Jeff was still in the same place he had been all night, hunched over his guitar playing around with the different notes and cords. With no more distraction he had finally made it back into his creative mode completely focusing on his music and nothing else. Untouched by the plaguing thoughts of his life. Matt, AIDS, rent, Mimi, all of it had vanished into the silence of the room. That was until the front door swung open revealing a highly energetic Mimi bursting into the apartment. Although he refused to look up Jeff could still see her in the corner of his eye. She wore a very short tub-top and black arm bands that went all the up to her shoulders. Her leopard print boots reached up to her knees, revealing pair of baby blue vinyl tights that clung to her curvaceous hips.

"Do you have any idea what time it is?" she asked but Jeff said nothing. He hoped the silent treatment might give the rambunctious younger woman the idea that she was not wanted around. Mimi just laughed off her rude welcome. "It's almost midnight, the witching hour; you shouldn't be sitting alone in your apartment. You should be out there painting the town red and being the envy of every man in the city with the hottest feline on Avenue B on your arm."

Her joke fell on Jeff's deaf ears but she didn't care. She was going to have a good time and she was determined to have him by her side.

"There's a great place downtown we could go. The doorman's got a soft spot for me so he always lets me in for free. If you come I'm sure he wouldn't charge you either…Come on Jeff take me out."

Enough was enough. Jeff couldn't take it anymore. He threw his guitar down and stood up facing the intruder. Mimi was surprised to find that his deep emerald eyes burning with anger. She didn't realize before how intimidating he could look. He was much bigger then he and no doubt much stronger.

"Who the hell do you think you are!" He yelled "You just barge into someone's home and demand they take you out! What the hell is wrong with you!"

"I just thought…"

"You know Mimi something tells me you don't think much!"

"So you just want to sit here all alone on Christmas Eve feeling sorry for yourself? Maybe I don't think things through but I'd rather get into trouble here and there then become some sort of social zombie! Events in my life have taught me that you can't always worry about everything. I live each day like it may be my last or else the whole world would pass me by. There's no day but today."

Jeff felt torn. A part of him wanted so much to let her in, to tell her everything. She reminded him so much of the burden free daredevil he once was. The live for the moment mentality. No day but today. But no! He couldn't let her break him down so easily.

"Excuse me there Confucius but if you're so wise then tell me why do you still need smack?" Mimi had no response, she was too hurt to answer "That's what I thought. Now get the hell out of my loft."

Mimi sadly made her way to the door but before she left she had one more thing to say. She turned back to Jeff who had resumed his usual position.

"We don't control our destinies Jeff.' She said "Shit happens whether we want it to or not. All we can do is just exist and trust our souls to lead us in the right direction."

She left the room but her words still lingered. "No day but today" Jeff thought. The words made so much sense but it was that exact way of thinking that left him alone and infected with an incurable disease. Still you can only be contempt with the lonely nights until you decide it time to move on. Jeff grabbed his leather coat and headed to go find Mimi. He flung open the door, ready to take the first steps towards his new life but instead slammed straight into Matt.

"Hey Jeff! Where's the fire?"

"Sorry man I was just…never mind. I thought you going to the meeting with Shannon and Angel."

"I did. I missed half of it cause I was busy help Joanne yet I still managed to make a complete ass of myself when I tripped over a stack of chairs upon my arrival."

"Always gotta be the center of attention, huh Matt?" Jeff laughed

"You know me…Wait a second. Where you going out?" Matt asked in a shocked tone.

"Yeah I think I'm gonna head over to Amy's show."

"I don't believe it. What brought about this sudden change of heart?"

"It's a long strange story."

"Well you can tell me all about it on the way to the lot." Matt said throwing his arm around his brother's shoulder as they shut the door behind them.