"Lily, why did you want me to come down here to take you to your dorm? I thought I made it clear that I want nothing to do with you ," James said coolly.

"Stop it, you know damn well that that's the furthest thing from the truth. You and I both know that," Lily smiled.

"Why are you smiling? You have nothing to be happy about"

"I am happy because you came down here. That's how I know you were lying before. If you wanted absolutely nothing to do with me you wouldn't have come down here, now would you"

He smiled. He hated when she did this to him, yet he loved it at the same time. Once again she had tricked him, and worse, he had fallen head over heels enough for her once again to let her trick him. "Alright," James smiled. "You caught me. I did come down here to see you and be with you. But is that so bad?" He then let a full smile flash right across his face.

She got up and walked over to where he was standing by the door. "No, it's not all that bad to tell you the truth." She returned the smile towards him and grabbed his hand. They walked hand in hand all the way back to her dorm.

"I'm sorry, James," Lily whispered as he opened the door to her dormitory.

"For what?" James asked looking confused.

"For everything." The smile finally disappeared from her face. "But mostly because I wanna be with you but can't be"

"I don't understand, Lily. What are you talking about? You can't be with me? Of course you can." You could tell by the sound of his voice that he was really confused. What in the bloody hell is she talking about?

"I can't James. It's our seventh year at Hogwarts, I've wanted to be with you since the first time I saw your face. I still remember exactly how I felt, my heart wouldn't stop thumping. I didn't even know what I was feeling back then, but now I know and I can't put the feeling aside. But I also can't cave into it. I'm sorry"

"Lily, now you're really not making any sense. You just said that you wanted to be with me since the first time you saw me, yet you can't be with me? Is that right?" You could easily tell that James was getting agitated by the sound of his voice.

"James, please stop it. This is hard enough on me already, please don't make it any harder"

"No, no Lily, you stop it. You're making no sense at all. You wanna be with me but can't be, that's crazy talk. Lily, here we go again. I'm trying so very hard to understand but it's just not working."

"I can't tell you why, James." She wanted nothing more than to continue but the tears in her eyes were stopping her. She turned away from James and walked into her dormitory. I'm safe here. Here I don't have to tell James the awful truth of why I can't be with him. The truth I've been hiding for the past two years. She had a feeling that even the dorm wouldn't stop James from coming in, but she somehow put that feeling aside, got undressed, and took a nice warm shower. When she got out of the shower she let her hair fall from the towel. It was long, almost touching her butt, and red. James had always loved her hair. He had always loved her. But would he still love her after he knows the awful truth? She looked at herself in the mirror for a couple of minutes. "I have to tell him, I have to," she said to herself. She pulled her hair back into the towel until it was a little drier. She put on a pair of jeans and a tee-shirt, since she didn't have any classes she didn't have to be in robes. She untucked her hair from the towel once again. Then she decided to pull it in to a ponytail so that she wouldn't waste any more time getting to James. Having done all that, she set out down the corridor to find James. She found him in the last place she though she'd ever find him, the library. Wow, is he hurting that bad? He never spends his time in the library. She slowly walked up behind him, without him realizing she was there, then she whispered in his ear, "James Potter, I love you"

He knew it was Lily, there was no doubt in his mind about that. What he did doubt was what just came out of her mouth. He turned around to face her, then shakily said, "You love me"

She knew exactly where he was coming from. She knew his thoughts. 'How could she love me and treat me this way at the same time?' She knew that feeling, but she wasn't sure how to tell him the truth. "James, I do love you, but I'm not sure you'll love me after I tell you what I need to tell you. The reason why we can't be together. It's a secret that I've been keeping for two years. I keep it from everyone. Nobody except me, my family, and the faculty here know the truth. I'm sick James. I'm very sick, but the thing is, the doctors aren't sure of exactly what's wrong with me. That's why we can't be together, because I won't be here much longer. The doctors estimate that I only have till graduation, if I'm lucky. I can't bring you into my life now. This was meant to happen. Every time I think back things just make more sense to me. Maybe this is why we never admitted our feelings for one another, cause it wouldn't have mattered anyway. I'm so sorry James, I know I just sprang this on you, but you thought I didn't love you, and that is the furthest thing from the truth."

