Semptember 5th
Dear Diary,
It's amazing how much one event can change your entire life. I mean just one little decision and know I have so many paths to follow. It's just so...
I don't want you to have to suffer through my rantings or anything, but you are my diary. I still haven't fully decided which is the best thing to do. That is join the X-men or not. The others have. They've all gone on a mission, everyone that is except me. No, while they're out saving the world I'm back at home happily working in the danger room and surviving the Professor's physics class. Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to sound bitter or anything, it's just I wish I was as decisive as they are. I don't know how they do it, or how they can think past the problems I'm having with it. Then again, maybe they don't have them. Or maybe I'm just not cut out to be an X-man.
That's not it though. I know I'm cut out for it. Or at least the Professor thinks I'm cut out for it. Maybe he's wrong, but he's seldom wrong about anything. Maybe it's because I'm afraid, but I'm not. That is I'm not afraid to go out and fight for my place in the world. Maybe it's because I'm not as mature as everyone else. You know like I can't handle it like everyone else. AHH! It's so annoying. I keep talking myself into circles for no apparent reason. It's driving me nuts!
So anyway, that's about all I'm going to say. I guess I'll write again sooner or later.
Semptember6th
Dear Diary,
Hey, again. Life still goes on at Xavier's. I'm still undecided on whether or not I want to join the team. Though it is kind of nice not to be to pressed about it. Especially from the Professor. So yeah, speaking of the Professor I really need to talk to him about this whole physics thing, I just don't think I'm cut out for it.
Now you got me started. Now I'll need to tell you all about my classes since, well, you know. Pretty much they've all been the exact same, except for Logan's. For some reason the class now feels enjoyable. Weird, huh. You know I don't think the Professor totally drained every bit of Logan out of me. You see all of a sudden, I'm kicking butt in his defense class, literally. Okay, okay, I did so before this whole thing but now I'm actually doing well against him.
Since this whole mess he's been trying to use me as his example during class. The thing is though now I'm matching him move for move. A few times I think I actually got him good. Maybe it's not him though. I've been noticing just how powerful my new mutation is too.
Here's the thing. After we got back to the school, Dr. Grey ran a ton of test on me. No suprises there. Well, she and the Professor found that this new found skin is actually an underskin. That is it's produced under my skin and then forced up when I need it. They also found that its main purpose was to absorb light at a faster pace for my regenerative capabilities. It also assist in better control of my other powers. Somehow the skin blocks the toxins that coat my body releasing them only when needed. In other words when I'm in plant form I can touch others! So I get to say goodbye gloves forever, or at least at school. You know though I actually have been kind of unshielded with my gloves, no pun intended. I mean I'm so use to wearing them that its just radical not to have them Which is weird since a month ago I'd have jumped at the chance to be rid of them.
The thing is I'd have been jumping at the chance to do a lot of things. Main one being joining the X-men. So we're back to square one. Oh the irony and perils of adolecents. sigh.
P.S. I hate to say this but I'm starting to run out of paper. So my enteries should be finishing up till I ask for some new stuff.