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*Maeris *DragonBlade *Syaoran-Lover *Lychee Fairy *Hiwatari-Gurl

GOB: OK people, I have a few VERY IMPORTANT NOTES to make.

1) There will always be at least one poem in each chapter, written by me, so DON'T COPY IT!!!!!!!! I recently found out that the poem I wrote in chapter 3 was plagiarized. That hurts a lot, since writing poems is something I love to do and watching someone steal my stuff away from me, really kills. If this happens again I will NEVER, NEVER, NEVER UPDATE DEPTH OR DANGEROUS MEMORIES EVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2) If you don't understand a part of a poem or a part of the story, please ask. I know my fic is confusing.

3) I've been wondering if you people want a happy ending or a sad one, or if you want me to do both, and make it your choice weather to read the happy or sad ending, or even both.

4) Exams are starting up so updates will be scarce, okay more scarce than already, until all my fucking exams are over.

5) I need to ask for some help. If anyone has any ideas for what Kai should go through in Russia, please let me know via review or e-mail. I already have a few ideas, but I need more.

Kai: If your done, start the fic. If your not, I don't give a damn. Start the fic.

GOB: *sticks tongue out at Kai* Fine, fine. OK, I don't own Beyblade, but I do own this fic, AND MY POEMS!!!!!!!!!!!!

-*\ The Bladebreakers /*-

"Hey Rei." Max said softly, so as not to wake up Tyson or Kenny. The two had fallen asleep. Max didn't blame them. None of them had gotten any rest after Kai's sudden departure. He was exhausted as they were, but just couldn't fall asleep.

"What is it Max?" Rei asked, equally quiet. He tried to keep as calm and composed as possible. He kept thinking of what Kai would do in this situation. The thing was, he didn't think it would have happened with Kai around.

He remembered when he left the Bladebreakers. (A/N: This next part is made up. Some parts of this fic will be so live with it.) He had run into Kai after talking to Mr. Dickinson about leaving.

_*\ F l A s H- b A c K /*_

Rei quickly walked out of Mr. Dickinson's office. He had done it. He had quit the Bladebreakers. He quickly walked out, keeping his head down, as if to hide the pain in his eyes. He knew he was of no use to his friends without Drigger. Drigger... Rei couldn't believe he had lost his bitbeast.

As Rei ran through all his thoughts, he also ran into someone. He just proceeded to walk away, until a voice cut him off.

"Leaving are you. I can't say I'm surprised."

Rei spun around to meet face to face with Kai. Rei swore softly under his breath and then began stammering excuses.

"You better hurry, Kenny and the others will be up soon. Max and Tyson will definitely follow you, and find you eventually."

"But Kai, I..."

"Listen to me Rei," Kai ordered in his calm, cool, collected voice, "Leave. Only you can choose when and why you will return. If you do at all."

Rei stood there stunned. Kai was actually LETTING him leave??? As Kai slowly walked away, he stopped, and said,

"Even without Drigger..."

And then disappeared in the early morning mist.

_*\ E n D f L a S h - B a C k /*_

And he had left. The more Rei thought about it, the more he realized it. It was mostly due to Kai he had left, he had let Max and Tyson find him, that he had come back... without Drigger.

Because, though Rei never realized it until now. That was what Kai had meant all along.

He knew Rei would come back. He knew Rei would come back without Drigger.

He knew that letting Rei leave to clear his head would be best for him, and everyone else.

He knew...

-*\ Kai and now Tala /*_

"Hello... Kai" Tala said softly, looking his old enemy, and even older friend, in the face.

Both boys just stood there looking at each other, before walking slowly out of the airport, making their way to Tala's car. (A/N: Yes, they can drive. I just can't write a fic with them to young to drive. Live with it.)

As Tala pulled out of his parking place, he noticed Kai pulling out his CD player journal, and a pen. Then begin to write.

"He still keeps a journal..." Tala thought, before concentrating on his driving, though letting a few stray thoughts pass through his mind.

"Well," Max said, thoughtfully, "What if we don't find Kai? What if we do find him, and he doesn't want to come back? What if -"

Here Max was cut off by Rei, "Don't say that Max." He sighed, and gazed out the window, "We have to believe that we'll find him and that he'll come back, and that we'll be able to help him, and bring things back o normal. Or else, it'll never happen."

"I guess so..." Max murmured softly.

"Rei is right Max, we can't stop believing." Kenny said chirpily as he woke up.

"Yeah!" Tyson shouted happily... causing everyone on the plane to look at him.

