Joys of Motherhood

Chapter 9

Rating-PG

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters from 7th Heaven.

Summary: A fanfic about Lucy, Kevin, and their kids. Takes place 7 years from now.

A/N: Please read and review!

Notes to Reviewers:

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Note to all Readers- I'm probably going to do a boy and a girl or two boys because it's really hard to find girl names in the bible. I've been looking. Actually that's what I do doing bible study instead of paying attention.

Now on with the story……

Previously on 7th Heaven: I walked in the door and she turned around to meet me. "Why didn't you tell me?" "Tell you what?" "That you're unhappy." "I….

Told from Kevin's Point of View

Wednesday December 16th, 2011

"I'm unhappy. Okay! I'm unhappy!"

"Why are you unhappy?" She slide down against the wall and pulled her knees to her chest.

"It's too much!"

"What's too much?"

"The kids! I can't be their mom anymore. I'm going to lose it Kevin! I think about leaving you and the kids almost everyday."

"You've thought about leaving us?" I ask not wanting to believe what she said. I can see her whole body shaking. All I want to do is bend down and hold her in my arms but I'm too mad to do so. She's thought about leaving me and the kids for crying out loud!

I can see the lump in her throat be swallowed as she whispers, "Yes."

I look at her and for a moment it feels like time has stopped. Like it's just me and her in this entire world. She wants to leave us. She wants to forget all about us and start over. But she can't. I need her. The kids need her. We need her. She's what keeps me waking up in the morning. We've been married for almost 9 years and my heart still beats faster when I see her. She's the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last thing when I go to sleep. She makes me crazy. I hated my job after we got married because I hated leaving her home alone, not knowing where I am or if I'm hurt. She and the kids are everything to me. But right now I hate her. I hate her for even thinking of leaving us. I hate her for wanting to. I can't even look at her. So instead of comforting her like I always do I turned and walked up the stairs to get as far away from her as I can.

A/N- I know it's short but you need to know Kevin's feelings before I turn to Lucy's point of view.

Preview-

I hate myself. I'm the worst mother in the world. Kevin can't even look at me. I want to be happy. I really do but can I be happy here?