Disclaimer: Just read the last chapters and stop bugging me
August 6th
Dear Diary,
You owe this entry entirely to Rouge. In fact, you owe the rest of your existence to her. The last time I wrote I said I was stopping because I didn't like reliving memories. Well, that isn't exactly true. It's because I couldn't take just filing away what I had done and then forgetting all about it. So I thought not writing would be the solution. That was until Rogue stepped in. You could say she kicked my butt for ignoring something that might help me. She said that lots of students couldn't control their powers and they too have had accidents. But the school lived through it, and it was not only stupid but pointless for me to keep on it. Now I wasn't in the mood for a lecture, I could kick myself for this, so I told her that she couldn't talk, she was the one who always complained because of the isolation her powers caused her. I know that was harsh and like I said I could have kicked myself.
After she left though, I got to thinking. She was right of course, I mean the entire school has had accidents like this before, and lived through them unscathed. People went back to living life normally, or as normal as they could in a mutant school. That's when it hit me. The reason I felt so guilty is because when I admitted it to myself, I knew I was the one causing the trouble. I mean subconsciously I did. And I knew Rouge was right. As the school's history has shown you should accept what happened and learn from your mistakes. Now don't get me wrong I still feel guilty about it, but its time I moved on, and learned.
August 7th
Dear diary,
Hey, again. Just so you know I did tell Rouge I was sorry later and I took her advice to heart. She could tell I was being sincere too. Anyway life at the mansion hasn't changed much since the accident. I mean kids still look at me strangely but most of us have accepted it and move on. Isn't acceptance such a strange concept? Anyway I don't want you getting the idea that I've felt guilty for six months, I mean I have but I haven't. I mean it didn't push me over any deep ends and it wasn't in my thoughts the whole time. No, it was just that I carried it as a sign that I was dangerous, at least my mutation was. You could say I accepted the situation as it was but it wasn't total acceptance, it's kind of hard to explain.
Alright, I am making this solemn promise. No longer will I talk about the accident. It happened and I feel bad for what I did, but I've learned from my mistake and with the support of everyone else I'm going to learn to control it and make sure it doesn't happen again. There I've said my piece.
So now I need to tell you what's been happening at the school. Oh, looks like I'll have to do it later. It's lights out.
August 9th
Dear Diary,
Writing for me must be some kind of bad omen. I mean after I start writing something happens. Don't worry it's nothing major; it's just a strange occurrence. Turns out that Mr. Logan skipped town, so to speak, last night. It's weird though (not him leaving he's done that before) that he didn't say goodbye to anyone, most of all Rouge. You'd think he would say something to her or the Professor. I mean they know him best.