Bring Me to Life
How can you see into my eyes like open doors
Leading you down into my core
She ran across the foggy Brooklyn bridge, tears streaming down her face mixing with the rain that surrounded her. Nothing was alive anymore, nothing seemed real. The world spun but time had stopped. She caught the pole at the end of the bridge, breathing hard.
A mist seemed to be set upon the city, making everything swirl with a peculiar sort of magic, but it wasn't comforting. Her head snapped at feet behind her pounding on the cobblestone. She saw her fiancé running after her, and pushed away from the bar almost flying above the pavement.
Where I've become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold,
until you find it there and lead it back home.
They'd known. It was eating her from the inside out, slowly devouring her very essence of life, and it was also slowly eroding her will of life. Even her fiancé couldn't shake her from this surreal world she'd surrounded herself with. No matter where she was, her eyes had filled with an unexplainable sorrow, known only to those who knew the events.
Wake me up inside
He'd hunted her down for hours, and he made a final dash for her and succeeded in his attempts. His arms encircled her shoulders from behind, bidding her to stop. They tightened at her final feeble attempt to escape him, to escape reality. Their baby girl, their little Miracle. He caught her as she slid to the floor, following suit. She twisted against him, finally settling in his lap
Wake me up inside
Through her sobs, she managed to whisper two words.
"She's gone?" Her voice left it a question, a hope to any who cared that someone would confess to it all being a cruel joke, and she would laugh along with them.
"She's gone." He repeated firmly. She hid her face in his chest, letting her hot tears of pain slide down his skin soaking eventually into his shirt.
Call my name and save me from the dark
"Cass.." She drew her head up and looked him in the eye. Immediately she lowered hers ashamed. She'd been running form the only other person in the world who shared the depth of her grief. He[d lost just as much as she had, if not more. Her grief had made her selfish and blind. Her hands went up and cradled his face, caressing his cheeks and wiping away his own tears.
Bid my blood to run
She wrapped him with arms of protection and apology.
Before I come undone
They were in a similar embrace an hour later, his head resting on her shoulder. She tilted hers ever-so-slightly and kissed his neck.
"We'll make it through somehow." She whispered soothingly, not quite sure who she was trying to convince, her lover or herself.
Save me from the nothing I've become
As night fell, he slid his an arm under her knees and around her back and stood, then walked slowly towards the Lodging House. She remained silent when he carried her around the back to the small, pathetic excuse for a beach. A white cross was driven into the sand, and in thin, black cursive was written out
'Our little Miracle will live forever'
He set her down on her feet, but her legs gave way and she crumbled to the ground. He remained behind her, and watched her shaking form crawl to the grave. The sand that glistened with the last light of day seemed to mock them, glittering above their daughter, almost laughing.
She took a fistful of the sand that lay above her daughters corpse and watched it sift through her hand with the gentle caressing breeze.
"I love you." Two tears marked the end of the contained self-hatred and torment.
Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
They lay sleeping beside each other. She wore only a thin dress of black that fit her form completely and flowed out to the ground. Her arms were bare due to the heat of the summer, and she was resting on his chest, listening to the deep rhythmic breathing that told her he slept.
Her nights had been tormented since the day one of the three most precious lives to her had been stolen. Guilt tormented her mind, the thought of being helpless. She'd failed to protect her own family, and that was flaking at her sanity. Carefully she pulled from his arms, and gently pulled the blanket over him to compensate for the warmth that had been shared between their bodies. The moon made her skin a pale white, and she passed a kiss from her fingers to his lips.
She passed the twin sized crib that had once held two of her joys, her gaze cast to the sleeping form of her son. She slid him into her arms and kissed his forehead. He yawned and curled up against her.
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life
The only movement at all upon the streets was her body, slowly walking through the middle of each familiar avenue. Even the usual whore stops were devoid of life. A haze covered the sky, bleaching out the stars and leaving only a white orb hung in the sky. Her eyes remained fixed on it, and her bare feet took step after step over the cold stones to the docks. She didn't notice anything except for the moon that seemed to beckon her further.