"HAVEN'T YOU EVER SEEN ANYONE EXCITED BEFORE????? GO BACK TO YOUR OWN BUSINESS!!!!!!!!!" Tyson yelled, causing his friends to groan, and hide their faces.

Even though they were all joking around, they were all still extremely worried about Kai...

^*) Kai's Journal Entry (*^

(A/N: This poem is slightly less dark. But it's still pretty sad and cynical.)

I'm here in Russia.

I still don't know why I came here. Maybe because Tala is the only one who could ever comprehend what I'm going through. And just my luck, he just had to be in Russia.

Tala's always been the only one to ever have been able to see straight though me. Whenever I was sad, planning something, or just depressed, he always knew.

Even when I was dying (A/N: Figuratively, not literally!), and refused to let anyone see or help me, mostly because I couldn't trust anyone, he still came and helped me.

Tala's always been the only one I can trust...

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- My pain is beginning to destroy me.

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- Always hiding who I really want to be.

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- I pretend and act like I'm perfectly fine.

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- But you seem to notice my one true sign.

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- I'm hurt and broken because of it all.

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- Each duty, responsibility and call.

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- Everyone asking me to be something I'm not.

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- I'm scared, yes scared, of being caught.

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- Being seen not like you want me to.

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- Beating myself on the inside, black and blue.

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- Escape is the one thing I truly need.

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- Because all I want is to be freed.

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- I fall to the ground, weak and helpless.

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- You save me, bringing life to the lifeless.

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- For that I will trust you 'till the end.

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- You're the only one I can truly call, a friend.

No matter how hard I try to block everyone out, to be completely alone...

I know I'll never be. Because there is someone out there who I can completely trust.

^(* Max's Journal *)^

(A/N: I'm going to have Max start a journal and start showing parts of Tala's journal. But only every two or three chapters for Max and three or four chapters for Tala. Kai's will continue being in every chapter. Any poems shown in Max's or Tala's journal are NOT 'written' by them. They are there to show a little bit of insight on their feelings. The one's in Kai's journal ARE 'written' by him. The poem's in Max's and Tala's journals will be spread out through the journal entry and then I'll bring them together at the end. They will be separated from the real journal entry by ************)

Well, here I go. I decided to start a journal. Kai used, or I guess still uses, his journal to help him sort out his thoughts. So I thought I'd use mine to do the same.

I don't really want to write about everything that's happened these past few days. So I won't.

Damn, I can't believe it! I only wrote a few sentences and none of them are important, but I already feel a bit better!

Everyone always thinks I have the perfect life, mostly because I'm always so happy.

************

Decepting the darkness within my mind,

Pretending that light is all that I find,

************

In all complete honesty, I'd say I am pretty depressed. I always cover up my sad, depressed feelings and thoughts with smiles, laughs and jokes. But within my outward appearance, I'm a mass of nerves and worries.

************

I smile; I laugh; I joke around,

But in my joyful appearance is found,

************

I don't like worrying my friends. They all have their own problems, they don't need mine. Their problems are usually more important than mine. I mean, look at Kai! His problems are a hundred times worse!

************

The sorrows and worries which hurt me so,

I looks so up; but I feel so low,

************

I usually spend a little time just letting it out at night. And if you must know how. I cry.

Yes I cry. Yes guys can cry.

I don't really care about that anymore, I guess this journal thing really works!

************

I laugh during the day; and cry at night,

I want to give in; I don't want to fight.

************

Well, that's all for now!

Signed,
Max

(A/N: OK here is the poem in full.

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- Decepting the darkness within my mind,

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- Pretending that light is all that I find,

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- I smile; I laugh; I joke around,

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- But in my joyful appearance is found,

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- The sorrows and worries which hurt me so,

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- I looks so up; but I feel so low,

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- I laugh during the day; and cry at night,

¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§-¤-±-§- I want to give in; I don't want to fight.

"We're here." Tala said softly, pulling into the hotel parking lot. He glanced at Kai, and said, "Let's go get you checked in."

"Yeah." Kai said softly, then hesitated. He spoke again, more slowly and more softly than before,

"Then we can talk..."

Tala looked surprised. He knew it had to be very important if Kai wanted to talk about it...

GOB: Chapter 5 done! YAY! And remember people,

IF YOU EVEN COPY ONE LINE OF ANY OF MY POEMS I WILL NEVER UPDATE DEPTH OR DANGEROUS MEMORIES AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!

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