A/N: JK Rowling owns it all. This is my first fanfic EVER so don't be too harsh, but I would love a lot of feedback!

Setting: just after the Department of Mysteries incident Tonks is now in St.Mungo's

Tonks' eyes were very heavy, but she was awake all the same. She could hear high heeled shoes walking across a hard wood floor, someone coughing, a mattress squeaking and not too far away gentle breathing as though someone were sleeping.

Tonks slowly opened her eyes and was looking at golden bubbles bunched together. She went to sit up to see where she was, but the second she did so every inch of her body was in pain, she whimpered from it, after which the gentle breathing stop and she heard footsteps hurried closer to her. A face appeared before her eyes, a very tired, unshaven face. Lupin had just come to her side and sat on the bed next to her.

"Tonks?" he said softly
"Wotcher, Remus." Tonks whispered

Lupin never took his eyes off of hers as he spoke again, this time a little louder "Ms. Dekatter, she's awake." He said with a small smile on his face.

"Where am I?" Tonks asked in a weak voice. She suddenly felt her bed being gently moved to a sitting position.
"St. Mungo's dear," said Ms. Dekatter (she was the owner of the high heeled shoes) "here you go." She handed Tonks a small mug.
Tonks sniffed the liquid inside of it and asked, "What's this?"
"Something that'll make that pain you have, feel a bit better," said Ms. Dekatter "Drink up now, Nymphadora"

Tonks sighed, and rolled her eyes at the sound of her own name."It's Tonks," said Lupin in his low raspy voice "just Tonks."
At this Tonks gave a little smirk and drank from her cup. The relief was like she had just stepped into a hot bath. Tonks put the cup down on the nightstand table beside her bed.
"You want to be finishing that or the pain will be coming back sooner" said Ms. Dekatter "I will" said Tonks as Ms. Dekatter walked away.

Tonks looked back at Lupin whose eyes seemed brighter and wet."What's wrong?" she asked"For a minute there I thought I ... we lost you." He said. He touched her hand that was at her side lightly, Tonks could tell that something was wrong.

"Is everyone alright?" Tonks asked. Something was definitely troubling Lupin and Tonks could see it now. Lupin took a deep breath and began to speak. "Some of the students from Hogwarts ended up in the hospital wing, Hermione Granger is still there I believe."
"And the Order?" Tonks interrupted.
"You are the only one that ended up in St. Mungo's." Lupin said.
"I am the worse case then eh?" Tonks said with a smile.

For the first time since she awoke Lupin's gaze turned from her, and Tonks knew what this meant. Her smile faded.
"No." she whispered, and Lupin nodded slightly.
"Who?" asked Tonks.
Lupin squeezed her hand looked at her, with tears in his eyes and whispered
"Sirius"

Tonks breath caught in her chest, it seemed as if she had forgotten how to breathe completely. Tears began to stream down her face. Lupin pulled her into his chest and kissed her head. The pain was starting to creep slowly back into her body, it hurt, Tonks had to admit that, but nothing was as painful at that moment than the piece of her heart that was breaking for her dear cousin.

Lupin released his embrace ever so slightly, and when he did Tonks only held him a little tighter. The pain didn't hurt as much with someone so close by. Tonks sobbed softly into Lupin's shoulder, she felt his hand cradle her head, then gently slide to her back, rubbing up and down trying to calm her.

Lupin slowly leaned Tonks back onto her bed and picked up the cup on her nightstand. "Drink," he set the cup in her hands, Tonks noticed his hands were shaking vaguely. "the pain is back in your body, I know you feel it" She drank, but the relief that she felt before was not the same, not as satisfying.

Tonks felt as though her tears would never stop. She looked up at Lupin, who was looking at the floor and she saw one tear fall from his face. 'How selfish I am,' she thought 'Remus loved him just as much, if not more then I did. They were best friends.' Tonks emptied her cup and set it back on the table. The silence that had penetrated the room was too much to swallow.

"Remus," she said, he looked up at her "I don't want to be here"

Lupin looked into her eyes for a moment then stood up. "I'll see what I can do" he said as he leaned over and lightly kissed her forehead, then he walked over to Ms. Dekatter.

Tonks knew that she would probably be in that bed for awhile longer, but she felt safer with Lupin there. She knew that whatever happened he wouldn't let anything happen to her.