Frozen inside without your touch without your love darling Only you are the life among the dead
The wood of the docks creaked in protest of her weight upon them at the pace she was moving. She stopped only a few steps in, and the scent of salt filled the air. A haunting tune flooded her mind, a gentle hum that could not be ignored.
It was a lullaby that caused her tears to spill over her cheeks silently. The song she'd sung to the twins every night since their birth.
All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
A small cry woke him, and he sat up, rubbing his eyes. The noise ceased, but he knew something was amiss. The room that normally seemed welcoming, the room that'd been his home his entire life, seemed a tomb. The air was chilled, and the usual breathing from sleeping newsies had been drowned out by the eerie silence. His eyes snapped to the door when the wind blew it from its position to wide open.
He then realized what was missing. He threw the sheets back and jumped to his feet, and flew to the roof. His eyes scanned the streets around him, fixing on the blond locks that trailed down her black back, and her white arms, then on where each slow step was heading. His mind raced and he took to the streets.
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
He breathed heavily as he ran, his only thoughts were to reach her in time. Shards of glass cut into his feet, but it only egged him on. He saw her right ahead of him, and one arm slid around her waist and threw her back. She fell to the docks behind him, and he along with her.
Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul
Don't let me die here
"What were you thinking?!" he panted. She curled herself into a fetal position hugging her knees tightly. "I lost my daughter do I have to lose you too?" he asked, gentle this time. He pulled himself over to her and hugged her.
"God I'm so sorry." She whispered in his ear. He pulled back a little and kissed her softly. His second kiss was more demanding, and his hand slid down her back and pulled her against him.
There must be something more
Bring me to life
Hesitantly, she pulled back, unsure of her own feelings. Tingles ran up her spine as she felt his lips press to her neck teasingly.
"I need you." He murmured huskily against her skin. "so don't even dare to try that again. If I lost you both I don't know what I'd do."
Wake me up inside
Wake me up inside
call my name and save me from the dark
bid my blood to run
before I come undone
save me from the nothing I've become
"We'll make it somehow."
Her freshly sprung tears drew lines in her cheeks. The guilt of Miracle's death raged in her mind like a fire. He lightly bit her neck, causing her to gasp and arch into him. He captured his prey, lightly running his tongue along her bottom lip, and as if he'd said a secret password, her mouth opened to his. He broke off leaving butterfly kisses along her jawline.
"It's not your fault. Don't try to pretend that it is, or I swear, it will destroy you, and I've told you that you're not allowed to do that."
Days passed, which in turn, become weeks, and she slowly let herself heal with the help from a loving fiancé who always tried his best to care for the three of them. In her leather-bound journal, she wrote by candlelight.
Dear, sweet, miracle. I'm so sorry that I couldn't protect you from being taken from us. I have trouble accepting the fact that you're gone, so I won't. It'll just be like we went a little while without seeing each other. Daddy's doing better then I am, and Chance misses you and cries every night, but we'll all be together soon. I understand why God would've wanted you with him, because you truly were an angel on earth. I love you, and I miss you. Until we meet again, my sweet darling baby girl, we will love you and keep you in our thoughts and prayers. You'll always live in my heart.
Your Loving Mother,
Jackal
A/N: This really did make me cry writing it. I've fallen back into a depressed state (I have major depression, and for those of you less learned about that, it means that I have very high moments and very low moments. It's basically like bi-polar, except that it's between feelings). I have no real reason to explain it, but I really can't write anything happy at the moment.
And finally, yes I do realize that I've used parts of lyrics from 2 songs other then the obvious stated. Therefore, I close with a disclaimer.
D: I do not own ANYTHING except for myself, (Jackal), my thoughts, my creations, and the situations I put pre-made characters in.
