A/N: I'm sorry I've been so slow about updating, but classes are pretty much kicking the crap out of me right now. It might be a while again before you hear from me, but I do have a ton of stuff waiting to go up, and luckily spring break is coming soon! Thanks for the reviews, I really do appreciate them.
"Your son is pretty intense sometimes, do you know that?" I ask the slab of stone.
"I love him, but sometimes he makes me nervous. The way he looks at me-I wish I could get into his head for a little while, figure out how his mind works. I used to think that I knew, but I've learned better than to assume that you understand him."
I pull my jacket a little bit tighter around me, because the winter wind is bitingly cold.
"You're the only one who loved him like I do-the only one who's ever really known him like I do. I wish you could tell me more about him. Sometimes all I can think about is how great it would be to just sit down with you and have you tell me stories about when he was a little boy-all the cute things he did, all the trouble he got himself into. He doesn't talk about his childhood you know. If I ask him he'll tell me somethings but I know it hurts him to talk about it-to talk about you.
"So I can really only imagine the kind of woman you were, beyond Lex's vague descriptions."
"I-I know you always wanted him to have a sibling-didn't want him to be alone. It sucks-I know. I understand what you did too. But you know that there's another Luthor out there and that Lex really isn't alone. I'm trying really hard to get them to spend time together. You know, sometimes I think they almost act like brothers.
"But that's not why I'm here," I look down at my hand, the diamond on my finger shining at me, "We started planning the wedding today and I realized that there is no woman on this earth that can tell me how I get ready to become a Luthor. I've put up with canceled dates and last minute receptions for four years now, but now I'm marrying that situation. And I'm not naive enough to think anything will get better. It might be worse because we'll really be living together-not that we don't pretty much do that now."
This is one of those things you don't normal discuss with your mother in law.
"I just don't know how to keep smiling through it. I know he'd never knowingly do something to make me unhappy, but I know that this isn't going to be an ideal marriage. I wish I didn't love him so much. I wish that I didn't care if I hurt him, I wish that I could just leave him and not worry about this stuff, but I'll never love some one the way I love him, and no one will ever love me like he does. I just know that some time soon dresses and flowers and cake frostings are going to turn into vows and -I don't want to break my vows to him. I don't. We've both broken promises before, but I can't break my wedding vows to him. I love him too much. He loves me too much. You know, I know you wanted him to fall in love some day. Lex says you'd like me-I hope you would. I hope you would love me. I hope that I could've thought of you as a mother. I-I never knew my mother really. I don't know if she really loved me. I mean, she left-but I know you loved your son-sons. I'm glad that Lex had that, even if it wasn't for long. There was a long time there that I don't think he'd heard the words 'I love you' in years. He does now. I make sure he does. Because Lex needs some one to love him-every one does.
"So I guess I'm really here because I want you to know that I'm going to love your son. No matter what, I'm going to love him. He'll never be alone again-I promise."