Part 7. To Belong and Stay.

Logan had landed the plane about a mile from the location he had gotten from Fury so that they wouldn’t get spotted and now they were walking through the thick snow on there way to save Jubilee.

"God its cold" Kitty said as she hurried to keep up the speed.

"I know what you mean" Kurt said. "And I have fur"

"What were you guys expecting a limo to take ya to the front door?" Rogue asked with a sarcastic voice.

"Quit messing around back there and hurry up!" Logan growled to them.

"Logan perhaps we should stop and let them rest we haven´t stopped since we left the plane" Ororo said as she walked beside him.

"No, I told them that they shouldn´t have come but they wanted to so they will just half to deal" He sighed. "Anyway it aint that far left"

XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Dark everything was dark and it hurt God it hurt...she opened her eyes she was still inside the tube still in the green water with needles attached to her. Voices she could hear voices coming from the outside, she opened her eyes and she saw them...the voices..they had hurt her they had done this... but why?

Her hands they itched something was inside them, something was inside her body something that wasn´t suppose to be there. Snick Pain! She looked down at her hands; two long blades of metal came out of them.

"How is he?" The man asked.

"Just fine a little confused but that is to be expected" The woman said.

Those two they did it, they hurt her...her breathings became faster and the animal that she had buried so deep inside of her started to come out. She wanted to get out she needed to get out she couldn´t breathe enough.

The man went up to her and put a hand on the glass with a smile, she had seen that smile before she hated it... she screamed and launched at him but the glass took the hit only leaving a small mark. She felt the hate within her and she could feel her blood start to boil she wanted out!

Her hands along with the blades started to glow and she couldn´t stop it.

"What´s happening!" Sinister screamed. "You said she wouldn´t be able to use her powers with that collar around her neck!"

"And she shouldnt I dont know..."

"We half to stop her otherwise..." A big explosion could be heard and the tank had been destroyed.

Jubilee was crawling away from it on the floor, pieces of glass was digging into her skin making her bleed but she didnt care her only thought was to get as far away from the people who did this do her as she could. She managed to stand up and look around everything was so clear, she could smell everything, hear everything and she could feel the need to kill... her animal was loose.

"Guards!" The big pale man called as she turned to look at him and hate took over, she screamed or it was more like a roar and started to run towards him but just as she was about to reach him a big net was thrown over her by five black cloths men.

They were afraid of her she could smell it and it didn’t take long for the adamantium blades to destroy the thin net and as soon as she was free she attacked the soldiers before they had, had a chance to fire of their guns.

She hit the first few men so that they got the blades right through their stomachs the others she slashed the throats of or decapitated until there was no one but herself, the pale man and the now petrified woman.

Jubilee was covered in blood and her mind was still set on kill as she once again turned to the man.

Sinister grabbed a hold of Melinda and pushed her towards Jubilee while taking of out a small door, Jubilee slashed Melinda across her belly making her fall hard to the ground. She didn’t stay to see if she was dead she just took of out the door after Sinister.

"This most be it" Logan said and started to "sniff" the air. "I smell blood"

"Well do we get in?" Rogue asked.

"Like this" Cyclops said and before they knew it there was a big hole in the building before them, they hurried inside but stopped as they saw the body´s of the soldiers.

"Oh my God what happened here?" Jean asked as she went over to see if any of the men showed any sign of life. Logan was standing by the tank, a flash of memories went through his mind but he ignored them he had to concentrate he couldnt loose it now. He bent down and touched the blood on the floor, it was still warm and he didn´t half to smell it to understand that it was Jubilee not after what Hank had told him in the way over there.

"This lab most have coast millions to built" Beast said as he looked over some paperwork that was lying on a table.

"Yeah to bad" Logan said and was about to say something else when Jean interrupted him.

"I think this one is alive!" She kneeled down beside a brown haired that looked a lot like Laura, most be Melinda Logan thought as he and Hank hurried over to her.

"She is breathing but she is very weak" Hank confirmed. "She has lost a lot of blood, miss can you hear me?" At first there was no response but after a few seconds the woman started to cough and she slowly opened her eyes. She looked around carefully until her eyes fell on Logan.

"Weapon X" She said in a weak voice.

"Where is she?" Logan asked. "Where´s the kid?"

"Project X is gone we failed" She told them. "Just like the first time..."

"Where is she!" Logan asked again with a higher voice this time. "Where is Project X?" He said figuring she would understand better if he called Jubilee that.

"It went after Sinister, the castle..." Melinda´s eyes closed and her weak breathing stopped.

"She is dead" Hank said with a sigh.

"So are we going after her or what?" Kitty asked.