How can you see into my eyes like open doors
Leading you down into my core
She ran across the foggy Brooklyn bridge, tears streaming down her face mixing with the rain that surrounded her. Nothing was alive anymore, nothing seemed real. The world spun but time had stopped. She caught the pole at the end of the bridge, breathing hard.
A mist seemed to be set upon the city, making everything swirl with a peculiar sort of magic, but it wasn't comforting. Her head snapped at feet behind her pounding on the cobblestone. She saw her fiancé running after her, and pushed away from the bar almost flying above the pavement.
Where I've become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold,
until you find it there and lead it back home.
They'd known. It was eating her from the inside out, slowly devouring her very essence of life, and it was also slowly eroding her will of life. Even her fiancé couldn't shake her from this surreal world she'd surrounded herself with. No matter where she was, her eyes had filled with an unexplainable sorrow, known only to those who knew the events.
Wake me up inside
He'd hunted her down for hours, and he made a final dash for her and succeeded in his attempts. His arms encircled her shoulders from behind, bidding her to stop. They tightened at her final feeble attempt to escape him, to escape reality. Their baby girl, their little Miracle. He caught her as she slid to the floor, following suit. She twisted against him, finally settling in his lap
Wake me up inside
Through her sobs, she managed to whisper two words.
"She's gone?" Her voice left it a question, a hope to any who cared that someone would confess to it all being a cruel joke, and she would laugh along with them.
"She's gone." He repeated firmly. She hid her face in his chest, letting her hot tears of pain slide down his skin soaking eventually into his shirt.
Call my name and save me from the dark
"Cass.." She drew her head up and looked him in the eye. Immediately she lowered hers ashamed. She'd been running form the only other person in the world who shared the depth of her grief. He[d lost just as much as she had, if not more. Her grief had made her selfish and blind. Her hands went up and cradled his face, caressing his cheeks and wiping away his own tears.
Bid my blood to run
She wrapped him with arms of protection and apology.
Before I come undone
They were in a similar embrace an hour later, his head resting on her shoulder. She tilted hers ever-so-slightly and kissed his neck.
"We'll make it through somehow." She whispered soothingly, not quite sure who she was trying to convince, her lover or herself.
Save me from the nothing I've become
As night fell, he slid his an arm under her knees and around her back and stood, then walked slowly towards the Lodging House. She remained silent when he carried her around the back to the small, pathetic excuse for a beach. A white cross was driven into the sand, and in thin, black cursive was written out
'Our little Miracle will live forever'
He set her down on her feet, but her legs gave way and she crumbled to the ground. He remained behind her, and watched her shaking form crawl to the grave. The sand that glistened with the last light of day seemed to mock them, glittering above their daughter, almost laughing.
She took a fistful of the sand that lay above her daughters corpse and watched it sift through her hand with the gentle caressing breeze.
"I love you." Two tears marked the end of the contained self-hatred and torment.
Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
They lay sleeping beside each other. She wore only a thin dress of black that fit her form completely and flowed out to the ground. Her arms were bare due to the heat of the summer, and she was resting on his chest, listening to the deep rhythmic breathing that told her he slept.
Her nights had been tormented since the day one of the three most precious lives to her had been stolen. Guilt tormented her mind, the thought of being helpless. She'd failed to protect her own family, and that was flaking at her sanity. Carefully she pulled from his arms, and gently pulled the blanket over him to compensate for the warmth that had been shared between their bodies. The moon made her skin a pale white, and she passed a kiss from her fingers to his lips.
She passed the twin sized crib that had once held two of her joys, her gaze cast to the sleeping form of her son. She slid him into her arms and kissed his forehead. He yawned and curled up against her.
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life
The only movement at all upon the streets was her body, slowly walking through the middle of each familiar avenue. Even the usual whore stops were devoid of life. A haze covered the sky, bleaching out the stars and leaving only a white orb hung in the sky. Her eyes remained fixed on it, and her bare feet took step after step over the cold stones to the docks. She didn't notice anything except for the moon that seemed to beckon her further.
