Joys of Motherhood
Chapter 8
Rating-PG
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters from 7th Heaven.
Summary: A fanfic about Lucy, Kevin, and their kids. Takes place 7 years from now.
A/N: Please read and review! I figured we've heard enough from Kevin so now we'll hear from Lucy.
Previously on 7th Heaven: "I went to the doctor's office and I'm…pre…..pregnant." Wow. "Wow. I guess number 9 is coming." "Not just number 9 but number 10 too." I sat there holding her hand not saying anything.
Told from Lucy's Point of View
Wednesday December 16th, 2011
I can't do. He seems so happy about this but I'm not. I can't do this again. I love Jenny, Adam, Hannah, Joshua, Rachel, Rebekah, Caleb, and Aaron but there is Jenny, Adam, Hannah, Joshua, Rachel, Rebekah, Caleb, and Aaron. That probably doesn't make any sense. Last Saturday Kevin was working and the kids became too much so I went to my bedroom, locked the door, and curled up in a ball against the wall opposite of the door. I could hear them crying and Jenny was banging on the door but I couldn't bring myself to get up. I guess Jenny went down the street to Mary's because the next thing I knew Mary was knocking on the door begging me to come out. I can still remember it.
Flashback
"Lucy can you open the door?" I sat there not moving knowing it was Mary. "Luce its Mary can I come in?" The door opened and I remembered that we kept a key to the bedroom doors above our door. "Oh Luce." She said when she saw me. She bent down next to me and I started to cry. I cried for an hour while my children stood at the door way wondering what was wrong. When I could cry no more tears I said, "I can't do it anymore." "You can't do what?" "I can't….Guys can you go play?" The kids nodded and headed off to the playroom. "I can't be a mom anymore." "What? You're a great mom." "Mary I locked myself in my bedroom." "Come on let's go downstairs and talk. I fix us some tea." I stood up. "Since when do you fix tea?" "Okay we'll have some coffee."
End of Flashback
She told me I needed to tell Kevin how I felt but I can't. He's so excited about the new twins but I'm not. I haven't been happy since Jenny was born. I hate being a mom. I love my kids but I can't do it any more. Some days I think about just dropping everything and leaving but I couldn't do that to them. I was happy and I want to go back to that happy time. I love Kevin and the kids.
Told from Mary's Point of View
She hasn't told him. I know she hasn't. She acts like she's happy and she puts up this fake act but she's not. I know it's not my place to tell but I don't want her to do something she'll regret. I picked up the phone. "Kevin we need to talk can you come with me to the promenade?" "Sure I guess. What about the kids?" "Carlos is here." "Okay." We hung up the phone and I headed to the promenade.
"Kevin thanks for meeting me." "Your welcome I guess." "Here let's sit down on that bench." We both sat down. "You love her right?" "Lucy? With all of my heart." "And you'd do anything for her?" "Yeah, where is this going?" "I know this isn't my place but you need to know. Last Saturday when you were at work Lucy locked herself in her room. Jenny came and got me. When I opened the door she was huddled in a ball. She cried for an hour and when we talked she said she couldn't do it anymore. She can't be a mom and she's thought about leaving because it's so much. She said she hasn't been happy since Jenny was born." "She's pregnant." "What?" "Twins and she's unhappy. Mary I have to go." He got up and left. I hope I did the right thing.
Told from Kevin's Point of View
I walked in the door and she turned around to met me. "Why didn't you tell me?" "Tell you what?" "That you're unhappy." "I….