After about sleeping and waking up this morning, I decided not to do the lemon in this chapter after all.

Reason one it would hurt this story rather then help it.

Reason two I do not think I would be good at writing one up just yet.

Reason three, I like fluffy moments better for now.

I will make the lemon some other time, I just may write Seto and Alexandra's first time, you know the one which Kisty is conceived, I might do that as a prequel to this story later however it will be done once this story is finished up. Since I made Seto change so quickly when Alexandra came back into his life, it would be good to see them about a year before Kisty was born don't you think?

Chapter 43
Moments like this

"She is nothing, but our little slave, she will always will be a slave," said a voice in the darkness. Kisty turned her head; she could not feel anything except the chains on her hands, the feeling of intrusion to her core. The pain of the blades against her skin, the blood living her body, she could see all of it as clear as crystal. "Let me go, I am not yours to take, ah," she yelled, but no one heard her cry.

"You can't run from us, your tainted, you will never be with your love, now, he would never want a tainted wife, fallen angel who is really a child of a demon," said another darker voice. Kisty turned her head and tried to move, but that only made her pain worse. "HELP ME SOMEONE!" she cried. Kisty felt something grab her by the shoulders when she screamed.

"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!" she yelled shooting up in her bed covered in sweat. "Ah," said someone falling out of the bed next to her, Kisty breathing hard did not look over at who just fell. "Kisty?" he asked getting up, "It's alright, it over just a dream," spoke Josh coming over to her from the other side of the bed where she scared him off.

Kisty hugged her knees and started to cry this was the fifth time in the past few days that she had awoken to that very nightmare screaming and kicking Josh out of bed as well.

Josh placed both his hands on his fiancée's shoulders, as she tried to stop her hyperventilation.

"Josh?" she said quietly feeling him near by but not seeing him. Josh pulled Kisty close to his chest, "Shh, its ok Kisty I am here you're safe," he said calming her down by gently rubbing her back the same way Seto had told him too. Kisty was scared again, the rubbing would work most of the time but it was not the same because Josh's hands were not as big as Seto's hands not to mention he did not have the daddy touch. Kisty opened her eyes as she heard Josh's heart beat close to her ear, letting her eyes adjust to the darkness.

"It was so real, I can't get their words out of my head, being tainted, slave child, a demon," Kisty said near tears. Josh started to slowly rocked Kisty back and forth while rubbing her back, "You're no demon, or a slave to anyone. You're an angel don't let those voices say different," he said. Kisty nodded and looked up at Josh, "What about tainted?" she asked sadly.

Josh gave a long pause he knew whatever answer he gave it was going to hurt either of them. "Well, Kist, umm, you are yet you aren't at least to me in the end as long as I have you, they lose," he said calmly placing a kiss on her forehead.

Kisty gave a long slow sigh, meaning Josh was avoiding and she knew it. "I just wish I could make the nightmares stop Kist," said Josh kissing his angel's forehead again. Josh got up to leave but Kisty grabbed his arm, "Josh," she said in a shaky voice. Josh looked at Kisty, "Yes?" he asked. Kisty looked at her feet, "Can you stay with me?" she asked keeping her eyes focused at her feet.

Josh smiled, "I been waiting for you to say that," he said lying down next to her. Kisty lay on her back for a few moments, as she felt her nightmare start to become visible while she was awake. Josh could sense that Kisty was not going to fall asleep easily.

"Kisty I have a question," Josh said while thinking something. Kisty turned her head, "What is it?" she asked in a sigh, trying to keep her self-calm. "I was wondering should we do it?" he asked thinking that Kisty would probably kick him out of the room now. Kisty stayed silent for a few moments, as Josh lay there next to her, 'He would see a lot of the scars, I don't want him to see them all,' she thought to herself.

Josh rolled away from Kisty; he felt her long silence to be the answer for no, when really it meant she was thinking about it. 'If he see the scars will it make him turn me away, they are a reminder of how tainted I am. He didn't answer my question, when I asked him if he considered me tainted, so why should I just give myself to him?' 'Maybe you should,' said another voice.