"No I am she is not herself right now Jean contact the Professor and have him fly the plane over here, the rest of ya all search the castle for that Sinister guy" No one argued with Wolverine this time, they watched him fallowing Jubilee´s sent into the forest and then they headed up to the bid old stone building.

She had lost it, she had lost her pray and she didn´t know were she was she sniffed the air, she had been in these woods before but that had been along time ago. She started to walk with her blades still out just incase, what had happened? She couldnt remember anything, who she was, what she was...nothing... she only knew that she had to survive. Oh God her head hurt why wouldn´t it stop? She started to slash wildly around her mostly hitting trees and bushes, she saw Sinister´s face infront of her and the anger almost took over completely.

Then she stopped someone or something was getting closer to her, she sniffed the air again, she knew that smell but was it a friend or an enemy? She slowly stepped into a few bushes and started to wait, ready to attack.

Wolverine stopped Jubilee´s footsteps and the trace of blood was all over the place he couldnt tell which direction she had gone. Then he heard it a heartbeat, he sniffed the air she was right there.

"Jubilee?" he asked. "I know yer here kid"

Jubilee? That sounded so familiar…but who was that man…did she know him? She slowly stepped out from the bushes and looked at him. Logan didn’t move a muscle he knew that the slightest movements could scare her and that was the last thing he wanted to do, he looked down at her hands and at the two blades that was coming out of them. They had done it they had been to late, she had been through the Weapon X process.

Jubilee took a few steps closer but the man didn’t move he just looked, she started to walk in a circle around him getting a little bit closer with each step, she started to smell him he was feral she could sense that.

"Jubilation?" He spoke she stopped. "I´m not here to hurt ya, do ya understand" he said it a in a calm even tone and he still didn’t move, if he had wanted to attack her he could have done it a long time ago. She nodded she did understand what he was saying.

"Okay that´s good, try to come back to me your not an animal"

She wasn´t? What was she then? She walked around him one last time and then stopped right infront of him.

"What am I?" She asked feeling pain in her throat with every word.

"You´re a human" The man answered and removed the mask that had been covering his face. "Do you know your name?" he asked her, she thought for a second.

"WildCat" She answered. "And Project X" why was she called so many things? Her head started to pound and she fell to her knees.

Logan bent down beside her.

"You are Jubilation Lee" He told her.

"I am?" She said weakly, she was so tired she could hardly remember anything and everything hurt why had they done this...why? She started crying there was noting else left to do so she cried, she leaned forward against the man chest and she felt two strong arms around her. If he wanted to kill her he could she didnt care, life was nothing to her and it would never be.

"Dont worry kid its gonna be alright"

They stayed that way until she had cried herself to sleep, then Logan carefully picked her up and started to go back towards the castle. When he reached the military building he could see that the big black plane had been landed right next to it and beside it the rest of the X-men along with Professor Xavier stood.

Jubilee made a small noise and pulled herself closer to Logan but she didn’t wake up, when the X-men spotted them Logan made a sign to them to be quiet he didnt want her to wake up she could get scared and go completely feral again.

He carried her into the plane and put her down on a sick bed in the back.

"Should I look her over?" Hank asked.

"No wait until we´re home she needs to sleep"

"Is she gonna be okay?" Jean asked.

"Don´t know red we just half o wait and see”

"We searched the castle no one was there" Scott told him as he took hi seat. "We could go back here tomorrow and see if we can find anything useful"

"Yeah but I doubt we will find anything" Logan sighed and sat down.

Professor Xavier started the plane and they headed home no one said a word on that ride, they just didnt know what to say.

XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Jubilee had been sleeping for the past 24 hours since Wolverine had found her, Hank had cleaned her up putting bandage on her cuts and making sure that he didnt give her to much medicine since she already had been pump with drugs from Project X.

Jubilee slowly opened her eyes this time she wasnt in a tube but in a bed in a light room. The med-lab her mind told her she was in the med-lab, she was home, she was home...

She slowly sat herself up, her body still hurt but not as much as before and all the memories was fresh in her mind, everything from being dumped in the tube from killing those guards till the minute Logan came and found her.

She looked down at her hands and with a load "snick" the two blades came out, she quickly made them go back in not really feeling the urge to look at what they had done to her.

Everything was so quit she could even hear her own heartbeat, she "smelled" the air a lot of people had been in the room but the scents she could make out to be the most resent visitors was Hank and Logan.

"Oh God" She said out load and put her hands over her head, they knew, they all knew, they knew what she was what she had done hell they had seen what she had done to those soldiers.

Sinister had been right all along she was an animal. She slowly stood up she needed to get out of there what if she went feral again or lost control of her powers and blew the whole mansion down, she was a danger to everyone.

