Hey guys!!! Thanx for the reviews, you're the best! Caroliscool – Seth, Sum, Ryan and Marissa are gonna stay together in about 2 chapters. In fanfic time it's a week from this chapter.

Disclaimer : The O.C. is not mine. I repeat. The O.C. is NOT mine.

Chapter 5 – Hidden Feelings

Saturday came. Cohens were busy – they had to get ready for the charity event. Male part of the family hated these kind of events, but when you're part of Orange County you just have to attend them. And Cohens had this particular reason for it, since Kirsten was the daughter of the most powerful man in Newport. Sandy got used to their society obligations and Ryan wanted to go just because Marissa was the head of the whole organization, but Seth couldn't accept it. As soon as he opened his eyes he started complaining. He was really annoying this morning and his family couldn't understand what is wrong with him. They've been on so many events like this before, but today he just couldn't stop talking about what's waiting for them tonight. And his comments weren't even sarcastic or funny. He looked like he's angry because they have to go.

Later that afternoon Ryan finally asked him

"Dude, why don't you just stay at home."

Seth glared at him like he was crazy.

"No, I'm going."

"You're acting really strange, you know."

"I just don't see the point of it, that's all. But I'll go."

"Ok then, but can't you just stop being so annoying. You started complaining when you woke up. And I'm sorry, but I think that your Cohen edge doesn't work well today. You kinda lost it. Your sense of humour, I mean."

"I know what you mean." Seth answered clearly annoyed and turned around.

"Seth, don't be like that. What's wrong with you? I hardly recognize you. And you don't even talk anymore, I'm doing all the talk and that's just... weird." Ryan finished.

"Sorry. I don't feel like talking right now. I have to go get dressed, we should be going soon."

And he left to leaving Ryan confused once again. As soon as he entered his room he jumped on his bed and took Captain Oats looking at him.

"Captain Oats... what should I do? We're going to this stupid event and as much as I hate it I can't not go, cause Summer will be there. And I want to see her and I don't at the same time. I act like an idiot around her and I know that Ryan is right – I'm losing my edge and that's just like I'm losing myself. I mean – that's who I am – Seth Cohen, geek-emo kid with a great sense of sarcasm. Then again when I lost Summer I lost a part of myself too. And it was a huge part. And I know that she doesn't want me back, but I guess that I'll have to try to make up with her, cause I really can't stand it anymore. The life without her doesn't make much sense."

Seth sighed and looked back to Captain Oats. He smiled weakly.

"Oh, well, it was nice talking to you..." he added and put him down, standing up and starting to get dressed.

The party was already heating when they arrived. Marissa greated them.

"Hi. I'm so glad you came."

"Well, we wouldn't miss it." Kirsten answered.

They joined the crowd and Seth and Ryan went away from Sandy and Kirsten, who moved to say hello to Caleb and Julie. Ryan was looking at Marissa who was talking to some girl at the moment and Seth was just looking around.

"Looking for someone?" Ryan asked as he turned to him.

"No." Seth answered simply.

"Ok, let's put it this way – looking for Summer?"

Seth looked back at him.

"No."

"Whatever." Ryan decided to drop it. God, he's in such a lovely mood... Wait. Have I just thought something sarcastic? I'm spending too much time with Seth... "Seth, you wouldn't mind if I..." he pointed towards Marissa.

"Go ahead." Seth said and as Ryan turned and went to Marissa he continued looking around.

Where is she? I'm sure that she wouldn't miss something like this. He smiled. Of course not, she's a true Newport Princess, these events are like air to her – she can't live without them. And then he spotted her.

Summer was across the room and she looked stunning. She was looking at the crowd as well and seemed to be a little bit tensed.

Did he come? I can't believe I'm still doing it. I'm still thinking about Cohen and now I'm waiting for him to show up and I just can't control it anymore. And I can't stand myself being so weak. I can't resist him. Maybe I should just give up and admit it. She suddenly felt scared. Admit what Summer? That you love him?... Love? Is that it? But it can't be, he left me. She started to feel anger rising inside her. He didn't care about me at all. He just thought that he cares, but as soon as Ryan left he left too, not thinking about me, leaving me all alone... What guy that cares about his girlfriend does that? And what girl can forget him and forgive him, that-that-that asshole? The girl in love... Oh no... I am in love. I'm falling into Cohen. And with that thought she looked straight across the room. And there he was. Staring back at her. Butterflies ... look away, just look away. But I can't. I won't. Oh, yes, you will, Sum. What is wrong with you? I'm in love. She glanced away.

