"Show yourself, Kikyou! I know you're there!" Inuyasha yelled towards the forest. Suddenly a girl who bore a striking resemblance to Kagome appeared, being brought down by her soul-collectors.
"Why are you spending so much time with that slut, Kagome, Inubaby?" Kikyou said, as she used her finger to pull his chin up to look in her cold, dead eyes.
"Kagome ..is not.. a slut," Inuyasha said between clenched teeth. He vowed never to hurt Kikyou, but she was making it extremely difficult. His hands were balled into fists to the side of him, and it took all his strength not to punch her for calling Kagome something so vile, that she obviously wasn't.
"Honey, I know it's hard not to want her, because she looks so much like me… but I'm the real thing babe," she said, and shoved her mouth onto his, without permission, and shoved her tongue in his mouth. Memories flashed back to him of what things used to be like with her, and the love he thought he had felt, and he hesitated to pull away. But not fast enough.
"Wha-"a small voice said from behind him, and before he could chase her, Kagome ran at full speed the other way. Before she had turned around, he could smell the faint smell of salt. Tears. She was crying.
"Fuck, Kikyou! You bitch!" Inuyasha said, and spit in her face.
"You may be angry now, but what were you thinking before you pulled away?" Kikyou said with a smile, and her soul collectors carried her away, her evil laugh echoing throughout the woods.
"You..are such an asshole, Inuyasha," Sango said from behind him. He hadn't seen her come up with Kagome, but she had seen the whole thing.
"Sango, you have to believe me, she appeared out of nowhere! How was I supposed to know that she was going to show up?" Inuyasha cried out as Sango walked away, a look of disgust on her face.
Inuyasha knew he had screwed up, so he headed towards the Bone Eater's Well, where he knew Kagome would be going. He could sense her, so he bounded as quickly as his hanyou form would allow, but it was too late. He saw the last strands of her black hair swish through the well before he had a chance to stop her.
"Dammit Kagome!" he shouted, and birds flew out of the trees at the sudden loud noise. He couldn't very well go and get her now, she would just 'sit' him a million times. The smell of tears was strong here, so he knew she was crying hard.
Why am I so stupid? I never mean to hurt her, but I'm not at a point where I want to choose… Kikyo is my past, I owe her my life, but Kagome.. She is happiness.. smiles.. flowers.. Kami, what do I do?
Inuyasha plopped down next to the well, and waited for the right time to go get Kagome.
Why am I so stupid? I knew he loved her, but I'm still hurt that he acts on it.. Gods, I'm pathetic, Kagome thought, as she ran up the stairs to her bedroom. She shut the door quietly and threw her backpack on the floor, not caring where it landed. The flap opened, revealing her journal. Nothing better to do, Kagome walked over to her backpack and retrieved the journal, and opened it up to the first day.
Dear Journal,
I have decided to start this journal to track what youkai the group kills, and how close we are getting to Naraku. So far, we aren't very far, but it's good to have hope! Inuyasha is being his childish self right now, and he just thumped Shippou for drawing a pretty weird looking drawing of Inuyasha. Will things ever change? Tomorrow we are..
Kagome stopped reading the entry, and flipped towards the back of the journal. Over time, it became a more personal journal, that she wrote in at night while the others were sleeping in the hut, or in their sleeping bags. One time she caught Inuyasha trying to read over her shoulder, and she had sat him twice in a row. She didn't want anyone reading this. She flipped to a page with very smeared writing, and it brought Kagome back to the time she had cried while she was writing.
Dear Journal,
Right now, I am sitting and writing by the fire. We have killed 2 youkai today, and I can sense more jewel shards. Hopefully we can find them by the end of the day tomorrow, I hate fighting at night. Koga came by earlier today, and asked me to be his mate, again. I feel horrible letting him down, but it's pretty obvious to everyone except him that I am in love with Inuyasha. He got really mad and unsheathed his sword when Koga tried to hold my hand. Sometimes.. I think he may have feelings for me.. But then.. Things like this happen. I was feeling really good, but then I saw them. Her soul collectors. He went to see her about 15 minutes ago. Gods, how I hate being second best. Well, I'm going to bed. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
Kagome smiled sadly as she remembered how horrible she had felt when Inuyasha had left that night. He looked at her with guilty eyes, and she had just turned her back to him. I just wish he could see how I feel sometimes… and with that thought, Kagome fell asleep on her plush carpet.
It was a few hours later, and Inuyasha had been sitting in the God Tree for about a half hour. He had smelt her tears while she was reading some weird looking book he had seen in her bag before, but he knew it wasn't time to go see her. Moments later, she was sleeping soundly on the carpet. Cursing under his breath because she looked so uncomfortable on the carpet, Inuyasha jumped out of the tree, and climbed into her window, and sat on her bed for a few moments, just watching her sleep.
She's so beautiful.. But I can't.. I can't let myself give in. I won't let myself fall in love with a human, like my father did. And I don't want to disgrace Kagome, by making her spend the rest of her life with a filthy half breed. Inuyasha sighed as she stirred in her sleep. His eyes widened as she turned over in her sleep, clutching her journal. He let out his breath that he didn't realize he was holding in one big whoosh as he realized she was still sleeping.
"Mm.. Don't you know Inuyasha.. I've always wanted a puppy…" Kagome mumbled in her sleep. At first , Inuyasha blushed that she mentioned him even in her sleep, but then he started growling because he realized that she referred to him as a 'puppy.' Just then, Kagome's eyes shot open and she realized who was growling.
"Inuyasha," Kagome whispered, as he slid off the bed and sat next to her.
"Kagome, you have to understand, I pulled away, I didn't..ugh.. I didn't want to kiss her," Inuyasha said with a defeated sigh. He felt a warm hand caressing his cheek, and he turned to see Kagome smiling sadly.
"It's not up to me who you want to be with, Inuyasha," Kagome said, a tear trickling down her cheek.
"Kagome! You don't.-" Inuyasha started, and too aggravated by the fact that she didn't understand, without thinking, he grabbed her by the back of her head, and pulled her to him and captured her lips in a warm, tender kiss.
A/N: Yeah, I am so good at cliffhangers, I know. R and R, and I'll write more!