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Chapter 15 – Failure

Seth looked at the window. Captain Oats was laying in his hands peacefully.

"Anna is not gonna leave me alone." He said turning to Ryan.

"You have a hard life, Seth." Ryan shook his head and smiled.

"I hate your sarcasm... Who tought you that?" Seth asked. Ryan gave him a look. "Oh, yeah, right... damn... But you never tought me how to make those looks of yours."

"It's not something that you learn." Ryan grinned.

"Please, stop grinning. It's scary and it's not helping right now."

"So, Anna is not gonna leave you. Who cares?" Ryan shrugged. "You should make up with Sum and not pay attention to Anna."

"How am I supposed to do that? She's staying in Newport. And she'll be all over me." Seth said sadly.

"You know that sounds nothing like Anna." Ryan said. "What happened?"

"I know. She changed so much. I don't like this new Anna. She used to be so sweet. She used to be my best friend... Well, after you of course. She used to be female Seth Cohen. I know that sounds scary, but I loved female Seth Cohen."

"Of course." Ryan rolled his eyes.

"I just don't know what to do now." Seth said and looked at Ryan. "Maybe I should go see Summer."

"She doesn't want to see you ever again remember?" Ryan said "Although maybe it's not such a bad idea."

"How did it go with her rage blackouts?" Seth asked a little bit afraid. Summer rage blackouts were something everyone were happy to miss. He was the only person who loved them despite all the fear he experienced during them.

"It was strange. There was no rage blackouts. For the first time in Summer's life, I'm positive." Ryan said. "There was just crying. Endless crying. Marissa and I was really worried."

Seth was quiet. Summer was hurt and it was all his fault. Ryan was right, he kept hurting Summer, the girl he loved more then anything. She had every right to hate him and for the first time he thought that maybe staying away from her would be the perfect thing to do. To save her from all the suffer he caused and maybe could cause. Hell, he hated himself for doing that to Summer. He failed her and he failed himself.

"Marissa!"

Marissa turned around.

"Anna." She said looking at Anna who came to her.

"I'm so glad to see you. Did Seth tell you I came back?" she asked cheerfully. "First day in Harbour High. Again." She laughed a little.

Marissa looked at her and kept walking to her class glancing away.

"I heard." She said shortly. How can she talk to me?

"I'm so glad I'm back. This will be great!" Anna continued.

Marissa couldn't stand it anymore. She stopped and looked at her.

"How can you say something like that? We all know why you came back. You must be really happy, you've just showed and you broke Summer and Seth apart. Good job Anna." She gave her fake smile. "I just hope you don't expect Seth run back into your arms. Cause that's just not gonna happen." Marissa shook her head. "He won't stop loving Summer. Not in this life." She smiled and started walking away.

"We'll see Marissa." Anna said still smiling. "We'll see." She repeated to herself.

"Urgh... I hate her. I can't believe I hate her..." Marissa said sitting next to Ryan and putting her lunch down.

"You hate who?" Seth asked playing with the food in his plate.

"Your precious little best friend Anna." Marissa answered angrily.

"Ex-best friend." Seth corrected her.

"As long as it's ex. How can she be such a bitch? She's nothing like Anna." Marissa said unbelievingly. Ryan nodded and glanced at Seth.

"Yes, we all know that, thank you." Seth sighed.

"What happened?" Marissa asked.

"How did she put it?... Oh, yes, 'She recovered her confidence'... And to think that she tought me about confidence..." he shook his head.

"Well, you have to do something about it." Marissa said.

"Like what?"

"Like talk to Summer."

"You're kidding right? I don't have a death wish, but, hey, thanks." Seth laughed and looked at her.

"You have to talk to her. Anna lost her mind. She wants you no matter what. I told her you love Summer and she was just smiling. She scared me a little, you know." Marissa said giving him a look. Ryan put his arm on her shoulder and nodded.

"I agree with Rissa." He said.

"Of course, you two have same brain now." Seth said. "Ok, I have to talk to Sum, I'm just afraid that she'll not want to listen to me." He sighed.

Seth walked to Summer's house. He still wasn't sure if this was a good idea. He hesitated for a moment and knocked. He waited, but no one answered. The door were open and he walked in. It was so quiet. He went upstairs and knocked on Summer's door. He went in slowly and spotted Summer. She sat on her bed staring at on spot. Actually he found her just like Marissa found her a couple of days before. And yeah, it was scary. Seth understood what Marissa and Ryan were saying. This was worse then a rage blackout. He went to her.

"Summer…" he said softly and took her chin making her look at him. Once she met his eyes she started to cry. "Summer… please don't cry, I'm not worth it." He said hugging her. She pushed him away.

"You're damn right you're not." She snapped angrily and continued crying harder. "I thought I told you I don't want to see you ever again."

"You did, but I just can't stand not see you ever again." He said looking into her eyes. "I love you more then anything."

"I don't believe you. Anna came and you ran to her. We're done. I don't want to have anything with you. You keep hurting me and I don't want any more pain. I suffered too much because of you... I can't believe I'm still talking to you." She tried to laugh but she just couldn't stop crying. "Just go away."

"I won't. I don't want to loose you."

"Too late. Go to Anna."

"Screw Anna..."

"I know you would."

"Come on, you honestly don't believe it."

"Actually, Seth, I do. You wouldn't kiss her if you had loved me. If you had truly loved me. You keep telling that yourself, but you don't. I can't find another explanation for what you did."

"Me neither, but I know that I don't love Anna. I'm not with her now, I'm with you. Doesn't that count?"

"It doesn't. How can I be sure that you'll be here tomorrow?"

"You can't. But I am. I know how much I love you. I know that I can't live without you. I know that I failed you and it hurts me too, failing you meant failing myself and there is no worse feeling then that. I hurt the person I love the most. I love you more then life, Summer. I really do." He looked her in the eyes desperately. He didn't know what to do to make her trust him.

She stared at him. His words were amazing and she knew he was serious. He meant it, she saw it in his eyes. There was some special connection between them, they'll look each other in the eyes and see everything. And now, she saw pure love in his eyes.

"You love me?" she asked still sobbing a little.

He reached to her face and wiped her tears.

"Of course, with all my heart." Seth smiled.

"Oh, Cohen. I think nothing matters as long as you love me. We suffered too much." She laughed weakly and kissed him.

He kissed her back feeling his heart skip a little. He put his hand on her cheek while she played with his hair. He pulled away and just looked at her in silence.

"I just want to look at you." He said quietly. She smiled.

"I think you'll have a lot of time for that now." She said and paused. "I love you too."

A/N – Hey guys! I'm sorry, but I couldn't not forgive Seth. I hope you liked it... We still have some unfinished Anna issues, I know... lol... I have to see what I'm gonna do with her. I think there will be just one more chapter, where I'll solve everything, I just have to figure out how. Thanks for all the great reviews. Keep reading and keep reviewing!