She's so beautiful. And she's looking at me. I must be looking really dumb right now. You're staring Cohen. What is she thinking? And she keeps looking at me. Confidence Cohen. Yeah, Anna was the one who kept telling me that. She was great... I'm thinking of Anna while Summer is looking at me. What is wrong with me? So, confidence. I got it. It'll be ok. Be a man Seth. You can do it!

And he took a deep breath and slowly walked to her. She was turned so he was slightly behind her, but she felt him. Just be cool Sum. You can do it. It's just Cohen. And he's right behind you at this very moment. Just don't panic...

"Hey Summer." He softly said and she turned back.

"Cohen." She tried to sound normal.

"As you can see I came."

"Yeah. Good for you."

"Oh, you've been waiting for me?"

"Oh, please." She turned around again to get her drink off the table.

He came really close and she could feel his warm breath on her ear. Cohen...

"I know you have." He whispered and walked away. He headed to the door of the other room and turned around to look if she's been looking. She was. He smiled weakly and disappeared behind the door.

Summer, stay here and calm yourself. Don't pay attention. And certainly don't follow Cohen. What does he think? That I'll just jump and go after him because he said so? He's an idiot who ruined my summer and broke my heart. He can't expect that from me, he doesn't have right to expect that. But he'll see.

She put down her drink and went towards those door.

"Cohen..." she said as she entered.

The room was empty, the only person inside was Seth. He was turned from her and when she entered he turned around to face her.

"I knew that you wouldn't resist." He grinned.

"You're an idiot Cohen." She was trying to hide her smile. "I only came to say what I think of you."

"And what do you think of me?" He said softly still smiling.

Come on Summer. He looks so adorable... Ignore him. Don't look at him. She broke the eye contact for a moment, but then she looked back as she began to talk.

"I think that you're a self-absorbed jerk who dared to think that I'll come here after all the things that happened."

"Well, I was right."

That smile...

"I also think that you didn't care about me at all. You just wanted to push us all out of your little precious world, since Ryan left and noone was like him. Your best friend, your big brother left you and you just left too. That was fuckin awesome Seth. It really was." She felt her tears in the corners of her eyes. Don't cry Summer, he's not woth it.

Seth came closer to her as she was speaking. I didn't know that she feels like this. Well, I knew, but I didn't know that it was this bad. I'm an idiot, I know that without her telling me. But I still love her. Doesn't that count? He tried to hug her, but she pulled away.

"Don't touch me Seth. You don't have that right. You lost it when you replaced me with your "Summer Breeze"."

He didn't know what to say.

"I didn't mean to hurt you. God knows I loved you my whole life..."

"Don't give me that." Summer didn't let him to finish "You was just a little boy who liked a cute girl. You didn't know me. You didn't know what love is. You still don't."

"Oh, and you do?" He practically yelled. She was silent and he continued. "Why don't you just admit it. You still care about me. Why do you hide it?"

"Have you been listening at all?" She tried to look angry, but her voice didn't listen. She sounded hurt, discovered, vulnerable.

"Of course. And every little part of your speech confirms it." He said in a low voice and moved even closer to her. She could feel his breath, smell him. She didn't move.

I missed this... I missed you Cohen...

"Summer..." He whispered and leaned to kiss her. Slowly at first, but then with more intensity and she responded, she kissed him back. He pulled his arms around her and she played with his curly hair. He felt his heart jumping a little and he deepened the kiss.

I love you Sum. I missed you so much. I realize that now.

This is right. I needed this. Me and Cohen – we're one. Wait! Cohen?

She pulled back and shot him a look.

"This is not right."

"Sum... of course it is. You kissed me back. You want me."

"No, I don't. Don't you ever kiss me again. You can't change what happened. And you can't change me. And I'm not gonna forget or forgive you. So, just get away from me." Her tears were pouring out now and she turned around. I can't look at him anymore. How can I be so weak and stupid to let him do this to me?

"Ok. I'll do it. I won't bother you anymore. Just please, stop crying. It hurts." He responded.

"It hurts? Seth, you don't know how it hurt... so don't tell me. I hate you for that." She glared at him and ran out of the room.

Seth looked at the door. He was crushed.

A/N – I know it was a little pathetic (for my taste at least) in the end, but I felt like it. It's still early for them to get back together. I hope you liked it. Review and keep reading please!!!!!!!!