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D.S.: I removed the song ('Private Emotions' sung by Ricky Martin) I used from this fic because of this message.

Kikyou's Heart

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha. But I wouldn't mind getting to own Sessy. (grins)

I sat on the outskirts of a village where I was currently staying. My search for Naraku wasn't going well and his outright attempt of trying to kill me by having that demon try to steal all the souls that I had gathered proved that I wasn't going to be able to easily deceive him. Inuyasha had saved my life that day. Inuyasha was there for me. In fact I think that I could even say that he loved me.

I know that my obsession to find Naraku has been pushing you further away from me. My actions. My words, harsh, cutting, hurtful and precise. All of it a guise to hide my true feelings of passionate love for you. If Naraku knew how I felt he'd find a way to murder you, or destroy your friends. Also my focus on Naraku would be distracted if you and I had a relationship right now. Plus there is that girl Kagome.

Inuyasha I love you! That's how I feel in my heart! I was so desperate that I tried to drag you down to hell with me but know that it was only because I feared that we couldn't be together in this world of the living.

I have no one else! No one but you can understand why I still try to live on. Truly understand. No man wants a living dead clay dead woman. No man except you Inuyasha. No man or should I say hanyou but you.

I remembered when last we kissed. Now I know what it truly means that 'ignorance is bliss'. I never thought of myself as being living dead or half alive. In fact when I was fully living fifty years ago, I never felt THIS alive!

Our Passion for each other. Our private yet so publicly displayed emotion. I feel it for you. I know that you must feel it for me. One day I will destroy Naraku and you and I will be together like it was meant to be. I will make Kagome only a fleeting memory.

Sometimes I get so sick of feeling these emotions that I relish seeing your pained face at every rebuff I give you instead of the love that you seek from me.

Sometimes I feel that either you love me or you don't. But wasn't it selfish for me to try and drag you down to hell just to end the fear of getting revoked?

I now know that any doubts that I might have you must have them too. Are we meant to be together? Will Kagome win your heat forever? Will I Kikyou; your first love, lose? Is fifty years that long a time? Is true love unable to truly stand beyond life and grueling test of time?

I know that one day I will come to you and you will either accept or deny me. If you deny me I will just give up my soul and die. How can I truly survive if you don't love me? I mean, I don't WANT Naraku and besides I want him dead for what he had done to me. Murdered me when I was young and in my prime. Now I'm living off souls while some dumb average fifteen year-old reincarnated hussie is trying to steal the love of my life!

I will keep my love a secret for now. Keep it deep inside.

The hostility between us right now makes our love silent without a voice to express itself.

All the evil and bad times in each of our lives are trying to steal our love but I will not let it die.

But our love must be somewhere within your heart. Our passion somewhere within your memory and being.

Whether you decide to love me or to stay with that teenager I'll never forget you. You're the only one for me.

Please choose me and let your feelings for me show. Your true feelings. Until you decide I'll keep these thoughts and feelings locked up in my heart. And I'll be ready to unlock it with my life which is they key. But if you reject me my heart will shatter and I will die.

I will wait for you to decide. I get so desperate sometimes. This is WHY I can't tell you my true feelings before I defeat Naraku. But honestly I hope for one thing. That in the end, you decide that your one true love is me.

End of Kikyou's Heart

Reggae: Will Inuyasha make his choice? How much longer will Kikyou and Kagome have to wait? Which one will he choose? You have to wait readers. Please Review.