tell any one where I went. Cee Cee too. You cant tell anyone! And for the love of god, don't tell Paul," I said, grabbing hold of the cart that had my suit cases on it.
"Alright, bye, call when you get there," he said, turning to go back to his car.
"Bye!" I Partially yelled, then he waved and got into his car.
I turned and made my way into the air port, I found a short line, and when it was my turn I asked for anything to New York. I luckily got a ticket for two hours from now. I went and got my suit cases all taken care of for them to be put on the cargo part of the plane. So since I had time to kill I went threw the security check, got that all squared away with.
Then I went to a Mc. Donald's, and got a burger, and fry. Hey who cares you've got no one to impress. I ate it quickly at the food court, then I tossed what I didn't eat into the trash, and went with my small carry on over to my port, and waited for the plane. While waiting I decided to call Gina.
"Hello?" the familiar voice said into the phone.
"Hey Gina, it's Suze."
"Hey, oh my god! I haven't heard from you in so long! How have you been? she asked.
"Good, and your self?" I replied.
"Good."
"I'm going to be in New York for a while. We definitely have to meet up sometime. I'm actually applying to NYU for college." I said.
"Oh my gosh, are you serious? Where are you staying?" she asked excitedly.
"At a hotel," I said. The little boy across from my row gave me a weird look.
I stuck my tongue back out at him.
"No, you aren't! You're staying with us! What number is your flight and what time does your flight get in?" she asked. I glanced at my watch and saw that it read 12:13pm. And what did Gina mean by Us?
"At about 10:30 tonight and its flight 312," I said adding up the time in my head. Cause of the different time zones, like it would only be 7:30 here when I got to New York.
"Alright I'll be waiting see you then. OH IM SO EXCITED" she squeaked.
"I know me too. See you then." And we hung up. Which left me with an hour to kill.
I spent my time reading a magazine, and finally the hour was up. I gave my ticket to the lady at the boarding desk she ripped it and gave me a smaller piece of the ticket, and said "Enjoy your flight"
Once I boarded the flight I found my seat I sat on the outside next to the isle. The person who was suppose to be sitting next to me was already there, so I just put on my seat belt, and put on my head phones. And drifted off into sleep.
"Susannah, I'm sick of you and your poor me act," Jesse said in my face threw gritted teeth while holding me painfully against the wall I looked frantically around for father Dom but he was no where in sight, in fact we weren't even father Dom's office to be completely honest I had no clue where we were.
"Jesse Please your hurting me," I said tears falling now, it felt as if he was crushing my bones.
I didn't even finish that dream I had been asleep for what? An hour? Why was someone waking me up already?
"Miss, we're here," the lady said next to me.
"In New York?" I asked confused. I couldn't have been asleep for eight hours.
"Yes," she said, undoing her seat belt.
"Oh, thank you," I said, doing the same. Standing up, I grabbed my bag off the floor, and proceeded to exit the plane.
The stewardess was saying to everyone thank you for flying with us. As we exited the plane, I made my way up the terminal thing, and then I came around the corner and saw Gina waiting not by her self, my three other best friends were with her and some one I didn't Jillian, Luke, and Will Gina and I knew each other since we were babies, then we met Jillian, and then Luke who before I left was dating Jillian.
And well Will I hadn't seen him since eighth grade, we use to be like brother and sister, then one day Alexandra walked into the picture, she hated me cause I was Will's best-friend, and she did anything and everything to make him hate me, and he did. So I was so confused as to what he was doing here.
"Hey, Simon!" Gina said, giving me a hug and the rest of them followed. It was awkward when it got to Will. Hence the whole: him hating me thing.
"Oh my god, you guys look so great," I said to all of them. Their personalities hadn't changed a bit. I was still confused as to who this extra person I didn't recognize was.
"Suze, this is Kevin my boyfriend," she said, introducing him
"Nice to meet you," I said, shaking his hand.
"As well." He had an Australian accent. Oh, la, la.
He he.
"Suze, you still play soccer right?" Jillian asked me.
"Uh, I haven't played since I left," I know what you're all thinking: Suze Simon playing soccer hahahaha fat chance. Well it's true. I was blessed with another gift that my parents could know about but I wish they hadn't. It all started when I drop kicked the basketball threw the window at grandma, and grandpas house when I was seven. The neighbor who happened to be a national woman's league soccer coach told my parents I did have the talent and they should sign me up.
And you know what they did, stupid mom and dad. So I played for nine years straight right up until we moved to Carmel, then I guess I kind of forgot about it.
"WHAT! Are you serious," Luke exclaimed.
"I guess I didn't have the time," I said in a small voice.
"Well, lets get your bags. That fact is about to change," Gina said.
"What do you mean?" I asked confused, as we started to walk to go get my bags.
"She means that there's an indoor soccer field, and we have access to it and we're going there right now," Luke said with a grin on his face. Will, however, was still quiet, and hadn't said a word.
"But, but-" Gina cut me off.
"No buts about it Simon," she said. We had gotten to baggage claim and I saw my two matching suitcases, and duffel bag coming.
"Suze, you still got those matching suit cases and duffel bag?" she asked in astonishment. I had had them since I was in sixth grade. So yeah, I guess they were kind of old. They didn't have Barbie's on them or anything like that they were a dark purple with white writing on them that said "Suze"
We made our way out to the parking lot. Gina put my bags in the backseat of her car, great where was I going to sit seen as her boyfriend already was in the drivers side.
"Suze, do you mind if you ride with Will?" she asked, giving me a sympathetic look.
"I told you guys to stop calling me that," Will muttered angrily.
"Fine BILLY!" she said icily.
"Come on," he said to me, and started walking towards his silver pick up.
"See you at the Field," Gina said and got into her car. Jillian and Luke got into theirs as well. Telling me they would see me there as well.
Will still had the same truck as when I left, shocking he hasn't totaled it seen as the daredevil he is, or well once was. I opened the passenger side door, and go in at the same time as him. We both were silent put on our seat belts, and pulled out of the parking space, into the parking lot and began to head for the exit behind Luke, and Jillian.
Still awkward silence.
We pulled on to the main highway and headed towards Manhattan. God it had been so long since I had been here. I truly did miss it. Then my train of thought was broken when Will broke the silence.
"Do you still have the gift?" He asked.