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"Raven, have you seen Lily at all in the last couple of days?" Torey asked looking worried. She walked over and sat next to her sister on the four-poster bed.

"No," she said, her voice shaking. "Not since she went to the hospital wing on Tuesday. That was the last time I've seen her. She said she wasn't feeling well and she was going to see Madame Pomphrey. Come to think of it, she didn't look to good. She looked extremely pale."

James walked into the dorm at that exact second. The past couple of days had been so rough on him. So around Lily's friend he was at least trying to act as if nothing was wrong. After hearing that comment from Raven, he was forced to think back to his conversation with Dumbledore a couple days earlier.

… James slowly walked into Dumbledore's office to a non-smiling professor looking back at him.

"Mr. Potter, I know why you are here, but I cannot give you any information about Ms. Evans. Please understand that. It was not her wish for anyone to know where she is, or why she is there." Dumbledore pushed his chair away from his desk and stood up. He pulled on his beard for a few seconds then walked towards James. He then closed the statement without letting James get in a word. "James, you need to understand. Lily would have said good-bye to you, but she was not able to. That's the only thing I can tell you right now. Now please, don't make this any harder on yourself. Don't jump to any conclusions. Don't think about her all the time, give yourself time to clear your thoughts. Now, please go get some sleep."

"Professor, you don't understand. Lily is not the easiest thing to get out of my mind. I love her, but now I don't know if she's dead or alive," he finished as he walked out of his office…

"James," Torey finally said. "Are you okay? You've been staring into space for the past five minutes now. What's wrong? Do you know something about Lily that we don't?"

That was the final thing James could take. Everyone was asking him about Lily all week, and he had handled it pretty well, but he couldn't lie to her two best friends anymore. If she hated him for this, so be it, but he had to tell Raven and Torey. The tears welled up in his eyes as he tried to bring the words out in the open among the three of them in the common room. "Umm… I don't know where Lily is, but what I do know is that she won't be coming back." The tears now poured down the side of his face. He couldn't help it any longer. These were tears he had waited to cry since Tuesday night after talking to Dumbledore. It was now Monday, almost a week later. And he couldn't deal with it anymore. He didn't care if Raven and Torey saw him crying. He loves Lily, and the truth was, he was never gonna see her again. Never smell her hair, never see her beautiful green eyes, never hear her voice, and never hold her. Not ever again.

"What do you mean? She's not coming back? Where is she? Graduation is less than four weeks away, she has to plan her speech. She is still giving her speech isn't she?" Raven's voice started to crack as she realized he was crying. "James, where's Lily? Why won't she be coming back? What do you know about Lily that we don't? Tell us, please."

"She's… She's… Lily's… umm…" he couldn't seem to find the words to say. I don't know for sure that she's dead, so I can't say that she is. But can I say that she's only sick? Would that get the point across? "Lily's sick."

"James, what do you mean, she sick?" Torey's voice was sounding kinda hazy. "You mean she has like the flu and won't be feeling up to coming back before graduation? That's what you mean, right James?"

What do I say, yes or no? Lily's one wish was that I didn't tell anyone… but these are her two best friends. God, what do I do? "Yes, she has a really bad case of the flu, a really bad case. She won't be back before graduation. I'm sorry I got so emotional, it's just I can't seem to grasp the fact that we are going to graduate from Hogwarts without Lily Evans sitting next to us." He grabbed a tissue from the nightstand and wiped his eyes. "I'm sorry, but I have to go. I need to do some last minute make-ups in order for me to graduate from here as top of the class, head boy." He threw the tissue in the trashcan and then walked out of the dorm.

The girls sat there watching his every move, his every stumble of words, his every facial expression. They knew he had not told them the truth. Where was Lily at, and why was it upsetting James so much?

They finally decided that maybe it was better to just leave the situation alone. Maybe there was a reason James had told them what he had instead of the truth. Maybe they shouldn't meddle in his business. Maybe the truth was more than they can imagine or handle.