As she stood up she notes that she was dressed in an oversized white t-shirt that went below her knees, it wasnt the best thing to take of in but she didnt have time to change. She carefully opened the door making sure that no one was around before she stepped out, she listen carefully as she walked down the long metal hall but nobody seemed to be down there, she stepped into the elevator and pressed the "up" button.

As the doors opened she could hear voices coming towards her, she hurried to the nearest window and opened it and without thinking twice she jumped out landing perfectly on all fours but she was still weak so she had to wait a few seconds before she could stand up.

She then took of into the forest it just seemed to be a good place to hide at the moment; she started to run as fast as she could considering her state.

She thought about everything as she ran, her family´s murder, the Project X training all those lonely years on the streets everything and everything at the same time and still the thing that hurt the most no matter what had happened on the streets or whatever Project X had made her do seeing her family die took the price.

She couldnt run anymore she was to tired she had to rest, she stopped and leaned against a big old tree and thats when she notes that the tears was streaming down her face and she couldnt stop it. She sat down and hit the ground in anger before hugging her knees tight.

She was crying so much that it hurt and she could feel herself shaking with every sob, she hadnt cried like that since her family´s funeral and she had sworn she wouldnt do it again and here she was crying her eyes out.

Yeah sure the Professor could get her help but no matter how much she talked nobody would understand, nobody would never understand...how could they?

She could hear someone coming but she didnt care, it wasnt and enemy that was all she needed to know to not care.

Her blades came out and she tensed, it hurt everytime they came out but somehow her flesh healed after they went back inside, it most have been something that Project X had done.

She heard the steps coming closer but she didnt look up, she didnt want anybody to see her crying like this.

"Jubilee" It was Logan she could hear it and smell it, he kneeled beside her but she still didnt look at him.

Just about five minutes after Jubilee had taken of Hank had notes and told everyone, but when the rest of the X-men was on the way to go and look for her Logan had stopped them. She didnt need a whole bunch of people coming after her right now she would only feel hunted so he had gone after her himself.

He knew how she felt because he had felt the same way many times, after they got back he had gone down and read her file he had no idea what she had been through.

She had seen her family getting killed lived through Project X and then survived the streets and all that in such a short lifetime, it wasnt fare.

He looked at her she was still crying he could feel that she wanted to stop but she couldnt. He then looked at the blades, sick son of a bitch, he thought and touched one blade lightly, it was warm.

"Jubilee" He said again. "Jubilee look at me" He could see that she was listening because she had stopped crying but she still didnt look up.

"Look at me" He said again and put a finger under her chin forcing her head up to look at him. She looked tired like her soul was way too old for her body.

"I know how you feel" He said and tucked some of her hair behind her hair. "And I know you think that no one can else can feel this way right now, but I do know" Jubilee looked at him, yeah he did know he´s life had been mostly just shit to and he had been through Weapon X but still...

"I can´t be here" She said in a small voice.

"Why is that?" Logan asked.

"I´m dangerous"

"Yes you are" Logan said with a sigh. "But only if you want to be"

"You have a choice you can either let the Professor and me help ya with your powers or ya can hide and be as dangerous as ya like" He held out a hand to her. "It´s your choice" Jubilee looked at him and at the hand he was offering her and after a few seconds she took it and stood up looking at him, she could feel the tears sneaking up on her again and slowly she leaned forwards and rested her head on Logan´s chest.

Logan put his arms around her and hugged her tight and she started to cry again but this time it felt a little better, not much but still a little.

"I just want them back" She mumbled. "I want them back so much"

"I know kid I know" Logan said.

They stood there until Jubilee couldnt cry anymore then they headed back to the mansion, everybody else was inside preparing dinner so they didnt run in to anybody on their way to her room.

"Ya wanna go down and have something to eat?" Logan asked and Jubilee knew that the real question was, ya wanna go down and meet everybody? Well she had to meet them sometimes right? They did live in the same house.

"Yeah sure" She answered. "I´m just gonna go and freshen up a little" She said and looked down on herself. “Or a lot” Logan waited outside as she took some cloths and headed into the bathroom.

Jubilee looked at herself in the mirror Logan had told her that Hank had cleaned her up as good as he could but she still felt dirty.

"I´m just gonna take a quick shower" She said in a normal tone knowing that Logan would hear her. "5 minutes tops" She hurried into the shower and washed herself and her hair then she hurried out to dry her hair and then she applied some make-up. She didnt wanna look like hell just because she felt like it; she then put on the black blouse and the dark red leather pants she had brought in with her. When she opened the door and stepped out she found Logan standing there with his arms crossed over his chest.

"That was more like 20 minutes and dinner has been ready for 5" He said.

"Yeah well I didnt wanna look like ya know shit"

"I dont yet you women folks ya can be through hell and over but still ya cant ignore yer looks" Logan said with a sigh.