Frozen inside without your touch without your love darling Only you are the life among the dead
The wood of the docks creaked in protest of her weight upon them at the pace she was moving. She stopped only a few steps in, and the scent of salt filled the air. A haunting tune flooded her mind, a gentle hum that could not be ignored.
It was a lullaby that caused her tears to spill over her cheeks silently. The song she'd sung to the twins every night since their birth.
All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
A small cry woke him, and he sat up, rubbing his eyes. The noise ceased, but he knew something was amiss. The room that normally seemed welcoming, the room that'd been his home his entire life, seemed a tomb. The air was chilled, and the usual breathing from sleeping newsies had been drowned out by the eerie silence. His eyes snapped to the door when the wind blew it from its position to wide open.
He then realized what was missing. He threw the sheets back and jumped to his feet, and flew to the roof. His eyes scanned the streets around him, fixing on the blond locks that trailed down her black back, and her white arms, then on where each slow step was heading. His mind raced and he took to the streets.
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
He breathed heavily as he ran, his only thoughts were to reach her in time. Shards of glass cut into his feet, but it only egged him on. He saw her right ahead of him, and one arm slid around her waist and threw her back. She fell to the docks behind him, and he along with her.
Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul
Don't let me die here
"What were you thinking?!" he panted. She curled herself into a fetal position hugging her knees tightly. "I lost my daughter do I have to lose you too?" he asked, gentle this time. He pulled himself over to her and hugged her.
"God I'm so sorry." She whispered in his ear. He pulled back a little and kissed her softly. His second kiss was more demanding, and his hand slid down her back and pulled her against him.
There must be something more
Bring me to life
Hesitantly, she pulled back, unsure of her own feelings. Tingles ran up her spine as she felt his lips press to her neck teasingly.
"I need you." He murmured huskily against her skin. "so don't even dare to try that again. If I lost you both I don't know what I'd do."
Wake me up inside
Wake me up inside
call my name and save me from the dark
bid my blood to run
before I come undone
save me from the nothing I've become
"We'll make it somehow."
Her freshly sprung tears drew lines in her cheeks. The guilt of Miracle's death raged in her mind like a fire. He lightly bit her neck, causing her to gasp and arch into him. He captured his prey, lightly running his tongue along her bottom lip, and as if he'd said a secret password, her mouth opened to his. He broke off leaving butterfly kisses along her jawline.
"It's not your fault. Don't try to pretend that it is, or I swear, it will destroy you, and I've told you that you're not allowed to do that."
Days passed, which in turn, become weeks, and she slowly let herself heal with the help from a loving fiancé who always tried his best to care for the three of them. In her leather-bound journal, she wrote by candlelight.
Dear, sweet, miracle. I'm so sorry that I couldn't protect you from being taken from us. I have trouble accepting the fact that you're gone, so I won't. It'll just be like we went a little while without seeing each other. Daddy's doing better then I am, and Chance misses you and cries every night, but we'll all be together soon. I understand why God would've wanted you with him, because you truly were an angel on earth. I love you, and I miss you. Until we meet again, my sweet darling baby girl, we will love you and keep you in our thoughts and prayers. You'll always live in my heart.
Your Loving Mother,
Jackal
A/N: This really did make me cry writing it. I've fallen back into a depressed state (I have major depression, and for those of you less learned about that, it means that I have very high moments and very low moments. It's basically like bi-polar, except that it's between feelings). I have no real reason to explain it, but I really can't write anything happy at the moment.
And finally, yes I do realize that I've used parts of lyrics from 2 songs other then the obvious stated. Therefore, I close with a disclaimer.
D: I do not own ANYTHING except for myself, (Jackal), my thoughts, my creations, and the situations I put pre-made characters in.