Darkness and Inspiration
Kohari: I only got 17 reviews. I feel so hated. But chapter six got the most reviews of all my chapters, so...I'll continue. I can just hear nobody shouting for joy. I don't own YGO and this is my next chapter, dedicated to...Avatar13...because...um...it was anonymous...I guess...Okay, so I couldn't remember who reviewed the most yet, and I'm too lazy to look it up!
Chapter 7
(Seto's POV)
I've been thinking about my date for a while now. It's been almost a week, and I can still feel her presence. Why do I keep wishing it could've lasted longer?
I didn't even say good-bye. All I said was "thank-you" and walked off. I can't imagine myself ever saying either phrase, but...thank you just doesn't seem appropriate for bidding your love farewell. Is she my love? I am still not sure. But she did what only one person, Mokuba, has been able to do: get me to open up and do something for her. I feel changed.
I regret that night, too. I had countless opportunities to kiss her, yes, kiss her, and I let every one of them slip by. There was one time, when we were passing an alley on the way to the mall (when it was still daytime), I wanted to pull her in it, push her lightly against the wall of the building to let her know I was just playing, and force my lips upon hers. But I couldn't. She would hate me for it, and I was afraid she'd see me as some sick, perverted, demented freak, and yell out "Rapist!" or something.
God, I want that girl so bad.
Mokuba saw it, too, as I came in. He saw that I had enjoyed every second I had spent with her, and didn't show it. How he can see past my "mask" is unknown to me. How can he see what I so expertly hide?
I remember that look on her face as we went through the mall together. Sure, jealous glares followed her from my --shudder-- fangirls, I suppose you'd call them, but she didn't care. Every time she saw something she liked, she'd let out a little happy, cute gasp, pick it up, and show it to me, trying to get me to comment.
She has her share of pride as well. She was reluctant at first to let me purchase those things for her, but when she saw I was going to get it for her whether she wanted me to or not, she sort of backed off and let me do as I wished. I had enough money to spend it lavishly on her.
Had I known this was the place she would've loved to go, I would've taken her there first. But I was frozen. I didn't know what to do. I was so used to being locked up inside my office, of my own accord, surrounded by nothing but work, that I had forgotten what fun was, and how to summon it.
That was why I thanked her. She opened up my heart, and my happiness, from its icy prison. I needed that. Mokuba knew it, too. As did Tea. They both did, more than even I knew.
I'd give almost anything to repeat that night. But, now that I think about it, she's been spending a lot more time with Yugi lately. Her smile when she's with him is just as large as when she was with me in the mall. I noticed the joyous expression on his face as well. And I can see it. They're in love. I can't take her from him, even if this feeling isn't one-sided. They belong together. Love may not pay the bills, but it's something that can't be bought and is priceless. With love, you don't care about bills.
Amazing, isn't it, how I turn my own bliss into misery? I get myself thinking to the most awesome woman in the world, and how great it was with her, and then I think about how she needs to be with someone else.
I don't deserve her, anyway. Look at what I've done to her and her friends. What I've put them through.
Even if I did manage to confess my feelings to Anzu (I know I'm switching between names), even if we did manage to start a relationship, I still couldn't hold to it. I belong in an office. The hours I work would never allow more than a few evenings together every other week or so. I couldn't put her through that.
I see Mokuba at my door. Worried for me. He doesn't know that I'm awake, I can tell by his expression. I think sometimes that he's more worried for me than I am for him. Funny how things end up like that, isn't it? Well, good-night, Mokuba. I hope my dreams are as sweet as I know yours to be.
(Tea's POV)
I can't stop thinking about that date with Kaiba. He seemed genuinely...happy (dare I say it?)...for the first time since I've seen him. That is, when you forget about that time when he got Mokuba back from Duelist Kingdom. I wonder if he actually had fun with me around. I caught a few glimpses of him out of the corner of my eye when he let me loose in Hallmark (A/N: don't own that, either), and he was smiling. As though my happiness was all he could ask for.
That's silly, Tea. He was just smirking because you looked ridiculous and he enjoyed seeing you embarass yourself.
There was a time in that store I just wanted to pull him into the cards aisle (where no one was currently) and just ask him to kiss me. I was scared he'd say no.