(This isn't Alexandra in Kisty's head this is just, Kisty thinking)

'Why should I?' she thought back, 'Anyways you haven't been much help a few weeks ago.' 'Ok so you're a little slow on deciding but think about it, your going to marry the guy anyways, you love him right?' 'Duh, of course I love him, or else would I be marrying him?' she thought back. 'You really haven't made Josh happy in a long time,' said the voice. 'He been looking after me, and I do not feel safe without him, near me,' she thought.

Josh sighed, "never mind Kisty, forget I even…" Josh felt Kisty roll to her side and pull him closer. "I don't know if I can handle it, you know with the nightmare and all," she said, looking at him in the moonlight of the room.

"You don't have too, I mean, we can wait until were married," Josh said. Kisty kissed Josh on the lips. "I haven't made you happy in a long time," she said, looking sad. Josh smiled, "You make me happy just letting me be around you, and that's all I will ever need," he said. "Look, don't think about it, ok, I know it was kind of stupid of me to even consider if you were ready, it was two months ago when the rape happened, so why don't we just go to sleep," finished Josh getting up and to leave.

Kisty sat up, "Josh, I don't fell safe anymore," she said suddenly. Josh sat back down next to Kisty, letting her arms wrapped him as he pulled her into a gentle embrace, "You're safe here Kisty," he said kissing he gently on the forehead, "you will always be safe when were together," he said. Kisty nodded as Josh moved some loose bangs, from Kisty's eyes, "Get some sleep we have some butt kicking to do tomorrow and I know it's going to take a lot out of you."

"Goodnight Josh," Kisty said softly as Josh laid her down to sleep. "Good night Kisty," he said. "Don't let those nightmares bug you, ok, if you need anything I will be in my sleeping bag," he said putting the bag back on the bed. Kisty laughed, watching Josh climb in to a sleeping bag and lay next to her, "You know, when were married I am getting in the bag," she said.

Josh lifted his head puzzled, "Why?" he asked, "We will be married, and so we can, its part of the tradition." Kisty laughed, "I forgot to mention with you in too," she said laughing. Josh rolled over, "Good night my fallen Angel," he said going to sleep. Kisty smiled and shut her eyes, "Night my hot dragon," she said rolling to her side to sleep. Kisty felt the bed shake when she said that, and started to mentally, laugh at Josh.

The haunting of the past seems to consume Kisty, but could love fight off the darkness inside the angel? That is question only be answered by Kisty, for the time was coming when war and ravage would come but the question would this solve anything or leave more tragedy.

Twilight Memories: Yes, I thought the dancing of Preethi and Atem was funny too, DH Aka Preethi, wrote the bad dancing bit and I wrote the good dancing part. I think I briefly described Lisa but if you for get she has red hair, had Atem's height, and Tea's figure, I leave the face except for the eyes which are a mix of purple and blue up to you. Kisty well hasn't put Katharine aka "IT" in the equation for what happened, well that is until last chapter where our villains seemed to be mingling while watching her at the ball.

Darkstar71: (does and anime fall) 00 You figured it out, lol well not quite, actually the last one you got right yet at the same time wrong, you were off by two. Lisa is to be Slyfer, while Mokuba is to be Obelisk, and Atem as wing dragon on Ra. I applaud you for trying. Lol, anyways yes I have to give credit for my friend Preethi aka DH for hooking herself with Atem to be honest I could not come up with anyone to hook him up with there were not enough girls in Yugioh to do so lol. So my friend helped by having him with her and the final product is what you read two chapters ago.

Tenshi: Well I had decided that right now is not the right time to put a lemon in this story it drama and romance. As I said in my note above, I am thinking about a Kaiba and Kisty's Mom prequel, lemon to this story; however, I want to get this story done before I begin to work on that one. I know it is hard to find any male and female stories, so I decided to write my own, and add to the small number. I can stand a few of the guy with guy however only and only if there is a reason for it, and the story is good not just about well you know.

Wow I had a lot to say this time, I will have the next chapter up in about an hour, I have to leave for work in one hour and 30 minutes so I will try and get chapter 45 up before I have to leave if not then I will upload it tonight when I get home.