CHAPTER2: The Reunion Broken Memories
Terra had accepted his offer for the tower tour, for old times sake. She just wanted to get out of that inhospitable room as quick as possible. It was as if a nightmare lurked every dark corner of the room…just like her mind. She had felt feelings in that room that felt abnormal and highly uncomfortable. The thought of all the titans watching her every movement as if she were a freak in a local freak show, and she just couldn't say no to Beast Boy. For some strange reason she could never say no to him. It was like a curse. Doomed to serve his every command. Every time he tried to make her feel better, it always worked. She felt strange around him, maybe because she looked up to him and could trust him like no one else in the world.
"You know what, last night I was arguing with Cyborg about eating tofu and some how I won, but do you know what he did?" He asked her trying to get her mind off of her trance.
"What did he do?" She asked.
"He made me a tofu pie and then slammed it in my face! And said: eat that you little grass stain!" Beast Boy replayed.
Terra didn't laugh or let the lightest giggle escape her lips. There was nothing to laugh about! She saw her world reappearing right before her eyes. And her world was shattered and broken…no one could ever fix it! It was an eternal life that she must live the rest of her life. Her lala land was nothing to enjoy! (Sorry, that's what my dad call it when my mom or me drift off into deep thought and don't listen to a word he says) She was forever concealed in a dark box of misery and there was nothing any one could do about it!
Beast Boy noticed her deep concentration and he could almost read her mind. From the day he met Terra he always seemed to connect to her, even when she was concealed in a stone case. He knew she was confused and lost inside and he didn't know how to help her. He was lost too! He lost the map to her heart. Before she was revived…He was far more lost than the eyes could see. No one could find the real Beast Boy! He was lost without Terra! That was the true reason she was brought back, to make him happy again. They brought her back to make him happy, but right now he was very depressed. They brought back so many painful memories. They brought back the girl who was so sad and lost, that they just made him sadder. This wasn't the real Terra! The real Terra made him laugh and get butterflies in his stomach when she was near. This right at his side was a girl with gifted power, but was burdened with so much guilt that she could not even defeat it with her own power. This was Terra's guilt…and it was telling him everything without even moving her lips.
"Terra…I know why your sad…it's because you're confused and alone…isn't it?" He asked in a soft tone.
She thought for a moment of his question. 'How does he know that?' she asked herself.
"Is it that obvious?" She asked.
Everything was silent for about 60 seconds. Every second felt like time was going slow- mo and gravity was increasing trying to push them to the ground.
"Terra I know you're sorry and I know that your not alone. It's as if I'm connected to you, Terra and the sadder you feel the more I feel it too. So perk up okay? Bringing you back is suppose to be a good thing but, if you don't get happy soon, then what's the use of bringing you back if you just going to mope around on your butt all day." Beast Boy expressed while putting his hand on her shoulder.
She knew that he was right! She could feel him too. Sometimes he could bring her out of the darkness and into the daylight so she could look at the bright sides of her life!
They arrived at a door with letters carved in it. The letters reminded Terra of her power. She lightly traced the letters with her gloved hand. The letters read T-E-R-R-A…TERRA. She could remember this room perfectly. The door slid open as she put her hand down. The two teens walked into the dark room. The only thing that could be seen was the stars on the ceiling. Suddenly the lights jolted on which revealed her old habitat where she rested in at night. The purple desert sky lined parts of her walls and the savanna covered the lower half of the room
And she almost broken into uncontrollable sobs when she saw a glittering silver heart shaped box sitting up right on her bed. The box glittered gracefully under the beaming light of the room. The heart looked so untouched compared to hers.
She slowly approached her bed. She ever so gently picked up the tender memorial. She lifted the lid to find a mirror inside and a blue butterfly clippie. She gaped in amazement. This was far most her favorite thing to remember. The Box brought back so many memories of her Beast Boy. Tears formed behind her eyes. She pulled the box to her chest and clutched it tightly. Beast Boy walked over to her and hugged her close.
"I really missed you T, I really did." Beast Boy assured her with a whisper.
She heard him, but sort of tuned him out. It was as if she could only hear memories and hate. She really missed him too, but now that she was back, she wanted to be taken back to her grave of stone. She always felt like she was being consumed by depression and things that made her cry through her heart.
"Hey Terra, I'm gonna let you stroll down memory lane, because something tells me that the others are about to throw a fit with me! Okay? He said letting go of her.
She didn't answer. She was engulfed by thought
Beast Boy picked up the butterfly clippie out of the box and carefully put it in her honey blonde hair. He loved to see her cerulean blue eyes. And maybe moving some of her hair out of the way might help her see what's really in front of her.
"Okay, T?" He repeated his question
She snapped back to reality!
"HMM! Oh yah sure see you later. She said a little shaken.
He slowly left her room and closed the door behind him with worriment at his heels.