For some reason, I never thought much of Kaiba before then. Now, I'm starting to think maybe he's the one for me and not Yugi (A/N: please tell me who you want to end with Anzu/Tea.). I've noticed that when I'm with Yugi and the guys, it's not as...close...as it used to be. Like since the date, all of us started drifting apart.
Maybe it's because I just had a crush on Yugi. If so, I'm glad I didn't tell him how I feel. But there's something inside me that tells me that I still need to tell him.
Now that I'm thinking about it, I'm starting to feel my heart pulling in two different directions. On one hand, I'm reaching toward Yugi, who's kind, somewhat smart, and the best friend in the world to me. On the other hand, there's Kaiba. You'd think he was heartless, but if you've ever seen him with his brother, you'd know there was one, deep down, that he was protecting. Scared of getting it hurt. Reserving it only for family. I find myself wanting to be a part of that family (no, I don't mean marriage, yet!). I want him to open up to me, too.
Is that wrong? Can I possibly like two people at once? And is it bad? That I'm sort of abandoning Yugi for his rival? Oh, heart, what've you done to me? What do I do?
Maybe Mai can help. I feel certain she'll help me. And I know I have her number somewhere.
Is there something between her and Joey? Hm. She's always flirting with him, not that she doesn't flirt with every boy she sees. That's just her nature. But her flirting seems a little more...genuine...with Joey. Like she really means it. And we all know that he can't get enough of her, even if she hasn't taken the hints.
Then there's Tristin and Serenity. Or Duke and Serenity. I don't think Duke's a one-girl guy, though. More of a lady's man. You should see the number of fangirls he has at his old game shop.
Everyone but me. All of them but Yugi and I have someone to love. Should we even the odds? Make it all where no one is left out?
Nah. I feel certain he doesn't feel that way for me. Maybe one day I'll tell him. When I find out where my heart is really pointing to.
Kohari: Okay! It's over! And you survived! Congrats! You get a big cookie! --holds up gargantuan cookie twice her size and is crushed under the chocolatey weight-- Ow. Anyway, review for me, while I get this giant, delicious, non-nutritious snack off my back (RHYME!). Ow.
Kohari: I only got 17 reviews. I feel so hated. But chapter six got the most reviews of all my chapters, so...I'll continue. I can just hear nobody shouting for joy. I don't own YGO and this is my next chapter, dedicated to...Avatar13...because...um...it was anonymous...I guess...Okay, so I couldn't remember who reviewed the most yet, and I'm too lazy to look it up!
Chapter 7
(Seto's POV)
I've been thinking about my date for a while now. It's been almost a week, and I can still feel her presence. Why do I keep wishing it could've lasted longer?
I didn't even say good-bye. All I said was "thank-you" and walked off. I can't imagine myself ever saying either phrase, but...thank you just doesn't seem appropriate for bidding your love farewell. Is she my love? I am still not sure. But she did what only one person, Mokuba, has been able to do: get me to open up and do something for her. I feel changed.
I regret that night, too. I had countless opportunities to kiss her, yes, kiss her, and I let every one of them slip by. There was one time, when we were passing an alley on the way to the mall (when it was still daytime), I wanted to pull her in it, push her lightly against the wall of the building to let her know I was just playing, and force my lips upon hers. But I couldn't. She would hate me for it, and I was afraid she'd see me as some sick, perverted, demented freak, and yell out "Rapist!" or something.
God, I want that girl so bad.
Mokuba saw it, too, as I came in. He saw that I had enjoyed every second I had spent with her, and didn't show it. How he can see past my "mask" is unknown to me. How can he see what I so expertly hide?
I remember that look on her face as we went through the mall together. Sure, jealous glares followed her from my --shudder-- fangirls, I suppose you'd call them, but she didn't care. Every time she saw something she liked, she'd let out a little happy, cute gasp, pick it up, and show it to me, trying to get me to comment.
She has her share of pride as well. She was reluctant at first to let me purchase those things for her, but when she saw I was going to get it for her whether she wanted me to or not, she sort of backed off and let me do as I wished. I had enough money to spend it lavishly on her.
Had I known this was the place she would've loved to go, I would've taken her there first. But I was frozen. I didn't know what to do. I was so used to being locked up inside my office, of my own accord, surrounded by nothing but work, that I had forgotten what fun was, and how to summon it.
