Lily got off of the Hogwarts Express, Platform 9 ¾, at about 2 o'clock that afternoon. She felt horrible that nobody except the professors and Dumbledore knew where she was. And she felt even worse when she thought of how she just left James, not knowing where she was. She could only think that their were only five weeks till graduation. She got told by her doctor that she might not make it until graduation. If this was true was today the last time she'd ever see James Potter? She didn't even say good-bye to him before she left to get on the train. Am I ever gonna get to see him, hold him, or tell him I love him ever again? Why this? Why now? Why me?

She slowly walked through the barrier to where her parents were supposed to be waiting for her. She could feel herself getting weaker. She was mad at everyone and everything. I wish this wasn't happening to me. At least not now. Not when I just found love.

She saw her mom waiting with open arms for her, she tried to run to her, but she felt weak. I hate days like these. Why am I fine one day and the next I have no strength?

She regained her strength then slowly walked to her mom and dad. For once, when she saw her older sister Petunia, she was happy.

"Oh, honey," her mother cried. "We're so sorry that you had to come home. We know how badly you want to graduate from Hogwarts, I'm so sorry that you can't"

"Mom, stop," Lily said calmly. "I haven't given up, not yet. We have to talk to the doctor one final time, or so he says. Maybe things are different, maybe there's been a change." She finished sounding hopeful, but knowing that what she said might happen was very unlikely.

"Angel," her dad started, "You know what is happening to you. There is a lot of weight against you, but not all that much for you"

She felt tears coming from her eyes, but she fought them back. "You're wrong," she said quietly. "You don't understand, I have way too much to live for. I have to graduate as top of my class, just as I had planned before I found out I was sick. Besides, I have you guys. I can't let you down. I have to wait until tomorrow. I can't stop thinking positive"

Petunia tried to help her sister out by saying, "I think Lily should look at the positive. Maybe there will be some freak chance she'll pull through." Petunia put her arm around Lily, then finished, "Now let's go home"

Lily tried to let a smile come to her face, but it just wouldn't. She pulled her sister tight in a hug and finally let the tears fall from her eyes. "Thanks sis, at least somebody gets what I'm trying to say"

They put their arms around one another and walked out of the train station. When they finally got to her house was when reality finally set in. This was probably the last time she'd be returning home from Hogwarts, hell it was probably the last time for a lot of things.

They went into the house, her father carrying all her things. He didn't even let her carry her owl, which she'd need immediately. She went straight to her room and closed the door. Her owl was already in her room. Her father must have realized she needed it urgently. She went over to her bed and sat down, she was going to take a little nap before she wrote to James, because she really needed to clear her head. I need to write to him because he's gonna think the worst has happened. James is going to think I died. I didn't die, I'm not going to fuckin die. I can't lose everything I finally have with him. I can't, I refuse to! "I need to write to him," she said to herself. "He needs to know I'm alive and I'm going to be okay. But how do I tell him I'm okay when we both know I'm not?" Tears began to once again flow from her eyes.