"Yeah and still ya love us"

"You ready to go down?"

"Yeah I guess... its just..."

"Just what?"

"What will they think of me?2 Jubilee said looking out her window. "I mean they saw what I did to those guards...what if they are afraid of me?" She turned to look at him.

"No their not they are just worried, they know that none of this is yer fault" Logan said and opened her door making a gestured for her to fallow him out. "But somehow I don´t think you know that" he added.

"Yeah maybe" Jubilee fallowed Logan down the stairs until they reached the entrees of the dinning room, the doors were closed but you could hear the happy voices and smell the food.

Logan started to open the door and looked at her.

"Ya comin?" He asked, Jubilee sighed and nodded her head yes and they stepped inside.

Everyone went quiet and looked at them, Jubilee felt like going back to her room again but then Ororo stood up and went over to them.

"Come here child I saved you a seat case you were hungry" She took Jubilee by the shoulders and led her and Logan to tow empty seats across from her and Jean.

No one said anything until Kitty reached for some bread.

"So are those pants new?" She asked looking at Jubilee´s red leather pants.

"Yeah" Jubilee answered. "I bought them a few weeks ago"

"There really cool"

"Thanks" Kitty gave her a big smile and then asked Kurt to pass the butter and soon the room was filled with talking voices again.

"See wasn´t so bad" Logan said as the deserts were brought in.

"Could had been worse thanks God Kitty never can be quiet" Jubilee said as she took the last big piece of the warm apple pie that had been placed before her.

"Kurt" She then said.

"Ja?"

"Stop looking at my pie"

"I am not looking at your pie...besides you took the last apple"

"So take the blueberry"

"But their noting alike" Kurt murmured.

Jubilee smiled to herself thank God they weren’t treading her different she guessed that the Professor had talked to them. And no one was scared either she would have smelled the fear the moment she walked into the room.

After dinner Jubilee went back to her room, as happy as she was that no one was treating her differently she felt like she needed to be alone.

She closed the door behind her and went over to her bed lying down with a sigh. She slipped her hand under her pillow to take out the picture of her family but it wasn’t there, she stood up and notes that it was on her desk along with her broken diary…broken? It hadn’t been broken when she had left, well left and left but still. She took the book and smelled it.

"Logan" She said out load. "I swear if you have read anything I´ll kill ya" She then took the picture and went back to her bed falling asleep with it tightly pressed to her chest.

Maybe just maybe things would be better...just maybe.

1 Month Later

"That´s good Jubs keep it up!" Logan said as Jubilee unleashed her blades and attacked the dummy infront of her. While Professor Xavier had helped Jubilee with her mental power along with her plasma blast or rather explosions, Logan had been responsible for teaching her to use her senses and blades.

"How is she doing?" A voice asked behind Logan.

"Much better Charles" Logan answered. "She aint scared of them no more"

"Good but is such a...brutal training really good for her?" Professor Xavier asked and looked as Jubilee jumped over the dummy and stabbed it in the back.

"She needs it, it help her get her frustrations out in a way she is use to"

"Yes well I do trust you know best in this situation, after you are done will you please send her to Hank she needs to take her medicine"

"How long will she half to take those pills?"

"Not very long but we need to clear put the drugs that Sinister put in her body, the last thing she needs is to get sick"

"Yeah...Hank still looking at that collar she wore?"

"Yes but we do not know how it works yet, we just know that it was design to stop mutant powers and still she managed to use hers"

"Yeah I did wanna know why?" A voice said and the men turned around to see Jubilee.

"Yes" Professor Xavier said and looked at her with a strange look. "I would like that very much"

"The collar doesnt really hold own our powers nothing can, our powers are one of the most natural thing about us that collar can hold them as much as it can hold down your soul. Its all in our minds that what the collar does it is all mind control" Professor Xavier smiled at her.

"You are correct" He told her. "I couldnt have said it better myself"

"Yeah well now we just gotta make the rest of the world see that" Jubilee said with a smile she was about to excuse herself and go back to her training when the alarm went of.

"Sounds like trouble" Logan said.

"Hurry up!" Cyclops yelled as he rushed down the hallway pass them. "Magneto has been sighed at the White House!"

"Ya fellin up to it?" Logan asked Jubilee.

"Well what can I say home sweet home" and with that she took of after Cyclops already in her X-men uniform and ready for the battle whatever it was.

Now don´t want to talk about the things you overcame

By dragging up the past I´ll put you through it all again

I´ve got the greatest admiration for the way that you got through it

Couldn´t ask nobody else to do it better let you do it

Stay...

Stay...Yeah that the toughest thing to do

Stay...

The End!