That was why I thanked her. She opened up my heart, and my happiness, from its icy prison. I needed that. Mokuba knew it, too. As did Tea. They both did, more than even I knew.
I'd give almost anything to repeat that night. But, now that I think about it, she's been spending a lot more time with Yugi lately. Her smile when she's with him is just as large as when she was with me in the mall. I noticed the joyous expression on his face as well. And I can see it. They're in love. I can't take her from him, even if this feeling isn't one-sided. They belong together. Love may not pay the bills, but it's something that can't be bought and is priceless. With love, you don't care about bills.
Amazing, isn't it, how I turn my own bliss into misery? I get myself thinking to the most awesome woman in the world, and how great it was with her, and then I think about how she needs to be with someone else.
I don't deserve her, anyway. Look at what I've done to her and her friends. What I've put them through.
Even if I did manage to confess my feelings to Anzu (I know I'm switching between names), even if we did manage to start a relationship, I still couldn't hold to it. I belong in an office. The hours I work would never allow more than a few evenings together every other week or so. I couldn't put her through that.
I see Mokuba at my door. Worried for me. He doesn't know that I'm awake, I can tell by his expression. I think sometimes that he's more worried for me than I am for him. Funny how things end up like that, isn't it? Well, good-night, Mokuba. I hope my dreams are as sweet as I know yours to be.
(Tea's POV)
I can't stop thinking about that date with Kaiba. He seemed genuinely...happy (dare I say it?)...for the first time since I've seen him. That is, when you forget about that time when he got Mokuba back from Duelist Kingdom. I wonder if he actually had fun with me around. I caught a few glimpses of him out of the corner of my eye when he let me loose in Hallmark (A/N: don't own that, either), and he was smiling. As though my happiness was all he could ask for.
That's silly, Tea. He was just smirking because you looked ridiculous and he enjoyed seeing you embarass yourself.
There was a time in that store I just wanted to pull him into the cards aisle (where no one was currently) and just ask him to kiss me. I was scared he'd say no.
For some reason, I never thought much of Kaiba before then. Now, I'm starting to think maybe he's the one for me and not Yugi (A/N: please tell me who you want to end with Anzu/Tea.). I've noticed that when I'm with Yugi and the guys, it's not as...close...as it used to be. Like since the date, all of us started drifting apart.
Maybe it's because I just had a crush on Yugi. If so, I'm glad I didn't tell him how I feel. But there's something inside me that tells me that I still need to tell him.
Now that I'm thinking about it, I'm starting to feel my heart pulling in two different directions. On one hand, I'm reaching toward Yugi, who's kind, somewhat smart, and the best friend in the world to me. On the other hand, there's Kaiba. You'd think he was heartless, but if you've ever seen him with his brother, you'd know there was one, deep down, that he was protecting. Scared of getting it hurt. Reserving it only for family. I find myself wanting to be a part of that family (no, I don't mean marriage, yet!). I want him to open up to me, too.
Is that wrong? Can I possibly like two people at once? And is it bad? That I'm sort of abandoning Yugi for his rival? Oh, heart, what've you done to me? What do I do?
Maybe Mai can help. I feel certain she'll help me. And I know I have her number somewhere.
Is there something between her and Joey? Hm. She's always flirting with him, not that she doesn't flirt with every boy she sees. That's just her nature. But her flirting seems a little more...genuine...with Joey. Like she really means it. And we all know that he can't get enough of her, even if she hasn't taken the hints.
Then there's Tristin and Serenity. Or Duke and Serenity. I don't think Duke's a one-girl guy, though. More of a lady's man. You should see the number of fangirls he has at his old game shop.
Everyone but me. All of them but Yugi and I have someone to love. Should we even the odds? Make it all where no one is left out?
Nah. I feel certain he doesn't feel that way for me. Maybe one day I'll tell him. When I find out where my heart is really pointing to.
Kohari: Okay! It's over! And you survived! Congrats! You get a big cookie! --holds up gargantuan cookie twice her size and is crushed under the chocolatey weight-- Ow. Anyway, review for me, while I get this giant, delicious, non-nutritious snack off my back (RHYME!). Ow.