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Chapter 4-Secrets

Christmas Day

Everyone loved their presents and the day was going by great. It was know dinner and everyone was in high spirits. Emily had taken Arthur's advice and decided to tell Sirius today, she was just going to wait for the right time. Everyone was laughing and eating, there were some individual conversations and everyone would join in when they felt so. The mood was exciting and fresh. It was a perfect Christmas dinner. Sirius was laughing at something the twins had said. He turned his head and realized I had been staring at him, he kissed me on the forehead and whispered in my ear. "Is any thing wrong?"

I smiled at him and then whispered back "I'm pregnant."

Sirius fell out of his chair. Everyone stopped talking and the room grew silent, everyone stared at us. "what?" he stated. I kept my smile, wondering what he was thinking. "Are you serious?" He asked a smile spread across his face. Noticing his excitement, I shook my head vigorously, my smile growing even bigger. Sirius let out a laugh and pulled me off my chair and spun me around. Everyone was still starring at us wondering what we were talking about. Seconds later they all found out. Sirius not able to conceal his excitement put me down and screamed "I'm going to be a father!" And then hugged me again. Everyone smiled and said congratulations. Everyone seemed to be happy for us and excited on the fact that we would become parents.

Everyone was in a good mood. Christmas went great, and the news of a baby had everyone buzzing with excitement. The night Arthur came home we had a big dinner to welcome him back. Sirius was telling Harry about when Peter is caught and Sirius is free, that he and Harry can go to this dragon amusement park in Russia. Molly whispered under her breathe 'that's very father like' sarcasm very clear.

"Excuse me?" Sirius asked. He heard what she said but wanted to hear what she had to say about it.

"Nothing, it's just not safe. And you claim to be the closest thing Harry has to a father."

Sirius had an angry look on his face when he was about to say something Emily interjected. It was her turn to stand up for Sirius. "Sirius is the closets thing Harry has to a father" Emily stated hotly. "Sirius looks after him and-"

"Oh please," Molly said. "Your the last person who should be talking to me about what is good for children."

Emilys face dropped and she slowly sat back down."That's what I thought" Molly said rudely. Sirius had a look of confusion about him. "And I'm guessing that you haven't told Sirius yet-"

"Molly sit down" Arthur commanded. Arthur knew Molly was just trying to get them in a fight.

Molly ignored Arthur. "You know your not fit to have this child. You'll kill it just like you killed the other one." The room went silent. Emily looked away, ashamed. Arthur looked away, Molly had no right to say that. And everyone else in the room including Sirius stared at Emily.

"What is she talking about?" Sirius asked quietly.

Emily stared at the floor not wanting to answer that question. Finally after a long silence Emily spoke. "I...I found out I was pregnant when...um... when you were sent to Azkaban." Emily realized this wasn't going to be easy so she should just tell the story and not wait for reactions. "I was really heartbroken when you were sent away. I didn't feel the need to live anymore. By the time I found out I was pregnant, I was already diagnosed with clinical depression. I didn't want to have the baby at first, the thought of raising it with out you killed me. That was until Arthur talked some sense into me." Arthur smiled at this. "He told me that with the baby I would always have a piece of you with me." Emily looked at Sirius, he had a pained expression on his face. Emily took a breathe and continued. "I was very stressed about raising the baby alone and about losing you, I didn't make any attempt to get better." Silent tears fell down Ems face. She didn't want to get into details, it was to painful. "I lost the baby" she said quietly. "I stopped caring about my self and the stress was overwhelming. I fell down the stairs one day and I lost the baby."

"You killed it, that's what you did" Molly said. "Your in no shape to have this baby."

"Mom shut up-" Ron said but was interrupted by Sirius.

"It's alright Ron, your mother's right." Emily looked at Sirius in shock. "How could you not tell me this?" He asked not giving Em a chance to answer, he continued. "This could effect the baby, and besides that I would have liked to have known that there was almost another child. It's like you lied to me."

"No Sirius, I just didn't want to tell you because I wanted to forget it. And I planned on telling the healers about it. I just didn't want you to know because I didn't want you to be mad at me or think I was weak, and I didn't want you to worry."

Sirius looked away. Finally after a long silence Sirius got up and left the room. Everyone at the table was silent. They were either looking at her for her reaction or looking away feeling bad for her. Emily stood and left the room, and seconds later they heard the front door open and shut.