Terra's head began to throb again with flashing memories of heart brake. She felt an uncomfortable lump in her throat, which made her nose clog up. It felt like she was retaining the ocean in the back of her eyes. This feeling felt ever so familiar, she suddenly remembered what this horrible emotion was! She was sad. She felt the need to cry, but tried her best to keep it an inside emotion. She wasn't going to break down, she was going to stay strong and she couldn't let her memories get the best of her. But right at the moment…memories was all she wanted to think about! She sat down on her bed and gazed at the beautiful heart of happy timed in her life. One specific memory came back to her, one that she treasured and held close to her heart, the green guy who asked her out, because he cared and loved her.
FLASHBACK!
She heard knocking at her door and naturally she answered. She found Beast Boy at her door. He stood there blushing up a storm. He smiled nervously and started to sweat like rain. She didn't know why he was at her door when all the other titans were asleep.
"Umm…hi" He spoke with no prepared start off.
"Hi?" She answered suspiciously.
An uncomfortable silence came by. They both just stood there waiting for something to happen. About 2min passed by until one of them spoke.
"Well okay, nice talking to you." Terra said with a little unsure tone in her voice.
She began to walk back into her room when she heard a shouting plea.
"NO!" Beast Boy yelled. He pulled out a poorly wrapped package from behind his back.
"I uh…kinda made you something." He said
She turned around to face him. He had an innocent look upon him.
"You did?" She questioned. She never really got gifts from people, since she was always on the road.
As he handed her the gift he began to speak. "Yah, sorry got a little crazy with the glue gun." He said trying to sling the glue gun off his hand.
She opened the poorly wrapped paper to find the most beautiful gift ever bestowed upon her. A silver, glitter glossed heart shaped box. The box glistened like the stars in the midnight skies. The box mesmerized her; it was as if it put her in a magical trance. A trance that concealed her so she could not escape. She lifted the lid to find a mirror on the other side. She was able to stare at her reflection. She gasped in astonishment.
"Beast Boy it's…I don't know what to say!" She spoke calmly. Then she got a surprising reply. One that she would never forget and one that she held close to her heart.
"You could say yes. Because I'm about to ask you out on a date!" He answered.
END FLASHBACK
She never let go of that memory! She could think of that one forever. Oh how she wanted to taste his lips and hug him close. She could imagine a whole future that would never exist. She could only dream. Because of her betrayal she knew he could never love her again. Because she broke his heart!
FLASHBACK
She felt down to the floor with deep sobs of confusement. She held her head in her gloved hands.
"Oh…Beast Boy, I'm sorry…I'm so sorry…I didn't mean for any of this to happen! She said between sobs.
"Then why did you let it?" Beast Boy asked roughly.
Terra slowly got up off the floor. Her eyes filled with fear. The pupil in her eye had shrunken from the state of shock she was in. And it seemed as if her life was coming to a tragic end.
"I don't know, okay? I don't know! Slade…he helped me save me from myself…he said I owed him, but… she trailed off.
"So it was all a game? You were just pretending?" Beast Boy judged hastily.
She couldn't believe what he was saying. He had promised her that no matter what he would always be her friend. No matter what her secret was. That was before Slade came along and told Beast Boy himself.
"No…you said you'd be my friend no matter what, remember? She reminded. Suddenly Beast Boy did something totally out of mind. He turned his back on her. And gave her a deadly death glare. A glare that appeared to say 'I don't want anything to do with the likes of you, now why don't you just go hide under a rock and die there.'
"Slade was right! You don't have any friends." He exclaimed hatefully.
ENDFLASH BACK
Those words…where they even real? That day her heart throbbed for hours. The way he had looked at her pierced her eyes and her mind. And those words stained her skin.
'Did he really mean what he said? Or was he just mad?' She thought.
At the peak of his words she felt her life, her soul, her mind, and her heart being torn onto millions of microscopic pieces.
Her temples began to ache. She began to rub her temples with the tips of her fingers. Concentration was almost impossible at the moment. Her brain was over flowing with thought of what ifs and maybes. She could barely remember her name with all the tension surrounding her.
She put the heart shaped box on her bed at her side. She tried to herd all of her feelings and emotions back into their pen, but they kept on busting loose. She just gave up and got up. She looked at her door. She was thinking if she should go downstairs or not. Seeing all of them all would damage her. But not going to see them would leave her lost in her. Drowning in her teary eyed memories, driving her insane. She wanted to leave this place. And start a new life. But if she did…what would happen to Beast Boy? He would surely die if she left him. In a way she wanted to stay with him and be with him forever. Her mind and her heart were having a tug of war, to convince her, which way she should be directed. She shook her head attempting to shake away the battle, taking place in her head.
She had made her decision…she slowly made her way to the door and it slid open for her. She was on her way to the living room!