He sat there motionless, not able to talk. All he felt he was able to do was cry, and he did. The tears just rolled down his face. For the first time ever, Lily had witnessed James Potter crying. She embraced him in a tight hug. He put his arms around her trying to comfort her and himself at the same time. He wanted to be there for her, but he couldn't do it without breaking down. He tried to speak, but the only words he managed to get out were, "I love you Lily, I always will"

They cried on each other's shoulders for a couple minutes longer. Then, finally, everything that had just happened made sense in James' brain. He finally comprehended. "No," he cried. "I can't lose you. I can't lose you, Lily, I can't"

Lily pulled a firmer grip on him and said, "Everything is going to be okay. James Potter, I love you. Don't you ever forget that. You hear me? Never forget that. I will always love you and always be with you."

"Lily, I love you too." He pulled her even closer to him. He let a few more tears fall onto her shoulder.

Later that day they were still together. He hadn't left her side since the moment he found out. They didn't go to the Great Hall for dinner that night. Instead, they laid in each other's arms for the rest of the night.

At around ten thirty, Raven finally came into the dormitory. She looked towards Lily and then James. They've been crying. What's wrong? "Guys, are you okay? Is something wrong? What happened," she blurted out.

Lily straightened up, not even realizing Raven had come in. She wiped her face really quickly, then looked at James. "Nothing, nothing at all is wrong. We just finally decided to tell each other how we really feel. It's no reason to be crying, it's really stupid. I mean really, there's people out there dying. Shouldn't we be crying for them instead of something stupid like love?" She stopped, realizing that she had just classifying herself as one of those people that they were in fact crying for. She once again felt a tear rolling down her face and then felt James' finger as he quickly wiped it away.

"Remember, Lily, everything is going to be okay. It's going to be okay," James said trying to comfort her.

She grabbed his hand and held it tightly in hers. "I believe you," she said through tears.

James couldn't help but think, you believe me, now if only I could believe myself! Raven looked back and forth from each of their crying faces. "I don't understand," she said finally, "What is going on?" When neither of them answered her, she went to the door, opened it, and said, "I will find out," before leaving the dorm room.

After making sure Raven was gone from listening distance, Lily turned to James and said, "No, she won't. Nobody will find this out. They can't! I'm not the kinda person who tells news like this to people. I don't want pity. You have to promise me you won't tell anyone. Please promise me that"

"Lily, I'll do whatever you need or want me to do, even if I don't agree with it, so yes, I promise. I won't speak a word of this to anybody. But I do think that you should tell Raven and Torey, you shouldn't have to go through this alone," James replied.

She pushed herself closer up against his warm body. Then looked deep into his hazel eyes and said, "I have the strength and support I need right here in the bed with me. You're the only person I need to help me through this. I'm not doing it alone as long as you're here." She slightly smiled at him.

He gave her a shy smile and then kissed her lips softly.

She stated to cry again. He caught her tears with a kiss. He held her tight against him. He loved her being in his arms, and she loved being in his arms. They were the perfect pair. They belonged together, but they both knew that it wouldn't last much longer.

The next couple of weeks went by the same way. Raven and Torey, and Sirius and Remus, and even Peter, were trying to figure out what was going on between Lily and James, but they didn't push for answers. The season was changing to spring in England. Everyone was sad because this was there last spring they'd see at Hogwarts, but Lily and James were sad because this was the last spring Lily would ever see.

That afternoon was the worst ever. It was the 26th of march, only 5 weeks before graduation. Lily and James spent their morning having some "fun" in the dorm. That afternoon though, Lily went missing, she was simply no where to be found. James sat crying in the Gryffindor common room for the remainder of the day. This was it. I've lost her. She's gone, she's really gone. I should go talk to Dumbledore, but I can't bring myself to say it, is Lily Evans dead?